Tired...

Its been quite some time since I last jot down anything.. had a tiring week rushing through tutorials and readings.. life pretty packed with all the stuffs that sometimes I can hardly breath, there are just tons of things to be done but my brain just dont seem to work well this semester.. I guess after 3 mths of holi, past hard work seem to be washed away.. Its time to buck up, mid term test will be here again.. The break is finally here!! but the break will involve rushing my proposal out.. a lot of things have happen for the past few days, one of them being my sad news for my SEP but I'll try anyway. If I dont give it a try, there is not even a hope. I just have to pray hard micracles will happen.. May things all turn well..

Just cleared all my readings, now I have to think hard what I would like to do for my GEK.. I need more inspirations which seem to be lacking right now.. Please give me some enlightenment as to where I sld head.. Feeling sick, having a sore throat and headache at this moment of time makes me only think of sleep.. Haiz.. Heading to bed now.. Hopefully, I'll get some great ideas in my dream.. Sweet dream to myself!!

Wkend is ending soon...

Sunday is here again which means its sch time again tml.. Haiz.. time flies, another week is gone. I'm granted my wish to go for the exchange!! but the accommodation fees are real high man.. wonder if I can survive with $6k for 4 months. I really have to spend my money wisely, must not spend on unnecessary things. didn't expect mum to agree to it. Maybe if I choose China, things will be relatively cheaper but mum didnt want me to go to a 'chinese' educated country. Wondering if I should go now as I'm worried of the high expenses, it might cost more than I estimated. If I really go, I would have to forgo my hostel of 2 semesters and leaving a place I'm most familiar with. But on the other end, its my all time wish to go to a foreign country to study. I couldn't fulfil my wish to study overseas but now I can go for exchange to fulfil that hope. What should I do? Genie, will you help me again?

A wk is flying past soon..

Time flies.. Its Thursday and weekend will be here again which means mid term is approaching soon too. I guess my wkend will be the same as any other wkend. Need to finish all my readings and tutorials. Will be gg for yoga later, its the only things that keeps me motivated to wait till Thurs. Its high time to find a CCA but i'm just plain lazy.. Most prob will be joining nvac so that my sch life will be much more interesting, @ least I get to meet new friends and maybe my social circle will expand rather than only a pathetic no. of friends I have.

On Wed, went to walk around the OSEP booth and it brought back the feeling of when I first wanted to study overseas. Hopefully I'll be able to go for an exchange, anywhere is fine as long as I get to get out of S'pore. But as always, money is a prob. serve me right for not being a good saver, shopping got the better of me. Dont have much savings, @ most can only last me 1 or 2 mths there but i'll need to stay @ least 4-5 mths. I dare not bring up the topic coz I'm afraid I'll be disappointed just like the last time I asked. The ans is a firm "no" coz we dont have such money to go. Where & how to earn $6k in 4 mths time? The amount is equalavently to my 1 yr sch fees here.. Haiz.. I hope to leave here, to another place. Feeling so stagnant here, a very boring life, nothing happening happen so far. Hope to have a change of environment, prob will bring about a different view.

Hiaz.. have to stop here.. have to do my readings so that hopefully I can go for a walk on sun.. Hmm.. seem to use a lot of "hopefully" here.. so hopefully a genie will appear to grant me all my wish!!! Genie!! Where are u??

A boring day..

Nothing happening today.. missed another LO class, guess wont be gg for any more LO in future as well.. work load getting heavier so need to really bury myself under the books.. rotted @ home most of the time even thou keep telling myself must really study but no motivation.. spending the day doing my tutorials but failed to complete even 1 qns.. will anyone save me?? have to go to school early tml to discuss the qns with my friends, hopefully, they will be able to enlighten me.. other than doing tutorials, also played online games and watching tv.. a very dull & lifeless day right? how to make it more happening?

@ times, really feel so alone & my life so dull, no 1 to chat with, now with all my friends having commitments, no more shopping spree or muching feast for me. not that tt I didnt want to find one but but but... mum not pestering me but its my friends who's giving me the stress.. should I just dash out on the street one day & ask who wants me?? Haa...

First Shout Out..

Its the first shout out using this webbie.. Quite a comp idiot, so hopefully will learn to get used to using this.. feeling so tired doing all the readings & tutorials so tot of trying something different.. to temporary 'vent' off all my frustrations..