To ignore this entry.. haiz... wondering what I'm typing about but just going through some thoughts.. emotional upbeat?? still in one piece but tiredness hit...
Life chapters is written as we walked through it.. but at some point of time, it seems to converge to be the same no matter whoever unfolds it.. resention or resigned to the fact? tried all means to come to terms.. a failed means-tested setup I guess.. wished it would have been different in some way but everything seems to go against it.. The possession of little of each of the 5 seems so far-fetched.. wonder if imbalance level of the others would actually compensate for the lack of the others??
On one of the morning, couldnt forced myself to sleep on the bus, I peeped at the huge headings in front of me.. Its true its the worst but yet the best... if everything had been simple, that would have been a motivator factor at least to me.. if only letting it go is that simple..
Finally collected my graduation studio photo.. somehow, sets me missing the good ole days.. when I'm in it, I always thought its an agony as I never expect anything less than putting in all my best.. probably thats why its only when the time to leave, I realise I missed out the little parts of it which would be appreciated more if I do slow down.. life now seems to be a race everyday, starting from the time my eyes open.. I raced to work (coz I snooze too much!!), race to complete work, race to avoid too much OTs... I'm so used to walking fast that my steps are fast even when I'm not in a rush.. its time to slow down before I lose to see the things around me, sense the changing world.. No one stops to wait for anyone, probably I should slow down to walk with all the "ones"..
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Sunday, March 08, 2009
Nothing interesting worth mentioning yet again.. same old me in the same old routine..
Feeling the return of the bleak period, the return to the same familiar spot.. I did made a step forward to have a shot but a fruitless attempt? It seems like a routine everyday with still the same 感触 as before.. It made me break down but I hang on.. how much longer I wonder?? Something is holding me back but yet pulling me away at the same time.. It's hard to decipher how the route should be walked.. I might have been experiencing high catecholamines level all along?? there's just too many incidents that left me despair.. once, xm asked if I'm disappointed.. deep inside I really was but I put up a strong front..
Had to work on weekend this week but happy to be finally done with it.. Wasnt feeling great actually, splitting headache right from the morning but had to wait for N to send me the file so that I can start working on it.. Its tough having him there & me here as I have to specifically point out whatever I'm saying over the phone or email.. Haiz.. Mum was saying probably I sld go over there but thats nv gg to happen.. I doubt that day will ever come even thou I would agree right away if the question was popped.. Was kinda resentful as I had to skip class just to wait for his mail & the agreed time in the morning became late afternoon.. My gut feeling already told me it wont be morning when he said so but I thought prob there's always an exception.. When you work with someone for sometime, u kinda know what is what.. Haiz..
& so I spent my Sat noon with the usual gang at TopOne.. Initial plan was to watch Marley but guess I'll have to find it online.. the session ended me with a sore throat.. sobz.. sat down later for usual coffee (but for me is tea as I cant take coffee) session.. There's always crazy jokes with them around but we do have serious time too.. at least it brought me away from unhappy things with them around.. couldnt join them for run this morning as I have to work.. went for a jog myself but didnt complete my target & ended up nearly fainted but I cooled down just in time.. It serves me right, worked till 2am last night & woke up super early plus feeling so unwell.. if not for the extra pounds gained over CNY which I had no luck at shedding it off, I would def tuck myself in bed longer..
Boring week right?? anyway.. Mon blues is approaching.. & tues, everyone is out for overseas client meetings but most will only be coming back next week.. I'm left to fend for myself.. & I got a new title, "despatch person" aka "ka kia"..
Feeling the return of the bleak period, the return to the same familiar spot.. I did made a step forward to have a shot but a fruitless attempt? It seems like a routine everyday with still the same 感触 as before.. It made me break down but I hang on.. how much longer I wonder?? Something is holding me back but yet pulling me away at the same time.. It's hard to decipher how the route should be walked.. I might have been experiencing high catecholamines level all along?? there's just too many incidents that left me despair.. once, xm asked if I'm disappointed.. deep inside I really was but I put up a strong front..
Had to work on weekend this week but happy to be finally done with it.. Wasnt feeling great actually, splitting headache right from the morning but had to wait for N to send me the file so that I can start working on it.. Its tough having him there & me here as I have to specifically point out whatever I'm saying over the phone or email.. Haiz.. Mum was saying probably I sld go over there but thats nv gg to happen.. I doubt that day will ever come even thou I would agree right away if the question was popped.. Was kinda resentful as I had to skip class just to wait for his mail & the agreed time in the morning became late afternoon.. My gut feeling already told me it wont be morning when he said so but I thought prob there's always an exception.. When you work with someone for sometime, u kinda know what is what.. Haiz..
& so I spent my Sat noon with the usual gang at TopOne.. Initial plan was to watch Marley but guess I'll have to find it online.. the session ended me with a sore throat.. sobz.. sat down later for usual coffee (but for me is tea as I cant take coffee) session.. There's always crazy jokes with them around but we do have serious time too.. at least it brought me away from unhappy things with them around.. couldnt join them for run this morning as I have to work.. went for a jog myself but didnt complete my target & ended up nearly fainted but I cooled down just in time.. It serves me right, worked till 2am last night & woke up super early plus feeling so unwell.. if not for the extra pounds gained over CNY which I had no luck at shedding it off, I would def tuck myself in bed longer..
Boring week right?? anyway.. Mon blues is approaching.. & tues, everyone is out for overseas client meetings but most will only be coming back next week.. I'm left to fend for myself.. & I got a new title, "despatch person" aka "ka kia"..
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Nothing special worth mentioning for this week.. a routine and dull life of work and study.. met up with E & V for dinner.. a nice catch up we had.. had movie session with my friends y'day so here goes the movie review..
Slumdog Millionaire
"Slumdog Millionaire" is the story of Jamal Malik, an 18 year-old orphan from the slums of Mumbai, who is about to experience the biggest day of his life. With the whole nation watching, he is just one question away from winning a staggering 20 million rupees on India's "Who Wants to be a Millionaire?"
But when the show breaks for the night, police arrest him on suspicion of cheating; how could a street kid know so much? Desperate to prove his innocence, Jamal tells the story of his life in the slum where he and his brother grew up, of their adventures together on the road, of vicious encounters with local gangs, and of Latika, the girl he loved and lost. Each chapter of his story reveals the key to the answer to one of the game show's questions.
Intrigued by Jamal's story, the jaded Police Inspector begins to wonder what a young man with no apparent desire for riches is really doing on this game show?
When the new day dawns and Jamal returns to answer the final question, the Inspector and sixty million viewers are about to find out... (extracted from gv)
Was appealed to the show with it winning 8 Oscars awards.. was wondering whats the winning point of it.. It's my first at watching a show with Indians as the cast of the movie.. Its saddening to see the rural & poor life of the less fortunate.. Born in city, the experience of living in a slums is something far from me.. It did reminds me of the life I experience when I was in Cambodia, how the kids had to beg to survive.. Never can I imagine a life of that.. Humans are never contented but for them, having a piece of bread is a treat to them.. It always reminds me of the scene in Cambodia.. We were having our lunch and the rice was just too much so we had the drumstick and threw away the packet of rice.. the villagers start digging through the stuffs we threw away.. If I had known this, I would just give them the whole packet with the drumstick.. This is a simple movie depicting the life of the poor but I wouldnt say its so good to the extent of winning so many Oscars adwards..
Slumdog Millionaire
"Slumdog Millionaire" is the story of Jamal Malik, an 18 year-old orphan from the slums of Mumbai, who is about to experience the biggest day of his life. With the whole nation watching, he is just one question away from winning a staggering 20 million rupees on India's "Who Wants to be a Millionaire?"
But when the show breaks for the night, police arrest him on suspicion of cheating; how could a street kid know so much? Desperate to prove his innocence, Jamal tells the story of his life in the slum where he and his brother grew up, of their adventures together on the road, of vicious encounters with local gangs, and of Latika, the girl he loved and lost. Each chapter of his story reveals the key to the answer to one of the game show's questions.
Intrigued by Jamal's story, the jaded Police Inspector begins to wonder what a young man with no apparent desire for riches is really doing on this game show?
When the new day dawns and Jamal returns to answer the final question, the Inspector and sixty million viewers are about to find out... (extracted from gv)
Was appealed to the show with it winning 8 Oscars awards.. was wondering whats the winning point of it.. It's my first at watching a show with Indians as the cast of the movie.. Its saddening to see the rural & poor life of the less fortunate.. Born in city, the experience of living in a slums is something far from me.. It did reminds me of the life I experience when I was in Cambodia, how the kids had to beg to survive.. Never can I imagine a life of that.. Humans are never contented but for them, having a piece of bread is a treat to them.. It always reminds me of the scene in Cambodia.. We were having our lunch and the rice was just too much so we had the drumstick and threw away the packet of rice.. the villagers start digging through the stuffs we threw away.. If I had known this, I would just give them the whole packet with the drumstick.. This is a simple movie depicting the life of the poor but I wouldnt say its so good to the extent of winning so many Oscars adwards..
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