Saturday, July 26, 2008

its been quite some time since I last updated my blog.. sneezing non-stop now upon reaching home but yet can't get to sleep so here I am, trying to recollect what happen for the past few weeks..

Many things did happen...

9th Jul was the day which I had the most smiles.. prob the happiest day of my life to date.. mum & dad was there to see me in my gown & motarboard on.. Days before my commencement, I was complaining to mum why didnt she want to buy me flowers.. During the actual day, out of sudden, mum told me she thought flowers was all just part of shows shown on tv & she never expect people really doing it.. we has fun helping each other with the gown & lots of phototakings.. when I was out from the dressing room, mum surprise me with a "lion" (the lion that symbolised our sch & s'pore)..


thats my lion!!

we had more photoshoots after the ceremony in sch & esplandae..







was bz with work when I get back... had my first marketing session with clients.. met with many different people but sadly, no asians.. tried my best to mingle around.. had dinner with my colleagues thereafter at Boton Jap rest.. the meal was really nice & it was pretty fun & had our share of laughter..

21st was dad's op.. expected him to be only staying for 3 days but he ended up there for a week.. got a fever on the 3rd day which wouldnt subside so poor dad has to bear with it & stay put.. its sad to see the pain he's experiencing.. it might not be a dangerous op to others but for his case, it is.. the doct had wanted to call all of us there "just in case" but dad said not to call me as work is more impt.. haiz.. got a scare when mum told me abt it.. but all are fine now with him recuperatin at home & a naggy daughter saying not to eat this & that.. its a pretty scary place, seeing people with tubes attached all over & dad even had infection bcoz of the plaster...

on the day when dad started having fever, "lao da" finally have the time to talk to me & discuss all my concerns.. main highlight of the story was that I was confirmed.. happy thing is I got an increase in pay & sad thing is I got to start studying.. thou he said I could do it at my own pace but I hope to finish it fast (provided I pass!!).. taking two subj this sem & lessons gonna start next Mon.. oh mine!! I wanna still be a student but now, prob not as much...

its a rotten wk I had.. feel rotten, demoralised & utterly beaten.. I wish I could put all down & leave.. it only sets my determination stronger to realise that little wish.. this wk, everything just seems to provoke me at the slightest, I don't show it but feeling so upset within myself.. don't understand what people are thinking at times.. I know I'm becoimg grumpy but I can't help it.. was it bcoz of the no value added wk I had or was it bcoz of the decision I made or was it just my prob.. will things ever change?? I wish things would become simpler & people would be more innocent & pure.. I'm not perfect but trying hard to perfect myself in this inperfect world.. I should pratice more? as the sayings goes??

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Its 9th July, the special day marking the fulfillment of my dreams & most importantly making mummy proud of her daughter.. its my commencement in a few hours time.. I should be happy but feeling sad at the same time as I bid final farewell to the place which fills my memories with happiness, stress & sadness..

Happiness: having a group of wonderful friends whom tide through with me the difficult times of school & breaking our brain cells on the forever never solvable econs qns.. meeting them was the best thing that happen to me in school.. the days at hall is unforgettable too.. racky the good food in school.. exploring different part of the sch.. picking out our most lovable lecturers is one fun part too.. joining NVAC was fun too as I got to know fun-loving friends who shares the same passion as I have in volunteer work.. Lastly, I'm graduating!!

Stress: It got to be exams when I dug myself in books & notes, trying my best to memorise everything in my limited storage space of the brain..

Sadness: Leaving the school..

Love & definitely missing the days spent in NUS with all my friends & rushing for lectures.. & of course no one will be scolding me even if I day dream in lectures..