Bidding farewell to 2008 & here comes 2009.. Its been a fulfilling 2008 with happy and sad moments.. Lets me retrack some of the memorable moments...

(1) I started my first job with my current company.. no matter how much I grumble every single day & yes I'm still with them.. Haa.. wonder if I'm too afraid to move forward.. I have the best environment with no office politics (seriously no!!) and gives me the opportunity to work overseas.. what else could I ask for?? but its hard to give up my dream.. I tried all means & ways which even my friends goes wow but nothing works.. to give up??

(2) I have the chance to go US for training which is a rare opportunity.. probably I should consider myself lucky to find this job.. My first time taking the flight to US all alone on a near 24 hours journey.. I have to figure out how to go about finding the transit which I have 4 & their airports are 2 or 3 times larger than ours.. I applaude my courage to fly over to SFO & tour the country myself after training, taking the ship to an island, racky out the resturants where I have no idea where is it except the name of which my manager gave me and taking buses by myself.. but of course his parents are really nice to bring me around on my last day which I really appreciate.. My next training might be 4 or 5 years later.. will I still be there??

I must say I love US.. to the extend that I check out the immigration details.. xm always comment I'm crazy.. prob it will be great if I can work in the office there.. I got to know K through the training & still is in contact with her.. heez.. hope her life in Dallas is great!!

(3) My happiest day got to be my grad.. It's sad to be leaving the place which left me with great and fond memories.. mugging days, hall life, meeting new friends, doing assignments and projects & my clinques who accompanied me through the hard days of school.. but its all worth it when I see the happiness in my parents.. I can say my parents are proud of their daughter..

(4) I'm happy that I have more friends now.. & grateful to xm who hears my grumbles almost everyday during the initial stage of my career.. we still grumble now & then but its great to know that someone is there to hear you out.. & everyone else along the way..

(5) I stepped out of myself to go marketing now, meeting our clients.. but one thing I need to learn is to drink.. usually 3 drinks can knock me out.. while my MD is a born drinker?? Haa..

(6) Catch Wong Lee Hom concert.. Its really good & I look forward to watching Cats in Apr..

My wishes nest year:

May all I wish for be fulfilled!! May I be blessed with a genie!!(greedy me!!)

Happy new year to all friends...

My eyes have been twitching for days.. Has it got smthg to do with the coming release of results.. could feel that I wont make it & I mean it.. its my first that the feeling is so strong & feeling uneasy about it.. am I going the way that xm says??

anyway.. my x'mas was pretty good.. spend the countdown to x'mas with my friends known since poly.. spend it at chjmes for a drink & chit chat.. I freaked out the next morning.. strange enough, I dreamed about contact lens & true enough I forgot to get my lens out.. oh man!! I manage to get the lens out from my right eye but I couldnt locate the one on my left.. I actaully use up the whole bottle of eye drop trying to mositure it but nothing came off when I roll it down.. in the end, I had to go down to my practioner to get it but after the examination, its not in my eyes.. damn it!! I hurt my eye while trying to get the lens out so I cant wear lens for the next 3 days.. but luckily my eyesight is not that bad.. had a bad scare.. phew!! but I cant find my lens anywhere in the room.. did it really drop out??

had x'mas dinner at cousin's house.. became the nanny over there as I played with the kids while their parents (whom are all my cousins happily eating..) eat at ease.. Haa.. but I'm more than happy to play with them.. dont see them often so its only at gatherings do I see all 7 of them.. its actually quite a handful..

went ikea with mummy on sat.. & I decided on the bed frame I want.. picked a few other furnitures but need time to buy it all (coz all need money which I seriously need!!).. the current bed size that I have will have to have my bed frame custom made as its european single size bed.. haiz.. have to settle for a single size which is much much smaller.. hope I dont fall off my bed.. heez..

special thing to do on sat then sun for another x'mas dinner.. crabby day!! I love seafood..

Merry Christmas to all friends... May your resoultions set for the year be realised and wishing for everyone to be happy!!

Spend x'mas almost the same way every year.. but this year, its not a school holiday but rather my first x'mas in the stage of working life.. was chased out of office as MD called to ask my colleague to make sure our secretary and I get out of office.. Haa.. I can jolly well work until 6pm or later if no one is there to chase me away.. I still have tons of work to complete and my target is to have my schedules ready on Mon but I guess I'm far behind schedule..

plan to spend x'mas eve at home as everywhere is super crowded.. will be having x'mas gathering at cousin's house tml & dinner with wj & her friends on Sun.. admire myself that I knew none of them except for the few & I agreed to go.. haiz.. paiseh to keep rejecting so have to 硬着头皮去..

anyway.. happy to be on leave on Fri.. a getaway from office...

Its movie session again this Sat..



"Twilight" is an action-packed, modern day love story between a vampire and a human. Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother remarries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn't expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson), a boy unlike any she's ever met. Intelligent and witty, he sees straight into her soul. Soon, Bella and Edward are swept up in a passionate and decidedly unorthodox romance. Edward can run faster than a mountain lion, he can stop a moving car with his bare hands and he hasn't aged since 1918.

Like all vampires, he's immortal. But he doesn't have fangs, and he doesn't drink human blood; Edward and his family are unique among vampires in their lifestyle choice. To Edward, Bella is that thing he has waited 90 years for a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. But what will Edward & Bella do when James (Cam Gigandet), Laurent (Edi Gathegi) and Victoria (Rachelle Lefevre), the Cullens' mortal vampire enemies, come to town, looking for her? Based on the Stephenie Meyer book. (extraxted from www.gv.com.sg)

Its pretty good (I guess all girls do wish to have someone like Edward loving her dearly) for me.. Its a different type of love story.. as the author depicts, this story is about life, not death and love not lust.. Edward's love for bella is indeed different from the love of humans because he's a vampire.. the cool thing I guess is that she's able to run off really fast & to climb up really high with aid of him.. terrifying thing is that you may ended up as a meal.. The vampires in this show is unlike the others we seen in "Kuang Tian You" type of story.. they dont have fangs & they shine like jewel under sunlight.. Its funny how he had to repeat his high school many times & having so many mortar boards display on the wall because of his immortality.. The vampires are really pale in the show except their really red lips.. but in real life, James Pattison isnt that fair.. he's pretty charming too... Haa..

realised that there are 4 series.. oh mine... It might take 4 years to complete the show if production is anually.. I do look forward to the sequel of it.. & looking forward to Will Smith new movie.. but in the meantime, I might get the book to appease my curiosity.. we chatted until 1am before heading back home..

Early rise for run today.. am dead tired now.. Looking forward to x'mas.. my holi!!!

Its remote working tml!! My first ever.. probably the last too?? office is under renov tml & we'll have a new furnished office.. Hope to have more storage as files are piling up on my table.. May I clear my work fast & early tml which will give me some time to slack around at home (secretly).. It's my first time working together with my MD, discussing a case together.. a total different experience.. hopefully I did understand what he wants & give him the report tml with smile on his face.. & of course to ease N's job when he's back.. as he said, hope I'll clear the case for him when he's back.. May I have the capacity to do that.. praying hard...

Over-indulgence today which leaves my pocket a big big hole.. was telling xm I seriously need to finish up my x'mas shopping but I ended up pampering myself.. went for pedicure & my legs just brought me to the doorstep of Gucci after I'm done.. I bought my first ever branded purse.. Yeah!! they didnt have a new piece for the model I wanted & I had to walk to taka to get it but happy to have it.. I'll have to settle for cheap hawker food for the next month.. broke gal for this mth..

I worked my ass off for the last 2 weeks but now I'm too free... haiz.. my work schedule is so unpredictable and irregular.. It somehow added stress on me as all my time needs to be accounted for.. guess my billable hours is gonna be pathetic for the next 2 weeks.. haiz... Fri gonna be remote working but wonder what can I do when there's nothing for me to do..

Last thurs was our co.'s x'mas get together.. we spend the evening at liliputt (http://www.lilliputt.com/) where we played indoor golf.. The scenery of the golf course was set at the different tourist attractions of Singapore.. It was really fun but my first attempt wasnt that fantastic so hope I'll improve my scores the next time.. we were put in 2 groups and I joined my MD.. heez.. he's a pro at it which would give us a better chance at winning the group chllenge.. Haa.. clever me, right?? he gave us pointers along the way which is helpful but given my strength, I always had difficulties at the first shot.. but I do have good shots too!! our team was filled with laughter as we kept laughing along the way.. we won at the end of the game.. yeppie!!

dinner was at an Italian resturant, Ristorante Da Valentino.. This resturant is highly recommended, even LYK was there to dine once.. Its always crowded and fully booked so do make your bookings 3 days earlier.. The food was great with lots of wine & chatters.. love my main course which is on their special list.. its my first time sitting opposite my MD but I did talk to him.. luckily N was beside me, if not, I'll not be talking too much.. the dinner ended with a shooter.. It was a pretty strong liquor.. luckily I didnt end up vomitting with all the different wines & liquor in my stomach.. the next day, we received a x'mas hamper from MD.. guess my mum is the happiest as there's 2 wines inside..

Its gathering on Fri for the four of us, yve, yan, jas & me.. finally!! Haa.. but again, my work wont allow me to go off early as last min work just flood in & I'm pressing for time as everyone needed their stuffs fast.. Haiz.. but we did meet up in the end & photoshots after dinner.. we had lots of crazy photos taken & lots of laughter taking each of them.. as jas forgotten her housekeys, the 3 of us settled down at chjimes for drinks.. its a long long long walk.... esp when I'm on heels.. but its a nice catch up from the time we last met..

met xm on sat for x'mas shopping but I ended up buying working pants as nothing catches my eyes.. hope the shipment for my x'mas gifts purchase will arrive soon so I wont have to do x'mas shopping to replace.. we walked to all the mng stores to look for xm's jeans but too bad, none fits her.. wanted to go to LV & gucci but she isnt interested so I forgo it.. will shop there myself over the weekdays..

Sun, we met again but this time round with wj & j as well.. movie session after ikea outing with xm..



"The Day the Earth Stood Still" is 20th Century Fox's contemporary reinvention of its 1951 classic. Keanu Reeves portrays Klaatu, an alien whose arrival on our planet triggers a global upheaval. As governments and scientists race to unravel the mystery behind the visitor's appearance, a woman (Jennifer Connelly) and her young stepson get caught up in his mission and come to understand the ramifications of his being a self-described "friend to the Earth." (extracted from gv.com.sg)

Wonder if the world is coming to an end.. seems like most movies nowadays depicts humans destroying the earth.. but no doubt that humans do bear responsibilities to the problems faced by the earth like thinning of ozone layer, accumulation of rubbish, etc.. its funny to see two Aliens talking in McDonald in Chinese when both knows how to speak in English.. Keanu is indeed charming in the movie but some scenes are so unrealistic and the beginning of the storyline made me so confused.. wouldnt be a movie that I would recommend unless you are a diehard fan of Keanu..

Hope this week will be good with work coming in and I'll get my bedframe soon as all I have seen are for single bed & mine is in the mid of queen and super single.. haiz.. most importantly, huge bonus.. possible?? Haa..

Its been a long time since I last blog.. It has been a hectic month with schedule packed to the brim..

Attempted my first shot at CIMA.. not sure if I'll pass but I tried all I could.. can only crossed my finger and hope for the best.. had been studying in school everyday despite the long journey to & fro but it feels great to be back at the place which left me great memories!! had wj accompanying me studying but all alone when she completed her papers.. xm spent her leave in school accompanying us too thou I know its really bored as there wasnt much for her to do.. the day I regain freedom after exams was a happy one.. met xm for lunch before she goes to work & dinner with wj & j..

its been bz at work.. ot almost everyday but happy to have tons of work to do.. I'm a workaholic & I can't stand not having things to do.. I'm self torturing myself?? & soon after that is to HK!! after comparing the costs for every place, decide on a cheaper one before exploring a further one.. thou its somewhere we have been to before but its a new experience with a new friend going.. its really fun with tons of eating & shopping.. love the weather which is so cooling & nice except for the cracked lips wj & I got.. we didnt missed our flight this time!! Haa.. xm even msg us to say not to miss it.. its still not a good experience with bad customer service from the personnel at the airport.. customer service is really bad in HK, exp at the shops along sports street.. Ocean park is the one which we all love & I love the dolphins!! they are so cute.. & the pandas too.. my favourite food is the dim sum we had at chao inn!! cheap & good..

its my first time staying at a guesthouse as I always stayed in hotels whenever I'm overseas but its not too bad.. the room was small but enough for the 3 of us to sleep on one bed to stay together.. the other bed ended up being our place to place clothes.. but the shower space was really small but luckily we are all small sized.. the person in charge is really helpful & recommended all the nice food to us.. love all he recommended.. not much victory goods but its the getaway thats important to me.. had been cropped up these days & a getaway is what I really need to recharge.. thanks to wj who asked if I wanna go together as my friend couldnt go to TW together.. but I still wanna go TW one day.. prob I can go backpacking there by myself in the near future..


Lovely gals of the trip..

I must say its much more fun this time rd as compared to the last time round.. its funny when j said our last trip is fun as well if not for XXX.. but looking forward to gg somewhere else..

its my SC run today!! my 3rd run for the year.. companion runners are wj & xm..


my runner bib & medal..

was sad that we ran for safra 10km but didnt sign up for the competitive category so there's no medal for that, so this is def a make-up.. to think that I always failed my 2.4km in sec sch days, I ran two 10km & one 5 km this year.. cant imagine myself running the 42km thou.. guess I'll end up flagging a cab after 10km or walk the rest of 32km.. looking at the guys after their run, they all walk with difficulties as lots has leg cramps along the way.. I salute the old people I saw along the way.. they are running the 42km with smiles but my leg ache running the 10km.. but I'll still be there next year!! next run... adidas sundown?? a different experience running in the night.. anyone interested??

looking to revamp my whole room but need to think over how I wanna do it.. hope to have a new look.. conceptualising my ideas for now..

had a gift from xm which is made to print diary from her workplace... thank you!! it was later that she know that she can have my name engraved on it but still love it nonetheless.. since I didn't get in, she got me something from there.. ML has always been the place I wanna be.. despite it being hit hard by the economic crisis, it has been my dream place to work since uni.. there's no specific reason why I like it, its a "love at first sight" I guess.. still working towards it even thou I know it may not even realise.. she always comment I'm crazy to even want to work there but its the realisation of the dream which matters to me.. wont give up until "been there, tried it"...

E mentioned abt Gucci sale... but too bz to go down to have a look.. Hope I can get a wallet from there.. or a bag?? the LV which I wanted is out of stock in France.. sobz..

Had a happy sat spent watching Wong Lee Hom concert!! Was initially feeling the pinch but I guess its all worth it.. bought the second expensive tickets & I should say its a pretty good spot.. all the people who bought the 198 tickets were standing all the way.. I would prefer to sit & enjoy all his song.. a concert inspired by superheros like superman, spideman, batman, etc which sees the birth of the theme "music-man".. applaued his perspective of achieving freedom and to just be yourself.. everyone has their weak side but others might perceive that you are happy or good but fail to see the imperfection of life that only we ourselves know.. "what others think are all crap!!".. thats the part I heard him said the loudest.. probably I'm subjective too, seeing only the perfect side of people's eperience..

anyway.. love the part of him playing the violin.. he is just as good with the panio but looking at how he is immersed playing the violin is just so dashing.. wasnt really a fanatic fan of his but guess I am now..



not all are perfect thou.. he has quite a few instances of singing the wrong verse or forget his lyrics.. but no one is perfect isn't it?? I dont even remember all the sentences I read in my textbooks.. hope there will be more encores actually but there's only one.. there's still many "must hear" songs!! with cool visual effects (except for the black sqaure right in the middle of the screen) & his melodious voice, I'm happy to make the choice to watch his concert.. & scenes of me screaming isn't something you will see often.. heez.. most importantly, suprise plan a success but not without some running & hidding!! looking forward to attending another concert which gives the "high high high" feeling..

anyway.. hibernation period now.. as days near, mood just slips to the bottom.. desperate call for a genie to save me now.. fatigue been hitting me hard & I can't wake myself up for run which left me feeling so guilty... SC run coming soon & I have yet to train.. gonna be a tough task...

its been a pretty bz week.. its my first business trip out to client's place.. a total different experience but I do hope to get back soon as the journey to the destination is pretty far.. hope I get to learn a lot through this experience & in time to come (hopefully very fast), I get to handle my very first case by myself.. I'm really eager to learn all the necessary steps to completing a case.. hope this day comes fast before the deadline I set for myself comes & deciding its all over..

just back from shopping & movie with xm.. watched so much to watch ma ma mia but tickets are selling fast so we watched painted skin in the end..



Adapted from Strange Tales of Liaozhai, this film is about a married man who falls for a beautiful woman who is actually a vixen spirit, and her appearance the result of a piece of beautifully painted skin. (adapted from gv.com)

not too bad a show with laughter & sad part.. tocuhed by the love the general has for his wife.. besides that would say a typical ending kind of show..

I'm so happy.. going for my first concert.. watching Wong Lee Hom concert!!! Happy.. happy.. **would be even happier if I get my hands on jay's tickets the last time or gary's thou.. but at that time was pretty broke..** waiting for tha day to come!! but that would mean exams coming soon too.. DREAD!! wish time would just stop for me to catch up on whatever I'm unclear.. not confident of passing at all...

been obsessed with surfing watches website lately.. if not for my location at the client's place, I would be surfing the website every lunch break.. ever since the gang was discussing about watches, I've been looking out for new models.. love tag heuer watches but its too huge a indulgence for me.. I'm content to just look at the display window for now.. prob when the time I had a windfall, I'll step into the store!! currently, having my very first LV would make me just as happy.. probably I should buck up on my studies, passed the exams & give myself a treat.. **if only I passed.. would I?? Haiz.. everyone was shocked to know I'm crazy to take 2 killer papers together.. ya.. come to think of it, I'm really crazy!!

I must buck up tml & try to complete the set of questions he gave us.. "die die must pass" is my motto!! I'm happy that I drew good lots too.. hope things will all be good and smooth..

Realised that its been a long time since I last blog.. getting lazy typing down with life being so hectic.. wonder how I made it at times.. Haa..

been attending class for consec 4 days in a week.. a pretty blessed gal with really nice classmates who's wiling to share with me their notes & teaching me stuffs which I have doubt in.. & I'm finally done with all the extra classes & its now back to normal timetable again.. FINALLY!! I'm feeling so deadbeat that I need a week sleep..

let me think what happen for the the month..

watched Wall-E with xm, wj & j... its a movie with meanings behind it.. the rubbish that humans threw each day is accumulating at some an alarming rate that we should start conserving our earth before it turns into a rubbish cute.. the robots in the movie are pretty cute.. I wouldnt say I really like it very much but not too bad to the point I wanna sleep.. Its also the day which I lost my coursepack.. was in j's car when I realised my coursepack was missing.. haiz.. called all the places we went to but none has news of my book.. I'm so demoralised as all my important notes are lost & I have to buy a new one.. cost me 50 bucks & feeling "bu hao yi shi", I didnt put it under co. expenses thou I think I can claim it as my book fees.. anyway, as mum says "po cai xiao zai"..

Have been sick for a week, so sick that its been a very bad flu & cough but recovered now.. Hope won't fall sick again.. despite falling sick, I went ahead to meet xm for shopping after my class.. sneeze so badly that I gave up shopping further..

last thurs was xm's b'day.. Happy b'day to my dearest friend!! ate dinner with her for the night to celebrate her day.. a friend who tide thru with me in uni & befriending her group of friends who are now my weekly outing kakis.. been thinking a lot lately.. when we gain smthg, we'll lose smthg in return.. its probably very true & smthg which closely relates to me.. but anyway, I'm really happy to have friends beside me whenever I'm feeling down..

its been a hectic 2 weeks.. had class from thurs to sun.. that goes all my weekends.. after class on sat, went to my cousin's house for gathering.. its really nice to see all my cousins & do some catching up.. after dinner, had overnight ktv session with xm, wj, ej, j & jw to celebrate xm's b'day together.. oh gosh!! we sang all the way till 5am.. we were all longing for our bed.. we had bf at mac before j drives us all home.. decided to go for a jog when I got home.. I'm crazy right?? after my jog, went for class again.. I'm pretty dead right then.. but I survived thru the class & watched F1 race in the night.. its really cool!! xm & I made a pact that we'll def be there next yr if there is another race next yr!! I wanna see Hamilton & Raikkonen!! Haa...

will be down at client's place for probably 2 weeks depending how fast we finished the job.. hope we get it done fast..

yve - tts lazy lin's updates... heez.. life pretty busy, not with work but studies.. Haa..

My first run began on 20 Jul 08.. its my first ever run & a short one of 5km.. happy to accomplish it in 1/2 hrs.. its fun to be running in the open air, running ard the CBD area with all the high rise buildings ard me..

Completed my 2nd run of 10km - safra army half marathon.. its a diff one compared to the last with the distance being longer & a whole different bunch of pple.. went over to wj house with xm for sleepover so that j can drives us all there in the morning.. when we were abt to sleep, one of the unit at the opposite block was having their music so loud that we couldnt sleep at all.. the 3 of us sat by the window peering over looking for the inconsiderate people.. we tried our best to sleep & wj couldnt hold it longer, she called the police.. haa.. we sat by the window again waiting for the police to come.. its a totally thrilling & fun experience.. wj kinda tongue tied & said she lives at rivervale mall.. coz she always tell her friends she lives near RV mall.. the police walked ard the void deck for quite some time, not knowing where to head.. I nearly wanted to shout over, "Go up to the 4th floor la!!!" we watched the whole episode of the 2 policemen finally walking up the stairs & the music finally stopped when the police knocked on the right door.. its finally peaceful if thats what you think.. their voices were still so loud that I could hear clearly their laughter and shouting.. in the end, I didnt catch a wink, just closing my eyes waiting for the alarm to go off..

we had a fast washup, ate our b/f in the car & reach there ard 6am as j & WQ's flagoff is 6.30 for their 21km.. I can nv run tt dist at this moment when I nv even completed 10km.. the 4 gals then sat along esplandae trying to sleep while waiting for our flagoff time.. feel so happy to complete the run.. I conquered 10km!!! a distance I nv tot I could do it.. one discouraging pt is that I started walking after reaching the 7km mark, walked another 2 km then run again.. to show I ran hard, the soles of my shoes are on the verge of coming off along the run but I survived home thou.. while running, witness lots of fun stuffs & saw encouraging moments.. there's lots of thing in life which we would nv know if we can do it until we attempt it.. our treat for the day is dim sum at "Hong Sing".. ate to our heart contents!! then shopped ard suntec with xm b4 heading back home..

Looking forward to my next run in Dec- SC marathon.. still thinking if I should join NB run as its a tough one.. gonna train hard to improve my timing & to finish the run at one shot with no walking..

In this week, was so pissed off with XXX.. I'm trying hard but yet went unappreciated.. its just a total turnoff.. prob just as E says, friends are just sparetyre, remembered only when needed.. true?? guess she's the only one who knows how I feel & share my thoughts.. glad that I still have a friend who is willing to listen to my grumbles and a friend I can get consolation from.. just telling myself, people who's not worthy are not worth the attention.. anyway, just wanna vent off.. will be fine again when I cool down..

My life now is all about eat, sleep, work & study with the first 2 being what I'm best at & the latter 2 what I'm worst at.. I had an unexpected little surprise too with an extra exemptions that I got.. but the bad news is I have to attend lessons on Sat & I'm TOTALLY lost.. who can save me in consol??

I guess I know what I love now.. as much as I hate economics in the past, but now, I love theories from smith, keynes, akerlof, etc.. rather than remembering accounting rules.. at least economics is smthg which revolves ard our everyday life.. well.. at least what I need to memorise is all the formulas.. its been some time since I last come in contact with a/cg stuffs & its taken a toll on me now.. with the benchmark set so high, I'm freaking stress how am I going to survive & achieve the results set.. I'm not Michel Phelps who can set WR even if his goggles were filled with water..

I'm crazy to be taking the 2 hardest & killer papers right for my start.. am I courting death, digging my own grave?? I don't wanna lose out when the race is not even done but I no longer have the old gang of friends who tide through with me together back in uni, with everyone of us working out solutions together.. its a lone journey here with everyone almost to themselves.. someone told me he's ASPD.. maybe I'm one too? may good luck be with me & i'll tide thru this..

its the olympics game now.. & people from my office is so engrossed in it.. its interesting that we all come from different countries & each of us has a team in it.. they'll be like checking out how their country did in the medal tally but I'm checking out athletes from other countries than my very own.. well.. at least for me, none of them fascinate me so I rather be going wooo & ahhh over someone else.. haa.. its great that s'pore finally getting into the finals after 48 years but its the sport which I dont have an interest in..

Have been sneezing away for the past few days & splitting headache.. but I still have to attend night class.. decided to give myself a break tml.. yeah!! sld I go for a morning jog tml morning (with my tissue??)??

Inflation has been hitting hard on s'pore with price hike for everything you can think of.. seen the doct & its a $4 increase in consultation.. if not for avoiding passing the virus to the rest, I would let it sneeze on.. anyway, I've zo-bo-ing now.. guess I wud study at home tml..

its been quite some time since I last updated my blog.. sneezing non-stop now upon reaching home but yet can't get to sleep so here I am, trying to recollect what happen for the past few weeks..

Many things did happen...

9th Jul was the day which I had the most smiles.. prob the happiest day of my life to date.. mum & dad was there to see me in my gown & motarboard on.. Days before my commencement, I was complaining to mum why didnt she want to buy me flowers.. During the actual day, out of sudden, mum told me she thought flowers was all just part of shows shown on tv & she never expect people really doing it.. we has fun helping each other with the gown & lots of phototakings.. when I was out from the dressing room, mum surprise me with a "lion" (the lion that symbolised our sch & s'pore)..


thats my lion!!

we had more photoshoots after the ceremony in sch & esplandae..







was bz with work when I get back... had my first marketing session with clients.. met with many different people but sadly, no asians.. tried my best to mingle around.. had dinner with my colleagues thereafter at Boton Jap rest.. the meal was really nice & it was pretty fun & had our share of laughter..

21st was dad's op.. expected him to be only staying for 3 days but he ended up there for a week.. got a fever on the 3rd day which wouldnt subside so poor dad has to bear with it & stay put.. its sad to see the pain he's experiencing.. it might not be a dangerous op to others but for his case, it is.. the doct had wanted to call all of us there "just in case" but dad said not to call me as work is more impt.. haiz.. got a scare when mum told me abt it.. but all are fine now with him recuperatin at home & a naggy daughter saying not to eat this & that.. its a pretty scary place, seeing people with tubes attached all over & dad even had infection bcoz of the plaster...

on the day when dad started having fever, "lao da" finally have the time to talk to me & discuss all my concerns.. main highlight of the story was that I was confirmed.. happy thing is I got an increase in pay & sad thing is I got to start studying.. thou he said I could do it at my own pace but I hope to finish it fast (provided I pass!!).. taking two subj this sem & lessons gonna start next Mon.. oh mine!! I wanna still be a student but now, prob not as much...

its a rotten wk I had.. feel rotten, demoralised & utterly beaten.. I wish I could put all down & leave.. it only sets my determination stronger to realise that little wish.. this wk, everything just seems to provoke me at the slightest, I don't show it but feeling so upset within myself.. don't understand what people are thinking at times.. I know I'm becoimg grumpy but I can't help it.. was it bcoz of the no value added wk I had or was it bcoz of the decision I made or was it just my prob.. will things ever change?? I wish things would become simpler & people would be more innocent & pure.. I'm not perfect but trying hard to perfect myself in this inperfect world.. I should pratice more? as the sayings goes??

Its 9th July, the special day marking the fulfillment of my dreams & most importantly making mummy proud of her daughter.. its my commencement in a few hours time.. I should be happy but feeling sad at the same time as I bid final farewell to the place which fills my memories with happiness, stress & sadness..

Happiness: having a group of wonderful friends whom tide through with me the difficult times of school & breaking our brain cells on the forever never solvable econs qns.. meeting them was the best thing that happen to me in school.. the days at hall is unforgettable too.. racky the good food in school.. exploring different part of the sch.. picking out our most lovable lecturers is one fun part too.. joining NVAC was fun too as I got to know fun-loving friends who shares the same passion as I have in volunteer work.. Lastly, I'm graduating!!

Stress: It got to be exams when I dug myself in books & notes, trying my best to memorise everything in my limited storage space of the brain..

Sadness: Leaving the school..

Love & definitely missing the days spent in NUS with all my friends & rushing for lectures.. & of course no one will be scolding me even if I day dream in lectures..

Blogging from office.. I just wanna cry!! when I'm about to finish, the comp hangs on me & I have to redo the whole formula sheet for 16,000 rows.. I have to wait 30 mins for the file to be opened & each time I copy over the formulas, I need to wait for at least 15 mins.. still waiting for the updates now.. hopefully its successful this time.. I don't wanna camp in office.. why am I so down on my luck??? I wanna cry!!

I tried to shun away from the comment coz I didn't know what to say nor what I really want.. used to know what I want but now I wish I didn't have to think too far ahead..

**the dates are according to US which is a day behind us**

9th June 08 (Mon), Fort Lauderdale, Sunny

Its the start of our training.. we each had a thick arch file with our notes inside.. there's about 40 over people from different states of US, Canada, London & me!! the only one from Asian country.. Its really great knowing everyone.. It wasnt as bad as I thought it would be, it turns out to be fun.. I'm eating every 2 hrs as for each break, we had some snacks for us besides our main meals.. the first night was a group dinner.. my dishes include salad, appetiser & my main was seabass & ending with tiramisu for dessert & drinks too.. its really nice but the portions are too huge for me.. ended up with my main halfway done.. learnt a lot about others & interesting to be with colleagues whom are too far for me to know about.. its a nice night!!

10th June 08 (Tues), Fort Lauderdale, Sunny with later of the day drizzling

My second day of training and I decided to go with the new friend I made to walk around the area via water taxi after the session.. initially it was only just the 3 of us & it became 7 later on.. the others are gg to the Hooters which we ain't really interested.. it was starting to drizzle & I was kinda disappointed if we cant go in the end but it subside by the time we got there.. the water taxi is fun & we saw lots of mansions along the stretch of the banks of the sea.. its so nice to be living there but you will need to super rich to afford the residential there.. (*wish I was rich*) we settle down at a cafe for dinner as we couldnt find the elbow place which was much recommended.. didnt really like my main as it was really salty but the dessert is a thumbs up!! creme brulee!! yummy!! after dinner, we went to the beach for a walk & chat along with K & her husband.. kinda sad to be leaving them & I had a great time with them..


the group of us...


Karen & me..


on the water taxi..

It's my last night at FLL & I enjoyed everyday & every single minute of it minus the part I have to sit in the conference room for training.. started on my packing when we all got back..

**kinda tired... will continue another day for the later days**

the start of my journey in the States.. a country I come to fall in love with.. simply love the life there..

7th June 08 (Sat), Singapore, Drizzling

I'm on my way to the airport with Dad & Mum sending me off.. [**tts the day of my relative "last night" & my parents will be there for the final farewell.. I feel bad that I couldnt go as I'm leaving S'pore..**] I was kinda tense up as its gonna be a long long flight & its just me alone.. I'm excited too as I'm gonna be on SQ flight to the States.. it really feels uncomfortable having to be on flight for over 20+ hrs & I had to do 3 transits, at HK, SFO & finally Chicago before I reach my final destination.. There was a thunderstorm along the way to HK & the turbulence was pretty bad but it made it!! It was heartening when I finally reach SFO after 17 hrs+ flight but there's still 2 more flights & my butt feels as thou they are splitting soon.. It's a disaster at the baggage claim area at SFO with baggages lying all around & the belt not moving at all as there were just too many baggages.. I finally found mine & off I went for my connecting flight.. yet another confusion as I didnt know which queue to go for as they were so many counters.. I finally found it & on my way to Chicago.. the flight via UA was really bad, it was delayed & when I finally got on the flight, I fell asleep as I was too tired.. guess what, when I woke up, I'm still on the grounds of SFO.. oh mine!! its 1/2 hr & I'm still circuling the airport grounds.. luckily my next connecting flight is another 3 hrs.. there were other people on the flight who had missed their next flight & had to sort other alternatives.. slept again once the flight finally took to the air..

8th June 08 (Sun), Chicago, O'Hare Airport, Sunny

I finally reach Chicago after 4 hrs flight.. I'm really super hungry by then.. bought myself a hot choco from starbucks & a biscuit chicken burger which is really gd but unfortunately S'pore doesnt have it.. there are so many choices on the bf menu unlike S'pore with only just a few.. I must say the burger is cheaper too..


me.. at Chicago Airport waiting for....


the final flight to Fort Lauderdale!!!

I just can't wait to get to the hotel & have a good bath..

8th June 08 (Sun), Fort Lauderdale, Florida, Sunny

I finally touched down at my destination after 20+ hrs of flight!! feeling so tired by the time I reached.. was kinda lost at the airport as I was wondering if I need another stamp to indicate I arrive at FLL.. was directed to T1 from T4 but ended up I didnt need anything at all after talking to one of the pilot which I caught hold of.. along the way, met a family who are really nice & her 2 daughters are really cute!! feeling thrilled stepping on the grounds of US & I love it to bits.. got on the shuttle transport & off to my hotel, Renaissance Fort Lauderdale Hotel..



I had 2 queen size bed in my room so treated 1 as my sofa & another for my bed.. its a huge room overlooking the swimming pool & the scenery from the front of the hotel.. Initially I thought I would find it scary to be sleeping alone in a huge room but my tiredness overtook fear.. decided to walk around the area to see if I can find any shopping area but nothing much & sat down to have ice cream!! wholesome delicious!!


the pie who loves me..

the weather is too hot so decided to head back.. went to the internet room to check my office mail & that's where I made my first friend.. her husband tagged along too for the trip.. they are really nice couple & we had a lot to talk about.. she was commenting others might have thought we knew each other for a long time but actually we just met for 1 day.. kinda missed them now.. it was a nice start for my first day.. its the start of training tml!!

I'm back & am extremely tired.. I must say I love the States.. love everything & everyday of it.. met great people & weird ones as well.. wish I'm still there..

leaving in another few more hours.. hope the training will turn out fine.. engaging myself in the midst of unknown road.. I'll brave thru this trip taken alone..

feeling real tired now.. met up with ex-iras colleagues y'day for dinner, say bye to 3 & the rest of us settle down at double O for drinks.. must say, they close rather early, the lights were switch on at 3am.. tts pretty early for a club.. anyway, was kinda k/o.. we finished 1.5 bottle of Hennessy with ginger ale.. it taste pretty good initially, not until we drink so much, everyone started talking nonsense.. haa.. long live the gals as the guys ended up vomitting.. the last time I was k/o was long way back when I hug my home dustbin.. had fun on my last night in s'pore before I depart for the States..

tata to my friends.. cya all when I'm back...

there are times when I can't really remz the faces of people related to me through the family tree.. there are times when we rarely see each other, prob only during festive season or when something happen.. I wish I could remz some vivid memories but its a blank image.. another relative just passed away in my grown up years, people whom I saw when I was young but not much when I grow up & their faces are now a blurred vision.. it does feel sad to know that someone dear is leaving even when I'm not close to them.. but she's freed from aches & pain from now on, no longer having tubes here & there on the body..

Its been quite some time since I last blog so kinda forgot what has happened over the week so updating the latest I can remz.. Its fun time last week...

The fear which I had initially didnt turn out that bad after all.. went on a short getaway to sunway lagoon with my colleagues last weekend.. kinda uncomfortable as I barely knew them well & further more, I'm going with their other halfs & friends too.. was so tense out & stress, I wish I could backout.. During the trip, NK was saying he was thinking I might not wanna go as I may feel unconfortable & he was right on target.. I shrugged it off to keep all feelings to myself.. anyway, whats most impt is I enjoyed myself & I knew more friends now & also it brought my relationship with my colleagues closer too..

We stayed at sunway lagoon resort & spa.. the hotel is really a beauty.. the room I shared with my colleague has 2 flat screen tvs, 1 in front of the sofa & another in front of our bed, a mini bar & a working desk.. cool right? everything is so nice, I can pratically slack in my room & just laze around.. we had a drink at a pub opposite our hotel on our first night.. & the next day is water theme park & amusement park.. love the water slides & I sat on the roller coaster too (thou I wanna creep away but N pulled me in.. but its alright after all..).. the long bridge was really nice too & I had the sky rider which is really cool.. I love the mat water slides & sky rider most.. & of course the food we had.. we ended our 2nd day with a drink before settling down at a Hakka rest.. the food is nice!! dessert for the night is Hagen Das ice-cream!! I love ice-cream, I can finish a tub myself..

the next day, we went to the scream park.. I was really terrified & I was holding on to KT the whole time.. all I remz was screaming all the way.. hated the last theme, "prison break" as the people are stained with blood.. I know they are fake but the way they try to scare me is really freaking me out.. I hid behind KT the whole time, peering over her shoulders at times.. she could feel me trembling.. but all were compensated with a nice lunch.. yummy!! we were all kinda sad that we didnt have time for shopping.. they are all so enthu, thinking where to go for the next trip.. but gonna wait till AI comes back from her holi..

Over the week, some funny stuffs happen at office & I finally get to go on an "exercusion" to adjustor's place today.. thou its work there but I'm happy that KT bou me along.. the place is really nice.. & I saw companies of my dream in the same bldg.. hope these days continue & I'll be a happy gal at workplace..

My heart goes out to the disaster affected areas that recently strike in Asia.. Hoping the best for them & may there be no rain these days to worsen the situation.. 2 disasters strike within a month in two different countries.. seeing the deathtoll heightening is just so heart-wrenching..no amount of consolation can take away their agony, bring back their loved ones nor lessen the pain they suffered.. how life can be so fragil & at the mercy of natural disaster.. I have nothing against the country "M", but it jus angered me when they wish to shut themselves out from foreign experts & only allow supplies of emergency aids in & not manpower to quicken the saving of lives.. Can't help but feel so frustrated, is saving lives not a top priority?

...eh.. cant really recall what has been going on since my last post (post again when I remz smthg).. will be away from S'pore next wkend.. & also in Jun.. Lastly, commencement set to go in Jul (life as undergrad gonna be declared over soon.. sobz..)..

had a bored & happening last week... well.. bored = work so not worth mentioning.. thinking back how I survived just feel so despair.. anyway... met up with xm for dinner on thurs to gossip as well as grumble.. had hokkien mee as there's really nothing in mind I wanna have.. fri is an indulgence wk!! had crabs at "no signboard".. the gang includes me, yan, yve & yc..


the 3 babes at esplanade..


This is our pork ribs, the first dish to be served.. its served hot and not too bad.. one bad point is tt I ate upon a piece of fatty fats!! oh mine.. the portion kinda small thou...


oyster sauce with kailan.. its not really hot.. isnt really as nice as I tot.. I would tot there would be some mushrooms but there's none.. its just oyster sauce & kailan as the name suggest.. not a recommended one..

we also had fried ee mee but forgot to take a pic of it.. its filled with plenty of mushrooms which I love it all..



The highlight of the dinner is our chilli crabs with mantou!! when we asked the waiter for the size of today's crab, he was using his hand to show us the size of it, it showed it to be really small & I was pondering if its enuff for the 4 of us.. but when it comes, its huge!! but a happy gal, had what I wanted.. thumbs up!! but not as spicy as I tot.. could be improved with that extra pinch of spice & chilli..

we strolled along Singapore river, overlooking the "tu shui de shi zi" as what yve says.. haa..



sat there taking more & more pics from different angles.. its been such a long time since we had loads of photo taking session, snapping away non-stop..

decided to settle down at hagen das for chocolate foudue as our desserts to satisfy our sweet tooth..




Not a nice dessert we had, the choco is not hot and pretty diluted.. not worth for the price & its ex.. would hope a bitter choco rather than milk choco.. & some photos we took there..






we went our seperate ways after tt & I went ahead to meet wj while waiting for xm to k/o for our movie session.. settled down at starbucks as there was no midnight shopping for tt wk.. watched the hottie & the nottie.. didnt really like it as I didnt like paris hilton..



THE HOTTIE AND THE NOTTIE is a comedy about opening your heart and closing your eyes. It centers on a "perfect 10" woman, CRISTABEL ABBOTT (Paris Hilton); her less fortunate best friend, JUNE PHIGG (Christine Lakin); and the guy who gets in the middle. Having pined away for Cristabel since the first grade, twentysomething NATE COOPER (Joel David Moore) must find a boyfriend for the less-than-beautiful June before he will even have a shot at landing the girl of his dreams.

typical ending I would say plus I must admit I had difficulties trying my best to stay awake.. had a really long day & the movie is at 2am.. after our movie, accompanied xm for her supper at hk cafe which opens 24hrs on wkends..cool yay!! another place to hang out if we have to pass time or hungry in the middle of the night.. but its super freaking cold there... slept at 5am in the end & my mum just woke up.. haa.. had to wake up early on sat to sign up for the shape run 08.. will be joining the 5km for a start.. sun is chilling out session with xm..

tts abt my wk.. thou lots of activities but happy..

work life still sucks as ever... will a change changed everything? 有些事现在不做，一辈子都不会做了。。I must walk forward & not staying at the same point hoping for a unpredictable miracle!! its easier said than done but I'll try my best...

met yan & ws for dinner on wed.. was late as I had to rush out my schedules which is a pain in the butt trying to format everything out.. anyway, did it & accomplished.. thurs was the worst day I could ever encounter but wish there's not much of that kind of days.. fri night was spent with yan, jas & yve for dinner.. while waiting for yve, we ate ben & jerry.. ice-cream!! my favourite indulgence.. heez.. I'm a happy gal with ice-cream around & shopping.. dinner was at kfc & ended with a chill out at rouge (I think tts the name, if not, its call acid bar.. dont really know the name)... had a signature drink each tt we picked for ourselves & a jug to share.. guess we overestimate ourselves, had a hard time finishing it.. but nonetheless.. its really nice to chill out & to catch up on each other's life.. sat was spent with xm & sh at east coast.. sat on the grass, chit-chatting & looking at the pple ard us.. wish I remz my trackshoes, wanted to run so much... but had my run this morning!! its nice to sweat it all out.. will be gg to my cousin's house later to celebrate Aidan's b'day.. he's really happy to be celebrating his 5th b'day.. always been telling my mum, I'm really a blessed child with my cousins & third auntie who dote on me & so close to me.. they are my advisors & always there for me when I needed help..

Been in a pretty bad shape, at the verge of breakdown.. probably sometimes, emotion takes over my mental.. told myself upteen times, "its okie!! dont feel sad..".. been successful the first few attempts but somehow I failed miserably later on.. anyway, its time for a change.. numb all emotions, remain whats left of me.. changing to fit in is no different from putting up a false front.. anyway, let bygones be bygones..

met up with bao for a breather.. too bad, nancy couldnt join us.. evil me suddenly tot of taking pics to show her all the deli food but I only took the desert.. heez!! we ate at tapas tree by the riverside.. the resturant is nice & the service is really good.. the price kind of steep as we paid $40+ each for the whole meal.. its an authentic Spanish cuisine & the seafood is really fresh.. we had the a rice dish, Paella Valenciana with toppings of prawns, egg, clamari, peas & fish with tomatoes sauce.. It would be better to have 3 person to share it as its quite a big portion.. the down side probably is it gets salty when you get to the end.. the dish would take 30-40 mins to preapre so before the meal, I had long island while bao have sex on the beach.. would prefer the long island I had at zouk which is much stronger but of course, I cant compare, zouk a club while this a resturant.. the parting bite is banana chocolate wrap with ice-cream!! yummy!! bao love it to bits but I prefer my alcholic drink as I need smthg to drown it all.. overall, its recommended for chill-out with good service & nice ambience..

sat was spent with xm at coffee bean, our weekly chillout & bitching session.. we ate the all day breakfast & also checking out if there's any great deals for travelling.. really wanna go for a trip!! we ate at cuppage for dinner, a nice place for food.. its more like a coffeeshop but nice food is all it matters to me.. heez!!
went jogging these few days, usually in the evening.. woke up early today (sun) to run.. shiok!! & its the first time I see so many pple at the stadium..

its gonna be the start of another week.. hope everything would go fine & all things end well.. need smthg gd to happen to stimulate me!!

越来越讨厌现在的自己，也越来越怨恨自己。。变得以不再是自己。。跑着，跑着。。享受其中的快感，但却因看不到终点而累了。。活在不停转动的世界，希望时间停在那个点，但永远不可能。。不能再哭下去，要面对，要开心！！我能做到吗？

(self OS for the week) the better you know of someone, probably it turns out you never knew him/her so well after all.. some you might not have learned a lot might turn out to be two of a kind.. trying hard on something might not gurantee result.. whats probably true is when you lose everything, you'll realise you still have yourself.. realising all these while, you might be nothing more than just a person with an attached title, there's no escalation of title but only accumulation of time and the maturation of this title.. whats the use of carrying these titles when we dont value the meaning of it..

brooding over the month of june & guess only xm could say out what I'm brooding over without me having to say anything.. was at the perk of my emotion that I breakdown in the middle of the night.. xm is right, I reached my limit, wished I could spat it all out but its not easy, I have to be fully prepared for it.. but I cant give up the present for what I thought I would be happy at..

well... nothing much happen except working OT & the weekly chill out session with the usual gang.. forgo our initial dim sum plan & went for steamboat at the same resturant with mwh volunteers the other time.. a pretty plain week but had to run errand for MD.. a ridiculous errand but anyway shall not indulge too much, had my grumbles out to those who knows the inside out, wanna forget it too.. really appreciate to all who help me out with it, was really at my wits end & I really do feel like crying it out at that moment of time.. motivation & stimulas for everyday is to hang out & chill.. hope things will pick up soon & wish I can be the person M said or the high-flyer guy..

Saw this links in QQ's blog.. find the tarot cards reading depict my current feelings.. just a coincidence or for real, it doesnt hurt to give it a try.. its pretty accurate in predicting my situations.. for the horoscope & blood type reading, its more of analysing a person's character which pretty much describes me except the part of love life & money & as for my career, not in any field which they recommend.. prob its time to change??

Tarot cards reading:
http://www.iqoo.com/tlp.html

Horoscope and blood type reading:
http://www.iqoo.com/xuexing.html

my blog becoming my venting mechanism these days.. nothing much to update abt life except the feelings within me...

I'm definitely the best candidate & no other better candidate to be crowned as Little Miss Grumpy.. grumble everyday, sign everyday, depress everyday.. what else am I good at?? I'm sorry to everyone whom my msg had been harsh in one way or another & esp xm who wakes up to see a 'grumble' almost everyday (self OS: when will the day come when all these stop??).. I never meant it.. ever since my mood falls to the pit, it has never escalated a single tiny bit.. my hormones must be seriously defecting, at a dangerous, worth careful attention imbalance level.. I might breakdown one day.. everything just pisses me off, nothing seems to satisfy me & wonder what is happening to me.. & the victims are my poor wallet (shopping makes me happy!!), xm's hp bill & my emotional well-being.. prob I'm being too hard on myself.. every wrong I've commited, I blamed it on my incapability.. every others that go wrong, I blame it on my lack of effort.. I'm shouldering all the blames as I couldnt find another best person for it.. I'm really trying hard.. I really am... how much more do I have to do??

its finally Fri tml.. TGIF soon!! I need a good sleep.. throw aside all worries & enjoy my 2 days...

well... its gonna be yet another grumbling post.. been in a pretty bad mood these days, wondering if imbalance of hormones is the culprit.. I'm becoming a old granny with lots of grumbles.. hasnt had a good wk.. besides feeling frustrated over work, many other events just pissed me off.. what is happening over me? is that the sympton of aging?

had a small chat with M on Mon, was reluctant to tell him what I feel so far when he asked but finally pluck up the courage to say what I have been bottling up.. there wasnt a sign of relief but juz releasing what I have been stuffing inside me.. also, wasnt expecting much changes even if I said it out.. bao asked if I'm touched with the sincerity, I have no ans neither do I have any feelings.. am I getting numb with all these?? another small chat on fri was on when will I be starting my studies? when? prov I passed the probation & iff still here.. anyway, enuff of work...

met a psyco uncle on bus 147 (I'm pissed off so call him uncle), dont know how old but I really wanna scold "what the f**k!!".. to start off, I was only wearing my office wear.. this uncle suddenly came from behind & sat beside me.. I was concentrating on my book with my mp3 on.. he started to strike a conversation by asking the time.. then ask if I juz finish work.. as a courtesy, told him the time then nod to indicate, yah.. I just k/o.. he then put out his hand, wanna intro himself, I wave it off.. failing tt handshake, he started to prob further, what I working as, am I married & prob some others which I didnt hear as my mp3 is on.. what the h**l!! I made my way down to the lower deck of the bus.. luckily he didnt follow.. so damn down with luck.. stinko psyco uncle!! I wasnt wearing anything revealing.. if ever anyone met up with this situation, shift off yay... dont ever wanna see tt stupid psyco again.. still remz once when I was on my way to bloomberg to pass the client some stuffs, this guy with tie suddenly came up & say I look familiar.. no way do I know him.. I RAN off!! I'm really provoked on tt day.. next incident on bus 147 again, this auntie sat beside me.. well, she didnt try to intro herself but she yawn so loudly non-stop!! I know she must be deadbeat but feeling so paiseh.. decided to take train in future after these incidents..

met up with xm on fri for chill out.. funny incidents happen when we ate the jap ice-cream & kept persuading for our dearest wj to get her butt out of office.. finally she's out at 7pm (btw.. she started work at 7am).. we ate at vivo, central.. not bad but I guess wj's portion taste nicer.. heez.. made our way home after a qucik shopping at daiso..

had mwh session on sat, brought the residents to buy things which they like with the money they have for ang pow.. after the session, had dinner at i-creation.. the food is nice & the portion is just nice for me thou its pretty small for xm & j.. shared a soup, my main course is thai cream spag plus lemon tea & shared a brownie ice-cream at only $13.80.. pretty cheap & nice.. decided on watching vantage point as we really didnt know what to do..



Thomas Barnes (Dennis Quaid) and Kent Taylor (Mathew Fox) are two Secret Service agents assigned to protect President Ashton (William Hurt) at a landmark summit on the global war on terror. When President Ashton is shot moments after his arrival in Spain, chaos ensues and disparate lives collide in the hunt for the assassin. In the crowd is Howard Lewis (Forest Whitaker), an American tourist who thinks hes captured the shooter on his camcorder while videotaping the event for his kids back home. Also there, relaying the historic event to millions of TV viewers across the globe, is American TV news producer Rex Brooks (Sigourney Weaver). As they and others reveal their stories, the pieces of the puzzle will fall into place and it will become apparent that shocking motivations lurk just beneath the surface.
(extracted from http://www.gv.com.sg/moviedetails/gv_moviedetails_7577.jsp)

personal review for the movie.. the first few scenes really got me excited & nervous but was lauging my way thru after tt.. a supposed thriller but I ended up laughing thru out.. there are 8 strangers in this show with different point of views & different vantage points as well.. the show revoles ard in a rewind mode starting off with the president, then rewind to 11.59am, then next came another person... these go on for 6 times!! imagine hearing the mayor speech for 6 times & the president dead for 6 times!! when it kept turning back in time again & again, the whole theatre started laughing.. had a really hearty laugh.. we really sld keep to our initial decision on 10,000 bc.. not really as nice as I tot it wud be.. at the end of it, bad guys die, good guys alive which is a typical ending..

sun is chill out day with xm.. went temple before finding our destination for lunch.. wanted to try victor's kitchen but was made confused by the staffs.. everyone is queueing anyhow.. I dont even know where is the start of the queue.. the staffs are not helpful either.. decided to change another place after tt.. ate at a parklane wanton noodle stall.. pretty nice, had our fill thou pretty disappointed not able to try out the much applauded dim sum at victor's kitchen.. but we'll be going next wk with the others!! yeah!! as usual, we always end up finding a place to sit, had tea at coffee bean before heading home..

saw a really funny video, titled
"Talking Cock in Parliament - Hossan Leong" http://youtube.com/watch?v=myqyKZsknmw..
its a really funny video.. check it out if you are free..

Mon blues coming!! or the sunday post-symptons as xm says?? coz I kept signing.. haiz!!!

pissed!! pissed!! pissed!! pissed off with whatever has happened.. what is it like to be excluded?? I know how it feels, not once but four times.. gd news or bad news when you asked, what do you want me to reply?? what else can I say?? I wonder how long can I endure.. I'm really trying, fitting myself to whatever the size of the space but I'm always out of place.. what sld I do then to make it right?? or all done is just a fruitless case??

A tiring wk.. been OT-ing for the whole wk which I tot I wud nv have to.. been experiencing stagnant situations leading to my despair since I started.. but now I finally got loads of work to do!! as I told my 38, I'm feeling so happy when I'm loaded with tons of work to do.. I wonder sometimes why do I like making life hard for myself but I simply love having tons & endless stuffs to do & I hate life with nothing to do.. at least, I feel I'm learning, attempting to do smthg & having some accomplishments.. others might not understand my absurb tots but I'm destined to slog my life to satisfy myself.. haa.. my cousins said the same thing too.. I'm having a gd environment now but I wanna put myself in a complicated situation.. am I crazy?? or as what eunice says, I'm too ambitious, wanting to achieve smthg & too eager to learn?? prob I prefer dynamic stuffs, fast & swift.. haiz.. give me 6 mths to test it out before coming to a decision..

celebrated jas b'day on wed, a belated one but hope she had fun tt night.. I'm sorry to be late, wanted to leave early but caught up with last min work.. thou I had to work late but I learn smthg new abt my colleagues everyday.. had tele conf with client too on fri.. my first ever conversation with client & I had to converse in chinese thru out the whole conf which I have to later translate to eng to my M.. oh mine, it taken a toll on me with my chinese not used for a super long time.. nonetheless, its a great experience..

my wkend was spent with xm.. guess its a weekly routine to meet her every wk.. we not les yay.. juz relaxing ourselves before the dreadful wk of work start again.. but juz tt, we usually ended up thinking where to settle out butt.. we are plain lazy to walk but juz wanna sit & chill.. are we getting old?? we prefer to purchase out stuffs with a click rather than physically searching ard..

gonna go zzzZZzz le.. its mon blues again.. haiz haiz.. wishing a fruitful & happy wk ahead.. may god bless me with intelligence & ren yuan yay...

Weekend ending yet again.. wishing time would stop here.. haa.. who looks forward to work?? went for a walk with xm on sat afternoon.. kind of bored at home & she's feeling low too.. some fresh air would perk us up!! tried a new dining place at raffles city shopping, Shokudo Japanese Food Bazaar.. its like marche, just tt its jap style.. we ate meat dumplings, ramen & mushroom & cheese ommelete.. to end it up, we had macha ice with ice-cream.. the dessert is a thumbs up.. we enjoyed the huge portion of red beans & the green tea flavour is nice.. enjoyed tt the most.. kind of ex for the whole dinner but the dessert is worth it!!

later in the night, we met up with wj & j for 'Death Note Spin Off - L Change The World..



L is the greatest crime-fighting genius the world has ever known. He proved without a doubt, that fellow genius Yagami Light is KIRA, but at a terrible price. Now with only 23 days to live, and without his trusty partner Watari, L must solve the new case before he runs out of time.
(quoted from gv.com)

Its a nice one & L is def cool in this movie with his little actions which added a touch of laughter.. loved the little boy.. even thou he had no lines but his acting is natural & his facial expression shows it all which depicts his words.. was wondering if the world is coming to an end soon?? seem to be seeing movies which portrays the elimination of human mankind, like the earlier one, 'I am Legend' which I watched.. humans becoming mutants & start disappearing.. now in this movie humans are killed by this virus spreading ard.. knew the focus of the story is not tt but somehow just set me thinking.. prob I'm thinking too much.. But.. the movie is really nice & touching at the back.. had little tears forming but sucked it back coz xm is just right beside me..

been pretty bz for the first part of the week but had a depressing time at the latter.. been thinking lately what wud have it been like if things didnt turn out tt way, what wud me have been like? sorting out my tots, wondering if I have come to terms with reality.. I really tried vry hard, changing myself to fit all circumstances.. do I count it a blessing when I get to know I escape the worst?

dad had his op this wk, another one coming up in early Mar.. seeing dad lying on the hosp bed reveals his frail side.. wish I could take his place instead but glad tt he's recovering & preparing for the next one to come.. was tense up the whole day.. I must say pple keep to the arrival time as stated but the op only started 5 hrs later.. Oh man!! its a torture for the patient as well as for the family members.. not tt there's a need to do any test but its just sit there & wait.. dad couldnt consume food since morning & being hungry is a torture.. haiz... anyway, hope the next one will be better..

met one of the partners & gosh I look so small build in front of him!! I'm the shortest & smallest there with my little brain & sleepy mood.. its finally wkend & there's no mwh session.. looking fwd to trying the new rest tt xm recommends..

This wk pretty packed with lots of activities.. had a happy wk.. this wk is also the wk I stepped into the 1st qtr of my century of life.. it meant I'm growing old as well.. sobz.. hope I'll achieve new accomplishments in the future.. had my b'day cel with my uni kakis, colleagues & sec sch kakis... was surprise tt my colleagues celebrated for me as I just joined the firm.. thank you all..


My uni friends..


My b'day cake..


Cake from my colleagues..


My colleagues..


My colleagues..


More Pressies...

Our dinner at pasta @ waruku..









My sec sch friends..

Went for interview at XX this wk too.. might seem absurb when I have not even worked long there & I'm gg for interview again.. gaving up XXX really hurts with it being a place I ever wanna get in so I dont wanna give up anymore.. hope to open up myself to more opportunities.. the place is really nice & its really a gd firm too.. it wud have been wonderful if I can get in but still thinking over.. the results not out yet but I guess my chance are low.. I'm tongue tied at most of the qns he asked.. its the worst ever interview I ever been to, case study to discuss & asking my aspiration in 20-30 yrs time when I havent even started my career.. haiz.. still doubtful of the route ahead.. wonder what sld I do to be really happy.. may god bless me with intelligence & gd luck..

need a gd rest.. been so tired these few days... its fri tml!! yeah!!

hasnt been gd for working life.. its hard to depict what I'm feeling & the despair I'm experiencing.. prob what wj says is right, she cant understand how am I feeling right now & cant say much but decided to give myself a chance to try.. whatever the final decision is, I'll brave thru the journey.. there's no gd indication either, does tt means neither is a correct choice? whats the route ahead.. feeling so demoralised... haiz..

yesh!! gonna stepped into 1/4 of the century soon as jas said.. age catching up, lao ren le.. my b'day wish.. hmm.. for everything gd to befall!! I'm a greedy woman.. Haa.. had my b'day cel with yan, yve & jas on fri.. we had our dinner at Clarity Cafe.. the portion is pretty big & the four of us couldnt finish it.. after shopping ard, we made our way to Shanghai Jazz for chill out session.. we had smthg diff this time round.. white wine for the four of us!! the chillout place is really chilling but a nice experience nonetheless.. for the highlight of the night, our dearest devil-ish yve suggested hard liquor for me but luckily I was spared from 'graveyard'.. coz I still wanna go home without hugging a dustbin or having someone to carry me back.. haa.. the threesome decided on waterfall for me in the end.. thank you gals for everything as well as my first branded good - a coach pouch for my b'day gift..


waiting for my waterfall...


the babes (1)


the babes (2)


the babes (3)




My pressie!!

Our first befriender prog started on sat.. its a diff experience this time, more attention is given to a resident we will be attached to.. hopefully as time goes along, they will be more familiarised with us & open up to us more.. its a refreshing way of talking to them but I'm sorry to other residents who called me there but I couldnt sit down with them.. I was planted with a surprise too!! I'm really a mi hu person, believing jx tt he really had smthg to show me.. thank you all who planned my b'day cel for me.. well.. except for the candles!! one is enuff but XX are all implanted there.. but it was really a surprise..


Jon with my cake.. forgot what wish I made..


All smiles..


Mwh family..

really appreciate & thanks to all my friends.. stepped into a new chapter of life & may everything be smooth & blessed with luck... its Mon again.. Dread!! prob I sld find a job which I look fwd to gg everyday...