In slacking mode these days but also bz clearing up my rm & gg for my run... a bz dec I had with exams ending ending early dec, activities lined up & the wait of release of results.. 2007 gonna end soon & 2008 is here.. gosh, feeling so old now..

2007 marks the end of my uni life & embarking my journey in the working world soon.. it has its ups & downs & experiencing new stuffs as well..
(1) had the opportunity living in hall & its definitely a experience.. good side is making new friends & declaring independence but it has its bad side as I have to do my laundry before it piles up, fighting for dryers, cleaned my rm, cooked my own lunch but the best part is I can 'get home' fast & sleep.. Heez.. experience the worst insomnia in my whole life too..
(2) know my own grp of friends better & surviving our final yr together.. gonna really missed my sch life and the times we had, esp the ice-cream treats & indulging in my fav salmon don!!
(3) had bad experience when I went back to the old co for temp but luckily its only for 2 mths..
(4) went for GZ & HK trip, the experience of missing my flight (a experience nv forgotten & hopefully nv happen again)..
(5) daddy had a fall which is pretty bad, till now, the swell still there.. haiz..

the start of 2008 has good news for me too, will be preparing for my interviews & hopefully I'll get it or prob more upcoming good news for me?? even prior to starting work, I already had in mind one whole list of things I wanna get.. Heez.. but of course, have to work hard for 1 mth before getting my 1st pay.. hope 2008 will be a good yr ahead with posibilities & new hopes.. & waiting for my convocation in Jul/Aug which I'll fulfill mummy's hope & my dream..

Resolutions?? Hmmm.. & hopefully...
- daddy's operation a success (praying hard too)..
- mummy in pink health..
- get a good job with great colleagues..
- will choose between CFA, CPA or Master depending the job I land up at..
- go for a trip somewhere, no matter far or near..
- a LV bag (after watching nui ren wo zui da, wanted to get it so much..)
- all my friends are still right beside me...

meeting jas & von for lunch later in the afternoon.. hopefully I can get up early to help mummy do some house-cleaning.. will be gg out with san yi & kor kor later in the night, will be seeing SL & Kayle too...

Happy new yr to all friends and may the new year ahead be a smooth & fulfilling one.. one last day before 2008 approach!!

watched 'I am legend' by Will Smith y'day.. It was a pretty good show thou some scenes kinda unrealistic when I thought back but its a really nice show which I enjoyed very much.. The ending wasnt those typical nice & sweet ending but nonetheless the ending is meaningful with Will Smith sacrificing himself, the people becoming his living legend... wanted to catch this show so much & I did it.. so happy.. heez..

been slacking at home these few days, becoming a routine to look out for jobs everyday.. wondering if my grades are so bad to the extend that nobody wanna hire me?? all I wish for is a bank to accept me but seems like firms that contact me are acc/s.. kinda disappointed.. dad didnt want me to go into banks but said nothing when I'm very persistent about it.. prob I carry too much hope & now disappointed & depressed with the situation.. other friends seems to secure a job prior to graduation but I'm still waiting.. its also prob bcoz of the breeze of how I got into IRAS which led me feeling stagnant.. uni grad really doesnt promise anything these days plus now, seems like every firm have to go thru 2 rds of interviews.. maybe I should start my future studies research & planning earlier to see where I wanna head.. economists predict that next yr might be a downturn with recession being a periodic event & seems like 2008 might be it.. hopefully it wont happen so quickly..

I finally get to s/u my reproductive health, happy to get rid of that sucky grade I got.. thou it might not push my cap far but juz hated the grade that I've got.. wonder if I really did so badly in the final exams.. haiz.. it will be even better if I can do the same for int'l econs but I cant as its my major.. but what matters most is I can grad when all of us fear that we might have to clear any econs mod.. but with grad becoming a reality comes new responsibilities..

I graduated!! thou didnt achieve results to my expectations but happy to pass all modules, esp the killers, int'l, game & health econs.. I survived 4 econs & so did xm.. happy for her as well.. but I wanna s/u reproductive health, got a sucky grade.. prob I took the wrong mod? haiz... can only blame myself for not being knowledgable enough abt myself.. I'm gonna missed the life in NUS now that I really cleared all my modules, too crop up with studies that I missed the fun as a student.. what I hope not all lost are all the friends I have made over the 2.5 years.. my aim now is to realise my next dream & to find a job soon!! Jia you!!

celebrated x'mas with bao & nancy at k-box.. I look so tan now in the pics taken, have not recover back to the old tone ever since I'm back from HK.. I dont wanna join ej's blackie club!! sobz... but the 3 of us had fun...

A brand new year is coming soon.. May I have a good start & bless me with good luck...

tml is the day!!! cant help but worry abt what's my fate tml... may I conquer this hurdle.. all I hope for is to pass, hope this wish is not too much to ask for..

Merry x'mas to all friends... it also marks the end of 2007 soon & the beginning of a new year.. hope the year ahead will be a fulfilling one for everyone..



At Hyatt Hotel



Steamboat at Bugis

Gathered with the old iras friends & we are all from the same poly as well.. even thou its been a long time since we last met but we are nv short of topics to talk abt.. Heez.. happy to meet them and do some catching up.. missed the good ole days back then.. QQ & I went shopping at orchard before making our way to Bugis to meet jinyao & eunice.. too bad, YY couldn't join us.. had steamboat at one of the shop which I can't remz what is the name of it.. wasnt satisfying at all.. guess I'm getting more pricky over food with the training from xm.. the seafood was not really fresh, didnt eat to my heart content.. sad.. guess the only thing I like was only the hotdog & the soup base is super hot when its only medium degree hotness.. my lips feel so swollen with the hotness.. to satisfy our tastebud after the disappointment, we went for dessert at 'ah chew'.. chit chat till 10+.. really happy to be seeing them & glad that they are doing fine..

had flu the whole day.. feeling super tired & starting to feel moody as results are releasing soon.. haiz.. may lady luck be shining on me..

have not been using my brain much (xm was saying I better read some books, my brain detoriating.. hmmm... I agree..) except bz clicking away trying my best, hoping to find smthg & hear smthg good but all seems a hopeless case.. haiz.. what else have I not done?? haiz haiz haiz.. results out in 6 days time, the heart-thromping time is nearing.. wonder if i'll make it...

watched alvin & the chipmunks on tues (I think) with bao.. loved theodore to bits.. he's so cute with his nightmares at night.. if u loved cute stuffs, u will love this too!! ate dinner with nancy later in the evening.. went wan chai cafe.. the food wasn't fanstastic, not satisfying at all.. not that I'm not full but it doesnt gives me the 'yummy' feeling & the dessert didnt make things better.. but most importantly, its the gathering of the 3 of us tt counts.. wonder at times, will we still meet up for dinner together down the rd when we aged, will I still be remembered or forgotten?? no matter which gathering I have gone to, these tots always get into me, who will still be there down the road in 5 or 10 yrs? how many friends will still remz me???

finally I have smthg to look fwd to.. will be gg down mwh tml.. its been a long time since I last visited them, hope the aunties still remz me.. later in the night will be gg cousin's house for x'mas dinner.. will get to see all the kids again..

this wk has been a bz week... went for chalet from mon to wed.. didnt do much except played games or watched tv most of the time as it kept on raining non-stop.. sobz.. wanted to swim but nanny didnt bring her swimsuit.. haiz.. was pretty tired by wed.. didnt had a gd sleep bcoz as early as 2.30am on wed, the fire alarm went off & no people seem to care abt it.. OMG!! its so loud & sharp.. nancy had to go call up the person at the counter.. & also, we are staying along the stretch of rooms of young kids who played football in the middle of the night & singing as early as 7am.. oh mine.. we are staying on the 2nd floor but all are heard so clearly.. but I can only contain it all, its a chalet after all.. who goes there to sleep, isnt it?? but nonetheless, the 3 of us spent quality time together.. :)

then went for tt 'thingy' on wed morning after reaching home ard 7.30am... but think I didnt do well.. pretty disappointed with myself.. met up with sh & xm on thurs for movie.. we watched the golden compass.. not a bad show, nicole kidman is really pretty in the show.. but there's gonna be a sequel coz there's no ending.. haiz... but overall, a pretty nice show.. looking fwd to the its part II soon.. guess prob I wud have to wait for another 2 yrs for tt sequel.. fri met up with xm again & wj too for dinner at Organic at tamp.. not a bad first time I had.. I had seadfood pasta.. yummy... & we had yogurt for dessert.. was so full... settled down at yakun for tea coz really nothing to shop le.. imagine I had shopped at tamp for 3 days in a wk... oh Mine!!!

sat, wanted to go k-box but the outlet at parkway parade is closed.. haiz... so in the end, xm, wj & I ended up gg for katong laska.. then we shopped ard until J came... we then make our way to the board game shop.. had fun playing the board games.. tried 2 games.. not too bad but enjoyed the 2nd one better.. so much more fun & the guy was really nice to make sure we know the rules of the game & see us played our first trial... dinner was at the airport.. we ate popeye... not bad.. almost the same as KFC but the mashed potatoes was so much nicer.. heez... a tiring day but had fun thou was disappointed initially coz our plan was wrecked... & I havent done any x'mas shopping yet.. oh no... what sld I buy this yr?? haiz...

mon is the day to look for temp & perm job... may lady luck be shining on me...

feeling kind of lost right now with each day passing.. the feeling wasn't that strong initially but its getting into me right right now.. whenever I see dad going to work, it hit on me I sld quickly get a job to lessen his load & with age catching up, it gets harder to have the energy as before.. but also my results are not out & I'm wondering if I'll get through, no confidence at all.. after all the celebrations, its time for the heart-thumping moment.. all I hope for is a pass, better still if my merit status remains..

as all said, the job industry is not that bad & companies are expanding but opportunities for me are not likewise.. every company are looking at individuals whom are smart with great academic records but I have none.. I'm just an ordinary student with average results.. forget about the recent wed 'thingy'.. think I wreck it.. everyone seem to be spoilt with choices but I'm spoilt with dilemmas..

May 26th dec, 2.30pm not be a crying day....

Its my 100th post!!! also a post which I have to recall what have happened this past wks.. Heez... but a long long one too...

been mugging hard for exams, rain or shine, public holi or wkend, I'll be in the lib mugging hard either with xm, shidah & xp or alone... it also mark the last days of mugging for exams with graduating days ahead, provided I passed all my papers of course.. everyone been pesimistic coz all the papers are shocking!! all of us then started doing preference module ranking.. demoralised with all the papers we do.. after every paper, I started sayinng CUI!! feeling so sad, I wonder if I can grad now with the whole world knowing I'm graduating soon.. keeping my fingers crossed, praying hard.. feeling so tired now, guess I could sleep anytime, anywhere...

during days of mugging, met different kinds of people.. saw my tutors preparing for their exams too.. its also the time when xm trained me to eat regularly.. when the time is up, I'll feel hungry... Haa... everyone is impressed with my appetite & my speed of eating... there are silly things we did too... writing post it for each other with words of encourgement & drawing silly pics.. thou the times are hard but I def missed the days we worked hard together... plus we also wrote a well-wishes on the nussu welfare board... hope we'll stay as the crazy gang forever.. & sorry to all of my craziness at time, singing at your every words...

07th Dec 2007 is our final days in NUS.. had a bunch of friends.. we shared crazy times, stress days, working out tut assignments together.. will miss every single bit of it..

xiumei (Ah Mui aka mei mei aka lao wu): econs kaki who promised we'll hug & sink together & we'll (try to) love econs who I got to know during QET.. my shio babe too!! who loves to eat but still so thin!! she's hungry every 4 hrs & her stomach growl everytime she drank her water.. Haa.. she loves Indian food, Malay food and rice which I have no interest at all & also a teh soh as we all call her.. we go mwh together for comm svc & dinner after tt with wj & ej... she's also the one who sang along with me when we say smthg.. most of the time we ended up in vivo for dinner when we have pilates or when we have craving for smthg.. our love is the ma la steamboat in sch.. (see.. all abt food right.. tts how much she's a food lover & how it made me a fattie also.. her motto in life: live to eat!!)

shidah: her side dish to complement her rice is always fish, tofu & veg... her fav is mango juice which I dislike.. we are crappy & had crazy times together.. she loves the chicken rice at Bugis which we had together during her b'day... she loves green & buying bags & belts... my poly friend as well, gone to the same co for internship.. got to know each other since then & together in uni.. we love karl marx work & hate weber!!

sarah (aka she la): my blur friend who loves fruit juice.. she loves to buy food to motivate us.. Haa... & she loves angmo which ended her up with SPG.. another econs kaki which I got to know better during year 2 but nv a regret... her fav is always western food, always ended up buying the same food.. even if she queue for chinese food, her dish are potatoes and hotdogs which resembles western but cooked in chinese style, isnt it my dear??

xueping: 'wa piang' is her trademark... she loves to say this word.. CUI is also smthg we say in common.. took game theory & health econs together without the others, CUI together.. always end up with qns marks.. in the past, there will be sm, sarah & alvin but now left the two of us.. she muz eat her bf or she will keep repeating 'er shi ta le'.. she's always ahead of time with her 500 years quote.. she always call us her lao ren friends but we very young at heart yay!!! always carrying a big bag & vry enthu with her training..

alvin: he's always pin-pointing my height!! Humph!! shared with us his story of roaming.. had our share of fun together... he's a chocolate lover...

these are my closest friends in uni... of course there are many others.. like shirley, chiyin, meihui, jialin & many others which I have known thru my uni life.. they def made my uni life a better one & left with great memories.. & also all my fav lecturers..

we ended our day in engine canteen eating my fav salmon don.. I swear its really vry nice, juicy & big portion too.. then we head to co-op to shop the so call last time.. went later to arts canteen to eat hesley pie at BK (alvin's fav)... went orchard after tt.. wanted to take more photos in sch but started raining.. SOBZ... shop ard at orchard & we ate at Fish & Co after tt.. too tired to really shop as we were all deprived of sleep.. went back ard 9+ to meet our respective zhou gongs!!

today went shopping with bao & next wk will be chalet!! muz accumulate enuff sleep to enjoy myself nxt wk.. then muz start thinking what I wanna do in life.. what sld I do?? no news from 'them' yet.. the place which I wanna be.. will good news come soon? May god blessed me with good luck... sleep & luck is what I need now!!1

Even thou study wk is not here yet, but I'm already having such a heavy eyebag... was stunned looking at the mirror, looking cui.. the zombie of last sem is here again, just tt its longer in hall but the open space of school.. Haiz.. mugging hard now, trying my best to squeeze every little info into my tiny brain.. as xm says, I have great memory remembering anything else except my studies.. Haa... which is very true.. only remz 'wu eh bo eh'.. worried for every single paper.. Haiz.. wondering what goes into my head & feeling I've not worked hard enuff.. slack too much.. feeling so stressed up I feel tt I'm nv full, feeling hungry easily.. muz jia you!!

ehhh... nothing much happen for the past wks.. except for bao's ROM.. congrats yay.. fri was out with xm, wj & J, shopping ard for gifts for SH & alvin & dinner at subway.. we bought chilli choco & another liquor one for alvin.. Haa.. but luckily he says it taste okie.. if not, I'll strangle xm who insists on sabo-ing him.. heez... we went to bedok after tt for chicken wings.. its nice.. heez.. then we did the mayer-briggs test.. we actually sat there doing the test until 1am.. haa.. was feeling so tired after tt.. concuss the vry next day but still managed to dragged myself up to reach sch early..

wished exams will end soon.. but with everyday closing in, it also means the day of departure soon... sobz..

I'm still sneezing & coughing.. but signs of getting better.. now a sleepyhead coz of all the late nights.. getting out as early as 10am & reaching home as late as 10 or 11pm.. wondering what have I been doing... Hmmm...

Last wk: last fri was steamboat session for the celebration of yan's b'day & after which, we went ktv again.. Haa.. think we ended up at the same place whenever we go to chinatown.. but we all enjoyed ourselves.. wanna go to the tea house but it closed pretty early so the idea is off.. we went another k-session on sat.. Haa.. we seem nv to get enuff of k... but the k-lunch really sucks.. all was COLD... prob except the rice which is hot.. only the dessert taste normal.. cold as it sld be.. Haa.. after tt, went shopping & chit-chatting with yan.. guess too much singing & talking, my throat hurts so bad after the night..

this wk: wanted to study but no motivation.. Haiz.. exams 3 wks away & I show no sign of progress.. so much to study which I dont know where to start from.. plus still tons of tutorials to do.. can only sign & bury myself under my lect notes.. y'day we went to the turkish resturant @ Bugis to celebrate Alvin's b'day.. mostly are kebahs but its pretty nice.. eh... if not a meat lover, wouldnt really recommend this place coz the thoughts of all the meat I ate last night seem gross thinking back.. Haa... but the bread is really nice.. plus the hot apple tea I had... We overestimated ourselves & ordered 4 plates to share which is so big.. luckily there's a guy, if not, there will sure to be leftovers...



Chef's Recommendation



Jumbo kebah



The gang.. so call Economics Fanatics.. (our dear xp not inside but joined us for desert @ Ah Chew)

went home after tt... was so tired... had 8am class & all the way until 10pm+.. deadbeat...

prob feeling sick made me feel irritated easily.. everything seems to pissed me off this whole wk... Arghh... these days seem to be filled with all the negative thoughts.. its not my fault to be sick until now, I nv wanted to pass it to anyone.. it was nv my intention but instead of feeling concerned, your only words was only dont pass it ard repeatedly.. prob I'm overly sensitive but feeling mad why am I not recovering..

today is the last day of reproductive health lesson... guess I'll miss this class, its interesting & the lecturer made the lesson lively too.. he shared with us a sotry which makes me think are guys all the same?? he has this neighbour who is in his 70s.. he was telling my lecturer he has no more feelings for his wife when he sees her.. this made him took off his turban to put on a cap to go to Geylang.. when asked what if he drops dead one day in the brothel? he replied his wife will nv say the truth & cover this scandal.. why is he so unfaithful to his wife? used to see old couples holding hands walking ard to parks or shopping.. it always warm my heart and feel its so sweet when I see this scene.. life is nv a perfect pic I guess.. fairytale story might be few & mostly existed in stories or tv.. people are protrayed as the perfect one but their existence in the real world is few..

today is also my last pilates class.. SUPER SAD!! I forgotten my adidas jacket in the studio.. sobz... hope it will still be there when I go there.. praying hard & crossing my finger.. msg the gal in charge but no reply.. haiz.. will try my luck tml.. my lady luck be shining on me..

I'm sick again since sun & still is till today... haiz.. down with flu and sore throat while fever subsized on mon.. but I'm still a conscientious student, reporting to sch despite feeling tired.. 'guai' aint I?? tried to study but end up nursing my blocked nose & coughing like old granny.. but will buck up next wk, its gonna be the start of my preparation for my last lap of this whole journey.. will work really hard!! so must quickly recover!! yay..

as what jas says, muz post this comment up.. why am I always being bullied despite being the oldest among them?? Haa.. guess sometimes my comments too cold or too Dotz( -_-'') Heez... or prob I'm inborn with this character.. as what eunice said before, I'm the only vulnerable person in the office & I ended up being the victim.. LP also says the same thing to me.. worried that I'll be bullied by people when I get out into the industry.. my concl.. prob I am indeed who I am.. sometimes wonder why do I say yes so readily to friends when I know I'll just be taken for granted, remembered only bcoz I'm of some use & not bcoz of who I am.. or prob I have been tt kind of person once & now its a return in return? Hmmmm...

feeling so tired.. will zzZZzzz soon... game lect tml plus a BORING health lect.. looking fwd to the outing on sat with the old 'f4' as what jas call when she was still into f4... haa.. hope I'll be able to find back my voice by then...

slogging my nights away trying to get inspirations for my essay.. so afraid I'll end up like my 'money' essay.. haiz... didnt do a good job for tt, now doing essays becoming smthg which I lose confidence in.. prob I was nv economically inclined right from the start.. all these while, been telling myself I can be one but guess its still a long way before it comes true.. Mon is the due dt & I'm only halfway plus still have a prsn to prepare.. haiz haiz... feeling frustrated, sleepy & sneezy today.. I must buck up.. got back my game theory paper.. I'm pretty happy tt I pass quite well.. heez... the closest ever to the max marks.. guess this is the only paper I did well.. but will jia you all the way to the end..

the journey here is nearing its end soon.. wanted so much to get out of here when I was in yr 1 but now I wish I was still yr 1... getting attached to the place which I have spend 2 yrs+ & all the places in sch which left the memories of the ups & downs I shared with my friends there.. the initial fear tt I would not have any friends in sch is all a past.. I'm happy to have known all of them as they really help me thru the sem.. my 'crazy' friends really made a difference in my sch life.. we have serious times but mostly are contained with laughter.. esp xm who went thru every single econs mod with me (except 2 where my bid fails) & my 'faint' experience within 2 mths of knowing her plus she has to endure me singing whenever she says smthg & I tot of a song... heez... our freq pretty gd, sometimes we end up singing the same song.. haa.. thru her, I also know 2 other friends who are also great.. had fun during mwh activities..

feel kind of sad & disappointed today.. failed in my application for Barclays.. the numerical test is my disaster.. haiz.. pinning my hope on others now...

Been so tired these few days, ended up concuss almost everyday.. wanted so much to reach sch early to do some readings but so so so tired.. xm & I almost always ended up messaging each other in the morning to conclude we sleep some more & meet later... haa.. we nv realise our 'hope' of gg sch on sat..

my days seem to revolve ard attending lect/tut, readings, assignments and gg for comm svc.. nv seem to slow now & appreciate my last months in sch... haiz.. was still chatting with xm tt we sld take a day off to go shopping.. have not been gg shopping ever since sch started, almost all my time are given to sch work.. I guess I'm more relax when I'm staying in hall coz most of the time, I'm watching dvds in my room or room hopping chit chatting.. haa.. but now, I have to travel to & fro, its so much tiring.. but no point harping on things which can never be realised..

fri met up with bao & nancy for dinner.. poor nancy met a 'bian tai' who cut her hair on the bus while she's sleeping.. so friends, pls beware when you are sleeping on the bus.. guess she muz have been in so deep sleep tt she didnt realise any sound of someone snipping her hair.. tt person is so disgusting, he/she cut so much of her hair at the back and even on the left tt she has to go to the salon right after work.. she's so angry!!! hearing tt, I'm so angry too, not only pple vandalise buses but now resorting to being a nusiance.. OMG... & why didnt other passengers on the bus do smthg.. why are humans so self-centered at times & let these kind of things happen?

sat is mwh day.. another day of concuss but managed to wake up in time to meet xm for lunch before gg.. we played musical chairs, dodgeball and fishing.. happy tt the residents had fun.. juz like jx said... what we did for them is little but to them, it means a lot.. they dont have many pple coming to visit them.. even thou they might be repeating themselves every single wk when we chat with them but our presence & nodding to what they said means a lot.. prob I wud nv be able to enter into their world, know what they are thinking but I know I do make a difference in their life.. prob they will forget me wk after wk but the companionship is valuable to them.. its doesnt matter if we know dialect coz even knowing doesnt mean they will understand you but its the acknowledgement to their words tt counts.. the games they play looked silly to others but their laughter and some even clapped their hands to show their happiness warms our heart.. I always love doing comm svc in children's home as I had experience of old folks crying in front of me complaining abt their hard-hearted children which I always felt sad & dont really like.. but here, they are simpler & thou they do have some quarreling, they forget fast too..

went dinner after tt with the usual gang then 'huo shu' go back home to watch 'the last breakthrough'... getting the feeling of concussion.. gonna sleep soon & do some serious work tml... need to do readings for my assignment.. & I passed global!! phew.. was so worried I'll be at the mercy of MCQs... left with game theory results.. hope I'll do well... keeping my fingers crossed.. gg to zzZZZzzz...

I'm finally done with the last mid-term paper.. PHEW!!! Its an agony mugging every single min.. It seems a long mid-term this sem.. Haiz.. but its all over.. managed to pass int'l & health econs.. but didnt do well at all.. sad.. used to be counting As or Bs.. now I'm counting pass.. its hard to see a B for me now, feeling so shallow in comparison to others.. they are economically inclined but I'm just a 'mi mi hu hu' person.. keeping my fingers crossed for my merit status.. may god bless me with intelligence to last me thru the sem.. today's paper was okie okie, not easy but at least I tried every single part & understand what it ask of me, unlike health econs, I'm full of qns marks.. a tiring day, accompanied xm as she's having her labour tml (good luck yay..) but end up she didnt study much.. we ate ma la steamboat again.. Haa.. even thou I'm almost recovered but didnt managed to finish all the food, think I only cleared less than half... & we ended up watching nus cast after tt.. Haa.. hope she's mugging hard now & not watching tv..

can watch tv all night for juz today.. tml will have to start my readings session again.. have to submit global assignment soon & a presentation to do... Haiz.. praying hard I wont be shoot a tough qns in the Q&A session...

go watch tv le...

found this song in qq's blog which I have been looking for..《天涯侠医》的片尾曲.. .. Its my current fav drama show.. Heez...

if you wander off too far,
my love will get you home　　
if you follow the alone star,
my love will get you home　
if you ever find yourself losing long alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy,
my love will get you home　　
if the bright lights blind your eyes,
my love will get you home　
if your troubles break your strike,
my love will get you home　　
if you ever find yourself losing long alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home　
if you ever feel ashamed,
my love will get you home　　
when there's only you too blame,
my love will get you home　　
if you ever find yourself losing long alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home　　
if you ever find yourself losing long alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy,
my love will get you home,
boy, my love will get you home

hopefully.. if ever my friends are lost in anyway.. may my love get you home..

Did I tried not hard enough?? not enuff effort?? It wasnt what I thought would be the outcome.. kind of demoralised.. or sld I be used to it? getting tired when I thought I'll make it but it had stay as a hope all along.. self-deceiving all along.. tried to be optimistic but its hard when you put all your heart & soul at it.. This isnt a gd wk.. stress wk and to top it up, I havent recover yet.. sobz...

Tues: had my int'l econs test at 8am after last night paper ended at 8.30pm.. a tiring day and having to wake up early the nest day.. its a tough paper (after the health setback, another one to top it up).. haiz.. I know I shouldnt be eating mac but sarah wanted to eat tt for lunch so ate the 'softest' food there which is fish burger as suggested by alvin & xm.. took like forever to finish it, had to take small bite.. fries is cleared off by the others.. cant eat much of it either.. stayed back in sch to study & continued after tt when I got home till 3am.. but got scolded by xm.. haa.. "sick already, still stayed up so late."

Wed: a usual day of lect & mugging after tt.. but feeling pretty sick, sore throat after tues mac & my gum ache still there.. again, ate smthg which I shouldnt be eating again.. ma la steamboat in sch in the evening.. heez.. its a new product from the china stall.. VERY HOT but shiok.. cant enjoy it thoughly as every bite is a pain to me.. after which I bought lemon tea to put out the fire in me when I'm finally done... prob tt explain why I'm still not recovering..

Thurs: missed my pilates as I'm afraid I wont be able to clear my readings.. another night of MUGGING...

Fri: its global econs test.. 90 qns in 90 mins.. haiz.. MCQ was nv my forte.. its a disaster.. I had to guess all the questions which asked me when did this happen.. I hate MCQs.. always fared the worst in it.. always being reminded of the time when I only passed my CLAW paper, passed the MCQ section marginally and if not for section B, the paper is declared hopeless.. but did get to go home early today (is 7pm counted?) after a ice-cream treat.. yeah!!! but my gum hurts now.. :'(

Haiz.. suffered shocks this wk but guess wont mention abt it.. hope my gum will recover soon... I dont wanna eat oatmeal ever single night.. been eating it since mon.. sobz... will be gg to sch on sat to continue mugging.. wed will be the toughest battle, game theory.. haiz.. its a mod which nv in my life will I understand the rationale for all the theorems & graphs..

Happy Children's Day to my friends... Heez.. thou its a day celebrated years ago, its no longer a holi for me.. even youth day is gone.. as you grow up, public holi diminishing too..

wanna commerate today as I think I flucked my Health Econs.. Its a memory game which I sucks at.. sobz sobz... think almost half of the paper I'm clueless of what its saying & to top it up, headache plus gum ache.. hope tml int'l econs will spare me..

didnt manage to eat much today, left 3/4 of the food every meal.. but finally manage to eat a bowl of oatmeal when I got home after my paper.. so happy.. while in the canteen, every food smells so nice to me but yet I cant consume solid food, only liquid or soft food as I have difficulty biting.. looking fwd to eating yummy food... *Drool*

not feeling well as for the past 2 days, being tormented by gum infection.. Haiz.. its so pain tt I couldnt sleep last night, end up crying like a little child, hoping it will ease the pain.. I could feel the swell inside me & it got the better of me.. I guess I finally slept at 4 or 5 but woke up early to see the doct.. prescribed with antibiotics & painkillers.. painkiller is def my saviour!!! when the doct said it wont heal so quickly, my heart sank immediately.. he added that it will take a week.. oh man!! start of tml are all my midterm papers & I have to take it with pain in my mouth.. declared a mute now coz opening my mouth is so painful & even eating is hurtful.. Haiz.. hope I'll recover soon.. pain, pain go away, nv come again.. no chocolates & ice-cream in the meantime too.. sobz sobz...

may god blessed me with intelligence and luck for all my 4 papers.. didnt manage to go down to si ma lu today as I was feeling so unwell.. sobz...



Besides mugging hard last week, celebrated xm's b'day on thurs.. Happy b'day bayi!! we ate at Breeks after cracking our brain to choose a place.. I ate rosemary garlic chicken plus shared waffle fries with the gang.. was so full tt I couldnt finish it (as usual.. Haa... I always have difficulties finishing my food..).. walk ard vivo for a while before heading home to continue mugging..

Those were the days...

Childhood is a pleasant phase.. Its filled with spanking times, playful times & happy moments with a carefree life of no worries.. "dont friend you", as much as it sounds childish, it is a childhood phrase of every kid..

Its the mooncake festival again & I see children carrying laterns ard with the smiles on their face when I was walking clarke quay there with xm & wj after dinner.. wondering when was the last time I did tt.. prob after pri sch life? when I was still a little kid, I always wish I was a grown up.. in primary sch, I wish I could advance on to upper pri soon.. & when I was in sec sch, I wish my green collar will become white as I go on to upper sec.. I always have the mindset, how nice it is to be a senior as I always tot being in the upper sec, you are wiser than your juniors.. haa.. sounds so childish isnt it?? but now, its all a memory of what I am as a little gal.. life becomes burdened with worries as I become older.. prob tts smthg I didnt anticipate to come with.. as life goes on to another stage, everyone is burdened with worries of life: what job to be in, finding your life partner, life after marriage, your child & an endless lists of events of part & parcel of life..

Childhood holds the memory of a kid.. prob not all has a childhood worth remembering but what one experience during childhood is what one who remembers most.. I wish I could contain it all up, holding on to the past..

wk ending soon & study wk is nxt wk.. its mugging time again.. dont even feel tt I have attended much tut & its mid-term time.. tension building up as time passed.. Haiz.. lots of things to do..

went down to FTC y'day to collect info for CFA.. Hmmm... the course is pretty ex & I have serious doubt how many times I have to take it to pass even thou there is no limit to the number of yrs to take it.. if I dont sign up now, the cost will diff by US$100 nxt yr (feb 08) & US$300 1 mth later (mar 08).. OMG.. the difference is so great.. wonder if I sld bet my future on it.. anyway, mummy is supportive, so whatever I choose to do, she'll support me.. Heez... will still study smthg in future but still indecisive of which one it is... after tt, went for threading.. its my first time & super pain... guess I still prefer the plucking mtd.. the pain is not so much... my wk a boring one.. still revolving ard readings, readings & more readings.. but will be gg down to mwh for comm svc this sat..

met up with eunice today.. she's still my dearest 'bitchy' friend.. Haa.. Its been a long time since I last met her but as usual, we have lots of stuffs to talk abt.. (**although you may still not be able to let go, but I have learn to, so can you.. it may be hard but there's no point in harping on it.. treasure those still with ya..) she's waiting for me to join the workforce.. well.. I am... very soon.. soon, instead of chatting abt my studies, we'll talk abt the 'real life' of stepping into the working industry.. Heez..

ate dinner with bao tonight, bought tonic pills & bao bought shorts.. but feeling guilty coz didnt do much readings.. its a lullaby to me, few pgs is enuff to knock me down.. Haiz.. muz study hard.. gg up 'er mei shan' next wk le... its time for battle again.. 4 mid term papers to clear.. May god bless me with intelligence & luck..

Mid term tests are coming soon.. getting stressed up with so many doubts still in me.. hope everything will turn out fine.. need to clear all my mod in order to grad.. this sem seem to pass very quickly & its the mid of the sem soon & pretty soon final exams are coming.. by then, its the end of my sch life.. I guess I'm a lucky gal, to meet great friends in uni & they are crazy like I am.. had our share of laughter as well as tiding stress period together.. looking forward to what I'm gonna face in the future after sch life.. what is my future like?

this week isnt a good one... daddy injured his leg during work & now his 2 legs are swollen like pigs trotters.. just like bro's leg when he injured himself during soccer.. now daddy become the 'begger's sect' head with his stick walking ard.. hope he'll recover soon.. seeing him having difficulties walking ard really pain my heart.. Haiz... wished I can grad soon, find a gd job then he wont have to work so hard..

fri met up with nancy & bao for dinner & to see mooncakes.. while waiting for them to come, went kino to shop ard.. bought 3 books at one go, guess I must be really crazy to buy so many books when I barely have time to finish my sch readings.. but I just cant help myself... trying to read more inspiring or economics related books in the hope I'll be more economically inclined.. Haa.. which is like quite impossible.. just like Jin Han asked me why I dont wanna be an economist.. its like impossible as it takes a lot to be one.. I dont have the deep thinkings or intution of the economy like Smith or Keynes or Alfred have.. an economist? prob when there's a day I'll be able to think like them.. bought also yam mooncake for mummy.. still probing if wanna buy the durain from Goodwood.. its so tempting.. *drool*...

missed MWH session today.. kind of lazy to go down plus hopefully I'll be able to get all my readings & tut done today then I can start on my report tml.. need to buck up!!! Jia you!! Kor kor & san yi may be coming down tml with mooncakes too if they managed to finish baking early.. Heez... hope they will come down & I'll have yummy moncakes.. I'm little miss greedy, sld take the title away from xm.. Haa...


Little Miss Greedy & Me...


Friends in uni (looked so ugly in the pic.. sobz sobz)...

Been deprived of sleep these days.. having to wake up early for classes & attending recruitment talks in the night.. been pondering over what do I want to be in the future.. I am determined of the place I wanna work in but will I be cut out for the place? is the place really what others has said & is SK right about what kind of person you have to be like in order to suvive?? it might not have been the ideal kind of working life or environment, but this has not changed my decision.. its still top on my list but will I make it there? mummy asked me to give up, she dont want to see me working for long hrs every single day but I'm willing to try even if it means working 12 hrs everyday.. Haiz.. what is the future me like? stressed over the life ahead..

thurs is really not a good day.. first i tried missing my flight & now I totally forgot about attending my tutorial... OMG.. I totally shove it behind me.. Its only when I got on the bus do I realise My blurness.. Haiz.. happily went for pilates & forgot about my tutorial class.. Its the only class tt starts in wk 4.. thus, kind of forget the existence of it..

yesterday went down to mwh, its the first time i see so many volunteers... my existence wont be so important in the future & I can go all the way for my last sem studies.. Haa... (excuses I'm thinking up)... we brought the residents to clarke quay.. its quite a change, prob its been a long time since I last went there.. had a nice session with them before gg off to vivo for a short walk with wj & ej.. went home after tt as mummy cooking curry for dinner..

gonna go back to my readings.. havent done any for last wk & tutorials is piling up.. Haiz.. sad...

Its sun again & gonna start a new wk of sch tml.. will be meeting my prof for health tut tml & he's the one who's too detail in every single slide till he have difficulties finishing lect every wk.. oh mine.. he better finish with tut tml.. I hate makeup tut & lect..

my game tut on fri was not too bad, the tutor is the lecturer himself which I tot he is pretty nice & good, not bcoz he's a korean but he's really approachable.. & the plastic bag guy is in my class again but he is upgrading himself now.. Heez.. no longer carrying NUS co-op plastic bag but G2000... does ang mo prefer carrying plastic bags to sch?? he's the first & the last I saw tt does that.. met jolene in the afternoon for lunch.. Its been a long time since we last saw her ever since our major became different.. its lect again after tt @ 4pm.. dread gg to lect but surprisingly, I'm quite alert but only for the first half of the lect... Haa... after lect, went MS to meet jas & von... its von's b'day... (Happy B'day yve!!) we went k-box for dinner cum sing.. didnt sing a lot coz we 3 really cant multi-task.. its buffet so of course must eat value for money.. when we finally decide to sing, we forgot our dessert... sobz... I didnt get to eat my cream puff.. after our k-session, we went walking ard & we each bought a pair of shoes.. Heez... had fun tt night... planned to study in the night but was too tired.. slept early as next day is my aerobics challenge...

woke up early on sat to go bugis to pray before making my way down to civic plaza for the challenge with bao.. Its super crowded with lots of women as its women's day.. the challenge is 3 hrs with cardio-latino, aerobics & kickboxing.. all are really fun & I sweat like I'm in a sauna.. had a intense workout & it feels great after completing the 3 hrs session.. decided to join iron women (5 hrs) next yr & prob yoga also plus shape run, 5km... haa... but must train up as my body quite weak.. dont wanna faint along the way.. ever since the last time I fainted in sch, pretty afraid of fainting somewhere along the street...

have to quickly finish all my readings.. plus complete my tut.. vry low productivity today... haiz... kept dozing off after a few page...

starting to feel so stressful.. with all the tut qns allocated, assignments topics out & not forgetting sudden change of assessment freak me out.. prob lots of things changed & I'm feeling so lost with game & health.. Its the learner's prob? Haiz.. lots of deadlines to meet and my schedule is so packed.. hope I'll survive thru... now still brooding over if I sld take up the 4th yr.. been thinking a lot these days.. I am so tempted but the outcome is unpredictable.. what if I regret? My application for the waitlist is still not out.. I guess there wont be any good news.. Haiz.. why havent things been turning out right?

Another wk has gone & its 2 wks of sch.. time flies... as usual, there are tons of readings forever piling up & I have yet to finish all of them.. went down to orchard today to collect my event pack for nxt sat event.. gg for my aerobics challenge.. wonder if my stamina is enuff to last for the full 3 hrs but def looking forward to it.. to sweat it all out & vent off all steam & frustrations accumulated in me.. signed up for lots of recruitment talks too.. the bad side is I gonna have to wear formal, so hopefully the scrafice is worthy, to understand better the co. I hope to get in but I know there are some which are beyond my reach..

with time closing in, wondering what field sld I be in, what kind of job will I hold & whats the future ahead like? hoping to search for jobs that are based overseas but I guess mummy will nv let me go.. even gg overseas trips will make her countdown everyday for my return, whats more if I wud to go for long term... Hmmm... see how first ba... [the earth will not stop rotating for anyone & its time for me to walk ahead & not abrupting the route, trying to grab every single bit of the past which I tot would return.. remembering what eunice said, I know its useless to try & be sad over it.. whats left is just a meaningless title...]

gonna zzZZzzZZ soon.. lots of readings waiting for me tml to complete & its gonna be a bz wk ahead again...

Attended my first lect for game theory & health econs.. for game theory, the lecturer is really nice.. been obsessed with korean lecturers ever since my metrics lecturer came into the pic.. like him, he's really nice & would make sure everyone of us understand but sadly, I understand nothing.. only catch a little bit & there but I'm feeling so lost.. only wished I can dropped the mod this moment or prob buck up the courage to go into the dean's room & pour out my worries.. I really need a private consultation with the lecturer... Its no longer lvl 1 or 2 but lvl 3.. Its chim beyond my comprehension... Haiz.. seem to be seeing dean's list students in the lect & I'm in the dean's invisible list but neither do I wanna fare so badly that I have to see him...

health isnt really bad but the lecturer just go on & on in a mono tone.. been day dreaming most of the time as I'm really tired.. didnt sleep well the prev night.. lots of thoughts flashing in my mind.. wondering whats bothering me so much... Its still lect 1 after today, the first ever lecturer I ever had who can teach lect 1 for consec 2 wks & not done yet.. good news or bad?? Haiz... to conclude.. sad sad day & my first to be attending lect w/o xm beside me but still alright, I've others with me.. it takes some time to get used to it.. wondering if xm feeling the absence of me?? haa... we are suppose to stick together like super glue, to hug & sink together but all thanks to my failed appeal.. I need lots of ice-cream & choco to tide thru this sem... think I'll get fatter sooner or later.. only indulging in these 2 can make me forget the unhappiness but a temp measure only coz I'll still have to sit for the exams..

After lect, went window shopping with sarah, xm & sh before settling down for dinner.. its to make up for sh's b'day as my wk is really a bad one & everyone having diff tt... we ate chicken rice then shop again... the others are too full to eat dessert thou I still have stomach for it.. Heez.. kind of guilty, I'm lagging behind badly for my readings.. gonna buck up if I wanna do well.. Haiz.. gg sch earlier to study tml.. starting to dread gg for thurs reproductive health.. the medical terms are really diff to understand.. Haiz.. why are all the mod this sem so chim for me... gonna zzZZzzZZzz soon so tt I ve all the concentration to clear the pile of readings & tut...

Finally my tt is finalised!!! but xm will hear me grumbling for the whole of this wk.. Heez.. I know xin ku le ni but I'm sure you will understand my wu nia.. guess you dont have much of a choice.. tsk tsk.. you are my only shu gu person... Its been a super tense up week & def pissed off with the staff at the dept.. I'm just trying to know why did they do their work unfinished & all she did is pushed off responsibility.. super super super pissed off!!

but there's no way I can change the situation now.. hopefully I'll survive thru... its my final sem.. muz make the best out of it... its 8am class tml... Haiz.. think i'll end up feeling vry sleepy again... please let me have a break or i'll zzZZzzZZ... last wk was a torment, no break at all...

Woke up real early on sat to temple to pray pray... guess too much things happen these days.. going there helps to put my mind at ease.. went straight home after that & was caught in the rain.. ended up sneezing all the way thru after that... Slept a while before waking up again to go down to mwh.. its been quite some time since I last went there.. I guess its 1 mth+.. its handicraft session & we made fishes with them.. can see that they enjoyed themselves with the cutting & pasting.. but for us, its watching out for them, making sure they dont cut themselves.. its still raining when we ended our session.. went suntec for dinner.. ate at bian fu.. again i tried 2 chilli... OMG... its super hot for me.. was sniffing & sneezing thru eating... was nv a person who can eat spicy food... after dinner, we went to check out prices of washing machine for ej.. after which we went crystal jade to buy lao po pi... Haa... yeah.. finished our boxes of lao po pi & yet, we are there to buy some more.. but its nice & yummy nonetheless.. when we were brooding over where to head after tt, we fnally settled on dessert at 'ah chew'... I ate black sesame.. yummy.. it isnt tt sweet.. its home sweet home after tt.. was so tired.. I slept the min my head touch the bed...

tml I'll be gg down to econs dept for my appeal case.. wish they will give me whatever I appeal for.. May luck be with me tml.. God.. please bless me..

To think that I actually started crying at the bus stop.. Haiz.. Luckily didnt went out dinner with xm & all or bao & all, if not, think I'll start pouring out like no other pple biz.. it might seem nothing to cry, just go back to appeal again but didnt have a gd experience there when I was appealing for tut.. Plus, I've beginning to get overly worried & paranoid over my mod as days passed.. brooding over if they will give me what I need & its not a matter that they didnt give me what I want now, but they missed out giving me another.. I need 2 but I only got 1.. Its just a breakdown for me.. feeling so tired from all these.. I still have to go through a tutorial balloting & I'm w/o 1 more mod now.. haiz... but still have to rank whatever I have now.. Isnt a good day for me.. feeling so so so sucky...

Haiz... I havent even got the chance to place my bid & it exceeded what I have in my p-acc.. Its so stressful having to do this before every new sem.. having to worry over how many pts I have, is it enough to bid for all my mod & are all the mod exam dts spread out evenly.. have to work doubly hard this sem.. need to conquer my worst fear, metrics.. Its a higher level and def harder as well.. waiting for appeal session to start... (**thurs.. pls come quick...)

Tml is the start of my sch life again.. 8am class for a start & I'll have to wake up before tai yang gong gong does.. wish I can sleep early tonight.. so used to sleeping late & I had too much sleep for the past few days after my trip.. tml will be the day I'll determine if I can take metrics.. will be having a 4 hrs break too.. wonder how to pass the time when there are no tut to do.. can't wait for tml to come.. will be gg to watch jay's movie!! yeah!! will be watching with xm, sarah & shidah.. plus.. I wanna eat at arts canteen.. finally, the renovation are finished.. I missed my tau hua.. yummy...

May tml be a good day & to meet great lecturers...

Its been a wk since I'm back.. been busy cleaning up my room to prepare for the new sem.. cleared off all the tb from last sem & most importantly unpacked all the bags that I brought home from hostel.. Haa.. Its been there for like 3 mths and I'm super lazy to unpacked them.. There are just so many notes & tb to arranged & putting all the clothes back to my wardrobe.. Finally did them all in 3 days..

Sch starting tml.. 3 mths of holi is my last & it contained my saddness & happiest times.. Let it all be buried and start the new sch term afresh.. This sem isnt really a good start.. Still short of 1 econ mod plus I have no choice but to include metrics II for next sem.. cried while studying for it last sem.. wondering if I can take it.. 3 mths of holi seem to return all my metrics knowledge back to lee jin & xiao mau.. have to wait until rd 3C ends before I can appeal for my last mod.. hopefully I can drop metrics & they will allow me to choose another mod.. I really dread taking metrics and its designed for honours student.. what do I have to compete with them? Haiz haiz... after bidding for reproductive health, now becoming worried if I'll be able to catch all the medical terms.. Its offered from the medical faculty & I'm def a medical idiot.. May everything goes well for me..

Its my final sem in sch, I'll def treasure the final days as a student & being in the place which I have been dreaming for since sec sch days.. It will be working days from then on... mummy been counting down the days to my grad, start earning money then she can finally rest her mind & fulfilled her responsibility.. tues will be the start of my sch life!! May I meet great lecturers & be blessed with intelligence & luck.. A prayer to for my application for waitlist for my hostel...

Finally finished my updates on GZ & HK... Its been a fun & happening trip.. esp the last 2 nights is the most memorable to me.. had most fun & fright on the last 2 nights...

Hong Kong...
05/08/2007(Sun) - Day 9



This is the airport I'm left strandled at.. Haa.. woke up at 7.30am to eat breakfast before checking in one more time... there's no way we'll missed our flight at 11am.. Haa.. We were at the gate very early so as not to have any delay again.. We are finally on our way home!!!

Hong Kong...
04/08/2007(Sat) - Day 8

We had shao la for bf cum lunch.. Haa.. 2 times for 2 consecutive days... packed our baggage so that we can leave it at the hotel lobby before collecting it to leave for the airport.. we went shopping at lane crawford.. Managed to do some last min shopping.. we rushed back to the hotel to collect our baggage to depart for the airport.. the ticket to the airport cost us S$20.. Its so expensive...

I should say this is supposedly the last night.. Haa... We checked in our baggage before gg to buy lao po bin... after which, its gg thru the custom.. we ran all the way after our passports are cleared by the custom.. ran & ran as fast as my 2 legs can carry me.. dont even dare to rest a sec.. finally we reached the gate.. but the airport personnel only words were: the gates are closed!!! OMG... I tot I ran to the wrong gate but nope.. tot I listened wrongly but nope again.. tried to asked her to check again but her reply is only "no, no, no, the plane is taking off.." she is so unfriendly to us.. didnt even try to help us.. there's also another girl who missed her flight.. couldnt believe we actually MISSED our flight!! the 6 of us are left strandled at the airport.. the internet is so bad, couldnt even access it.. was wondering how to break the news to mummy.. Haa.. but she sounded calm on the phone.. we were thinking hard how to book our next ticket with the internet down and jetstar closed for the day.. we were all in need of 'jin feng shan'.. Haa.. A girl at the counter helped us to get out of the departure hall.. we sat at the hall for more than 0.5hrs waiting for her to cancel our departure.. The wait is so long and we havent even booked our ticket.. Its almost 11pm.. Its my first cancelled sign on my passport.. Haa.. still couldnt believe our luck!! We came out from the arrival hall.. wondering if we should be feeling happy or what kind of emotion should we have.. We settled down near a cafe to book another set of tickets.. there's no way of refund so we can only booked the earliest flight back as most of them are working on mon.. thats not the end, there's no mouse & we need to 'rent' it with HKD100.. OMG.. wanted to sing "how could this happen to me".. finally the flight is booked and we can rest our mind.. decided to spend the night at the airport as hotels would be expensive and the tpt out would cost another S$40 to & fro.. We ate BK before finding a place to sleep.. couldnt really sleep well as all of us are still pondering how could we missed our flight.. up till now, still feel like laughing at myself..

Hong Kong...
03/08/2007(Fri) - Day 7

Its disney day!! Finally I get to go disneyland.. Been looking forward to it!!



The weather is super super super hot.. Haa.. I can feel the intense heat on me.. First, we watch the disney on parade.. Its really nice even thou I had to stand under the hot sun taking snapshots of the parade... After which, we went to the little shops to see all the items there.. I feel like a little kid there as all those things are so nice.. Haa.. If not for the price, I wish I could buy them all.. Its def a place I wish I can work in.. Haa.. Its a wonderland to me.. We went to watch stitch 3D show.. I was even picked by stitch!! (xm... dont be sad.. coz he says he will keep me in his heart forever.. Haa.. *PS: sit in the 4th row, 2nd from the left.. you might have a chance of being picked..)

Next up is the water parade.. I'm being drenched from all those water guns... left me feeling even more sticky.. Yucky... we went for the space roller coaster.. Feeling so dizzy after the ride.. nv really enjoyed roller coaster.. screamed all the way thru.. AHHHH!!!!!

Sat the Pooh ride next.. saw my favourite Eyore... Heez..



Near to evening, we went photo taking with the different disney characters.. The best highlight is the fireworks.. Its spectacular.. Loved it the most.. Heez.. Its def worth the wait from early afternoon till 9pm...

Feeling so hungry after the whole thing and my leg is so so tired.. feeling like a crippled.. We had seafood for dinner.. Its quite nice.. prob feeling so hungry till everything taste nice to me.. Haa.. Its the last night here... jasen had bought a white wine earlier of the day.. We drank to our heart content in the night and laugh thru out too.. went back to our respective room ard 2am..

Hong Kong...
02/08/2007(Thurs) - Day 6

Our breakfast is ate at ming xing resturant for dim sum.. Its not as nice as the ones we had in GZ.. However, I still tried all of them.. Initial plan is to go disneyland but its changed to shopping session.. We went zhong huan to shop around and we took the longest esclator which is said to last 15 mins.. Didnt do much shopping as we are in the shopping centre area where things are much more expensive..

Later in the day, we took a tram up to the peak.. Went to the HK wax museum 1st.. The figurine looks very real and stayed there for aound 1.5hrs..



Later in the night, we went up to the peak to see the scenery.. Its very nice.. HK is really like a place of lights, the night are decorated with lightings.. Its one of the highlight & attraction of the country..

In the night, I watched this tv show on 2 boys exchanging homes... 1 is a vilage boy while the other is a city boy who is obsessed with online games.. Its so touching when the city boy worked hard to earn 20 bucks for the family who dig out their 1 yr expenses which they have been saving so hard for him to visit the yellow river.. I cried thru out the show.. Its the love that he felt which touched me the most..

Hong Kong..
01/08/2007(Wed) - Day 5

Breakfast is at qi ge cha chan ting which is near our hotel.. I had oatmeal, bread, hotdog and milk tea.. We took a train followed by bus up to Lantau Island to see da fou.. It is really a magnificent sight.. The scenery is fabulous with the clear blue sky and white clouds.. However, the weather is still scoarching hot.. After touring around there, we went shopping at citygates where all the branded goods are selling cheaper there.. Its like a factory outlet.. We went for desert at xu liu xiang to eat the famous mango pudding and other deserts made of mango.. We shopped at sports street folowed by women's street.. There's a shop selling lots of Hellp Kitty's stuffs.. I wish I could buy them all!!

Guangzhou/Hong Kong..
31/07/2007(Tues) - Day 4

Its the day to leave GZ, a place where things are so cheap.. Departed at 9am by train to HK.. The journey took around 2 hrs.. Finally reached HK around 1.30pm.. My hotel for the 5 days is Mayfair Hotel at Nanking Road.. The room is much smaller compared to GZ and def more expensive too.. After unpacking, we had lunch at Kim & Gary which is the same as the one in Vivocity.. We saw Xu Zhi An there.. Heez.. Managed to catch a quick glance of him.. Not too bad looking.. Thou I wish I can see Jay instead.. After lunch, we took the train to wang da xian temple to pray.. Its huge and crowded with people praying.. After which, we went Esprit outlet for shopping.. It took is quite some time looking for that building as it has shifted places.. Bought t-shirts and a pair of jeans..

In the night, we went Avenue of Stars. The lightings is the catch of the noght.. After that, I walked along the street looking at the handprints of the stars but most of them are umfamiliar to me..



Dinner is wanton mee at Miao Jie.. The chilli is so hot!!

Guangzhou..
30/07/2007(Mon) - Day 3

Its the last night in GZ.. We passed by a round flat cake store and decided to try some since quite a lot of people are queueing for it.. Its pretty nice hen hot but when it turns cold, it is hard like stone.. better to eat it while its hot.. For breakfast, we had porridge, meat dumplings and zhu chang fen.. Seems that breakfast has always been a filling one for me.. We went shopping at zhuangyuan fang again as it is too crowded the other time we went there.. Managed to buy clothes and shoes..

Its another shopping session at shang xia jiu lu.. Prior to shopping, we had some drinks at rabbit.. The place is pretty nice except for the direct sunlight on us.. We shopped and ate along the way.. We had sotong balls, tako balls, cuttlefish cake & herbal tea.. The food is yummy & most importantly very cheap!! After much walking, yay, we went eating again... Haa.. We went in to the desert shop to eat shuang pi nia.. Hmm... It doesnt taste as nice as what we had the previous night.. Our conclusion is never try anything for the 2nd time coz the ratings for tt item will start to drop.. Haa...

Nearing to evening, we saw xiao shi area & we went eating again.. Cant imagine I had so many meals in one day & worst of all, I'm experiencing constipation!! There's only input & no output.. Sobz.. There, we had zhu chang fen, zhi ma hu and jiao zhi.. The zhi ma hu is my favourite.. Its grinded by hand and not the use of machine.. Its def hard work having to grind them from seeds to liquid form..

In the night, we went for KTV session and arcade after that.. Reached hotel around 11.30pm.. A tiring day but a nice one to round up our last night in GZ...

Guangzhou...
29/07/2007(Sun) - Day 2

We woke up at 7am in the morning for our dim sum feast at Da Tong.. We ordered a table full of delicious food.. I think we ordered 13-14 'basket' of dim sum.. My stomach bursting soon with all the food.. But its yummy!!! Each of us only paid S$8.. We even have a room to ourselves with a sea view... Thou I'm already full in the mid of serving food but the food is just so tempting.. This is the most satisfying breakfast I had..

After breakfast, we went Yuexiu Park..



There are many slopes there which made the climb up & down very tiring.. To top it up.. the sun is super scorching.. All I see at the park are trees & more trees.. didnt see any of the attractions as stated on the signboard.. There are many old folks there doing morning exercise.. Compared to them, my strength is far worst than them.. they climbed the slope effortlessly but I'm sweating like hell.. had a ice-cream treat when we finally see some1 selling it.. almost been having ice-cream since my 1st day there.. the heat is just so unbearable for me... luckily I didnt faint from the heat as the doctor had advised me from being under the heat for too long..

Jasen was commenting that we always see tv saying travelling is mai tong xi chi tong xi, mai tong xi chi tong xi... but we are always mai tong xi & walk a lot.. we rarely sit down to eat or drink something.. Haa... so we decided to sit down at starbucks.. thou the drink is what we can have in Singapore but the word is 'shiok' when we gulp down our drink..

Our next destination is the Nan Yue Tomb.. It is an enlightening journey.. Learnt about the story of the past and the come about of the artifacts.. The 'jie shuo yuan' are very nice & I learnt more when they tell us the story of all the artifacts.. It beats going ard reading the descriptions which tells little about it.. we took a train to the Chen Clan after that.. The train ticket is so cute, its like a token we have when we go arcade..



My first experience on the train is pretty nice..

Dinner is eaten at Kung Fu fastfood.. can see that this shop is very popular coz we can see it everywhere in GZ.. Ate meatball beehoon.. isnt really nice coz find it very oily..



We went shopping at Beijing Road after that.. We ate food along the way & also found my Hello Kitty stuffs too.. Later in the night, we ate redbean shuang pi nia.. Its yummy!! Thumbs up!!

The Beginning of My Trip...

Guangzhou...
28/07/2007(Sat) - Day 1

Woke up at 3.45am to catch the flight at 6.20am. Tossing here & there on the bed as I couldnt hid my excitement for the trip.. At one point, there was worries for the days ahead as I'm gg away with friends (xiumei, wanjun, ejun, jasen & simin) I have nv gone on a trip with.. wondering if I've made the right decision.. Met up with xiumei, wanjun & ejun to go to the airport together.. Its my first time taking the budget airline.. The experience wasnt so bad except that the plane was really small.. We landed on Baiyun Airport aound 10.15am. The airport is really big.. One thing that I found out is that PRCs are not at all friendly & helpful.. Whatever we asked, their ans are always a mumbling of words which has no help to us.. It took us some time to finally decide on our transportation to our hotel.. We didnt really plan on how are we gg to find our way there prior to our trip..

We decided on a coach which took us about 50 mins.. We dropped off at Haizhu Square Market.. Little did we expect, we are about to embark on a journey that left us so exhausted.. Thinking that the journey by foot to the hotel is pretty short, we decided to walk.. OMG!! The journey is like forever.. We had to carry our baggage all the way, carrying it up when we see a platform or when there is a puddle of dirty water.. It took a whole 45 mins.. We were all sweating like hell.. My hands nearly break & so is my leg having to pull my baggage all the way.. Its super hot & dry there.. Our hotel for the 3 days is Baigong Hotel..

Rested for a while before gg for our lunch.. I ate a fish meal accompained by rice, a soup & a plate of vegetables.. It cost only 3 bucks.. The soup is those that are brewed, not those like we have in hawker center.. After lunch, we went Zhuangyuan Fang to shop..



There are little streets of small little shops but it is overcrowded with people.. You cant stay in one position for even a sec coz you will be pushed out by the people there.. Not all the stall owners are friendly.. some have an attitute which you dont even want to buy a single thing from her.. The crowd is so big that we decided to come on a wkday instead.. We left to sit down for something cold.. Our so call desert is so small we wonder if its really 'ice kacang' as we call in Singapore.. Its a fruit cocktail but there's only 4 kinds of fruits inside.. The ice is only the height of my middle finger. so can guess how 'tall' it is?? Haa... After that, we went shao nian jie.. Its a small shopping center.. Not a lot of things to buy from there as the things are not really cheap..

Later in the night, we went to the Pearl River Night Course..



The night view is pretty nice & the whole touring took about 1.5hrs.. I guess it will only take about 30 mins to tour the Singapore River at slow speed but here the boat is much faster..

Went back to the hotel to rest after that.. Its been a tiring day.. The night life isnt really fantastic.. You usually see people sitting down together to chit chat and most of the shops are closed pretty early..

I'm back!! feeling exhausted & every part of my body is aching now.. feeling so tired, ended up sleeping the whole day but I'm still feeling sleepy.. Its been a fun, exciting, happening & a memorable trip.. the 8th night is def the one which the 6 of us will remz always.. Haa... I def need 'jin feng shan' to calm my nerves.. will update my days in GZ/HK soon...

Today isn't a great day to start off.. as what I have predicted, none of the econs mod are allocated to me.. SOBZ.. :'(.. with so poor on pts, how do I bid for 4 core mods? last sem was a terrible bidding period, now its even worst with none pre-allocated to me.. now I'll have to do the horrible bidding over in HK... think at most I'll be able to get only 2.. keeping my fingers crossed.. may god watched over me, blessed me with luck..

2 more days over at GES.. finally leaving soon.. now I'm loaded with so much work.. they still couldnt find a temp to help them out.. nearly wanted to blurt out tt I'll be able to help them out if they still cant find a temp by the time I'm back... but think I need a gd rest to prepare myself for the battle ahead.. next sem would be the last & I must work doubly hard to get my merit status.. I'm barely making it, wish I'll be able to do it.. Jia You!!! I'll def miss sch.. even thou I wanted to get out asap when I first came in but now I cant bear to part with sch life.. life in sch def much better than the working life.. the people are much simplier.. even if people are battling for the best but its a fair & sq game, not one which involves stepping on other people to achieve their goal.. life of skipping lect can nv apply to working.. Haa.. but I'll def will continue to pursue my new goal.. prob others might not understand but achieving these goals brings me satisfaction & most importantly, a smile on mummy's face.. as she always says, the best ever thing that happen to her is seeing her children gg to uni.. I fulfilled it & I wanna do my best to make her proud of her daughter.. at least we wont be looked down by 1 of the relative who always feel that having lots of riches can bring many & better things.. even thou we might not be able to afford personal tutor but both bro & I made it with mass tuition.. He's gg to uni too.. thou it might not be a local uni but mummy is happy too... hopefully when I grad, will be able to work in my dream place.. I know it might not be the type of environment for me but I'm looking forward to the challenges..

2 more days, I'll be flying soon.. been so bz these days buying stuffs.. too lazy to start packing.. will try to start after work today.. gonna go ZzzzZzz now...

3 more days to go!! I'll be leaving there soon.. Haa.. happy? 'she bu de'? i guess neither 1 of them seem to be within me.. heaving a sign of relief, i guess.. ah yong asked me smthg which left with tongue-tied.. who do I think is nice here? sld I say none.. tot everything is pretty gd but prob there are things which blinded me from seeing whats gonna happen later on.. but its gonna end soon.. ah yong is quite a nice person, always chatting with me after my move over to AP side... feeling more at ease over there even thou used to heard bad stuffs abt there.. its only when u tried b4 u determine if smthg is gd or bad & not thru words.. she's a great of korean & hk dramas.. she's always excited when smthg new is releasing... & she likes to matchmake too.. haa.. matchmaking Ben to the AP gals...

with the departure also means i'm gg to GZ & HK soon!! yeah... but mummy been so worried i'll be abducted or i'll go missing... guess she read too many newspaper on that kind of news.. losing sleep over my trip.. dont worry yay, i'll be just fine.. hope everything will go smoothly & have lots of fun.. been so tired these days, brooding over if this has been done or that have been done.. afraid i'll forget to bring smthg.. too lazy to start packing anything.. haa... will try my best to start packing smthg into the lagguage.. cant contain my excitement.. counting down!!!

Its a busy busy last week... beside rotting @ times & sometimes bz @ work, the rest is houseworks... went ichiban with xm last fri, both of us only ate 7 plates.. Haa.. guess we wasnt so hungry.. smthg diff last wkend.. last sat was at kayle's birthday which is held at changi fairy chalet 4.. she's 2 yrs old now while her ah yi who is me whose age is a 2 digit now.. Haa.. saw all my cousins & their children... times flies, all of them are so tall now & askye can walk on his own now.. he is so so adorable.. he loves to eat so much tt he would to strech his hand out to you at the sight of anyone haing food on their plates.. played with them all night & stuffing myself with all the goodies prepared by my cousin-in-law & his sister.. the food is yummy!! stayed overnight there where there are 7 bedrooms.. shared one with san yi & another relative of mine & also 2 cousins.. didnt manage to sleep well as it was quite squeezy to have 3 pple sharing the bed, plus its a new environment.. woke up ard 7am the next morning to take a stroll ard the area.. walked the path with my cousins, their children, san yi & mummy.. Its great despite tt i was the target of mosquitoes.. I sprayed so much repellent on me but no effect on me at all.. sobz.. wondering if there's another chance we'll walk like that together again..

this week been pretty alright.. happy with the new change, less stress & everyone is great to me.. at least I'm really happier here.. wanted to leave earlier as I'm exhausted being there but HR wouldnt approve my leave no matter the 'crap' I tried to come up with.. had to stay on till the end.. met bao 3 days in a wk.. haa.. ate dinner together & shop ard the area.. wasnt feeling well these few days, been vomitting after my dinner & LS-ing in the morning.. Haiz... am I sick? but I'm feeling alright except feeling the tiredness in me... hopefully next wk wud be great & I'll be feeling better by than.. 7 more days!!!! GZ & HK.. here I come!!!!

feeling tired these days.. starting to find everything ard me dreadful.. Its hard to determine who's true, who's fake, which words are true & which are made-up.. I always trust myself in the perception of pple but now starting to see people in a different angle.. used to feel everyone is their real self but when you are caught in the current environment, its the ignition to doubt everyone's motive.. am I being overly senstitive, making myself so unhappy? even thou it for long term but its a torture to stay there looking at them.. when you asked me why, I cant tell you the truth.. it isnt bcoz I wanna hide anything from you but its hard to explain what I meant to say out coz I would never be able to know who you really are.. I wish I didnt have to be always guessing but I cant stop myself now.. didnt even realise since when did I become a extreme grumpy person, I have loads of sorrows to pour out everyday & poor SD became my victim, hearing me complain everyday (I'm really sorry & I really apreciate you for 'reading' my long list of complaints on msn which is non-stop & lengthy)..

when everything starts to go wrong, I'm becoming disppointed in myself & sometimes doubt my worth, sld I say 'useless' or 'not cut out for it'?.. & to add on to the despair moment, the atitude being treated is only making me feel out of place.. the mood swing from you made me caught in btw, sld I be here or there or I shouldnt have been here in the first place.. ur reply has a hidden thorns, was it bcoz of the change? I didnt asked for the change & it became my fault? or was it smthg else? prob I have been thinking too much, probing over whats wrong, what wrong have I done or have I only caused you trouble.. Its only departure tt will make things right.. but I know I feel bad twd LP when not once but twice asking me to continue till the last.. but my last limit is over, long over sld I say.. Its not a decision made now but a mth ahead.. how do I tell you the truth? I wish I could.. I know this will be a typical situation in the future & you are always worried tt I'll be bullied by others or bullied by my friends.. but I'm already tried my best.. I can only try my best to hold on longer.. I'll try... will trying help?

I wonder if it has been a wrong decision.. everything has changed.. changed as a result of people, environment or a resultant caused by no one else but me.. I wonder what had happen & whats wrong.. It has been good initially but things took a change.. tired.. is there any worth left?? I guess what has happen all these while shown otherwise.. Its time to do what need to be done.. Its wrong right from the start but its impossible to start things over again, things can only go right by putting an end to all these.. What looks smooth sailing is the event prior to a thunderstorm..

Its another wkend spent in a routine way except for my upset tummy.. feeling sick but had to help out with the housework while mummy is still recovering.. sunday is here & here comes Mon bluez again.. 27 more days to go & I'll be leaving there.. it allowed me to learn new things there but it has also brought me stress.. & also, it allow me to see the diff faces & characters of people & most importantly decide my route for the future.. I just hope I didnt cause any trouble to anyone.. It will be another farewell soon.. to my surprise, I'm actually looking forward to gg back to sch.. Haa.. I love the life of being a student except for the stress over exams & assignments.. Hmmm... nothing much happen this wkend.. & its been 3 wks since I last went for MWH activities.. Haa.. guess my 'ai xin' is diminishing.. but looking forward to the CAN Proj which is 2 wks from now & also Kayle's b'day.. will be seeing my cousins, nephews & nieces soon..

now i'm being 'loaned' over to the costing side to help out... having things to do beats rotting away, isnt it.. but at least when I'm bored, I have shidah to chat online with or opening the smallest possible window, checking my mail or the sch website.. Haa... not much work now ever since the new exec coming in.. anyway, left with 4 wks more before leaving.. will I ever come back here? prob not.. my ideal place of work is still banks..

on my way back from lunch, saw a Lamborghini car parked right in front of the co!!! its one of the director's.. seeing is believing!! its so so so cool... the sleek design is OMG nice & the price is OMG as well.. $1m++ a car!!! when will I ever be able to afford tt kind of car.. wanted to go hug it but the security guard is just few distance away!! humph!! I missed the chance.. eunice even asked me to go kissed it!! Haa.. I would if I can.. Haa..

its been a wk with my new perm.. cant wait for 6 mths to pass & I'm gonna make it flat away.. having to twist my hair everyday is so tiring.. I have to spend at least 15 mins twisting hair day & night.. unlike st hair, juz need to comb & out I can go off.. I must be crazy or too stressed to decide on perm.. there's a lot of things gg on which is hard to explain.. doing smthg diff is to relieve the stress hidden within.. there's a need to do smthg or go on a shopping spree to make myself happier.. the feeling just not right.. initially, one might juz see things tt are apparent but with time passed, the ugly side surface which makes me feeling so disappointed.. it is true tt, "Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born." There are some who have def make up my world but it is also true tt one will meet pretentious acquaintances claiming right to friendship.. Prob I sld give them credit, for without experiencing disappointment, how can one become stronger.. anyway, jul will be a bz mth for me with activities every wkend.. but before the trip, I have to do the much hated bidding.. Haiz.. finally the mod listing is released but its def not gd news.. most of the exam dts are side by side & all biz exams clashed with econs.. I didnt even read the mod outline since I dont have much choices.. more importantly is to spread out the exam dts.. 4 econs exam being too close is def feeding yourseld a poisonous potion prior to sch commencement..

28 days more to go & here I come!!!!

there's always a point when one will feel tired of all things, feeling despair & wishing for things to turn for the better but reality are always the hardest to accept.. suddenly sensing LP's tiredness & disappointment thru her expression.. thou she didnt say much but can see that she's tired of how people put up a mask everyday.. guess there's no real self, everyone are vying for credits.. only been there for a few months but I'm tired too.. suddenly have to see where the wind blows as they always like to say.. is today a calm weather or a storm? suddenly she asked if I would consider working there.. to me, I'm sick of doing mono work.. I know the route I chose for myself to head is tough & its much worst than the experience now but I'm still willing to try.. I may not be the type of character that LP & mummy asked me to learn so that I wont get bullied but its hard to change myself.. Haiz.. I still love my status as a student.. love my sch life.. missed sch too.. Haa.. ard 1.5 mths more b4 I head back to sch for my last sem.. wow.. time really flies, my first day in sch is still vividly in my mind & now its the last.. I'm a blessed girl, to have met so many great friends there, sharing the sweet & bitter part of sch life, cracking our brains together solving the never-solvable econs qns, 'piang-ing' for proj, complaining abt our tutors & so much more.. ec2303, ec3303, ec3101 & ec2102 lecturers are so far my fav..

Hopefully the week will get better as it progress on.. 4 wks+, I'll be flying soon.. wooo... Haa.. thou the Korea trip this jul is cancelled but SK promised to postpone till next yr.. looking forward to it!!! I wanna buy almost all the things I see in korean dramas.. Haa.. & of course, the best part is gg there with mummy, aunt, cousin & adian... the 3 of them are my closest & important pple to me.. gtg sleep now....

My new hairstyle...

*~before~*

*~after~*


Got a new hairstyle today!!! went to perm my hair after much deliberation.. wanted to change smthg new but lacked the courage.. have always been rebonding my hair, making it straight but now wanted to pluck it all out coz I'm used to plucking out hair tt are curly... now since all are curly, I cant do tt anymore.. not really sure if it fits me coz I look more mature now.. Haiz.. a choice made but be it right or wrong, I have to live with it for the time being... wonder if my collegues will be shocked when I go back to office on Mon.. everyone will be asking me qns... Haa.. then there's also my other friends... hopefully I didnt look very old with this hairstyle.. however, at least this choice can be reversed.. I can always rebond back my hair but in life, choices made are most of the time irreversible.. we cant turn back time if we have made the wrong choice.. that is so true & tts how I feel now.. if I had known this is the outcome, this decision wouldnt have been made... if only.. 'if only' can be foreseen... feeling lost in office these days.. somehow, becoming withdrawn from all others.. seem to be doing all the wrong things or lacking behing bcoz of reasons tt I cant say it out.. becoming tired & restless there but I can only hang on for another 5 wks.. Haiz.. when will the end of 5 wks arrive?