Grumbles...

Customer service from XXXX in US sucks!! called to enquiry on my online books order as it has taken them too long to reply & with our hours difference, I hate the long wait.. was pissed off that I had to take such great length to get this order settled.. After taking 1/2 hr transferring me here & there, checking this & that, their only reply was "Your order was not being processed.. You may order from the Singapore office" I starting venting off that it has taken them a week and now I have to re-do my order again.. Damn it!! I was already down & affected by the "incident" and now its this.. well, its the weekend so I had to wait till Mon.. I never encountered problem ordering from the another publisher but thought of changing for this new term..

Managed to finally get it done from S'pore office but the stock will come from UK.. oh well.. internal sourcing process that I know nuts of (the website was US based so naturally I would have thought the books will come from there).. anyway, as long as I get my books, its fine.. well, just when I thought the ordeal was finally over, one of the book is being under consideration for reprinting.. Damn Damn Damn.. How bad could things go.. best is that I have to go without my exam kit.. when can I ever get my book???

Food for Thoughts...

I know my weighing machine has been under the stress of my weight with the days pass.. knowing that my tummy is bigger, a double chin that is getting obvious, rounder face but I simply only console myself that I'll get back in shape someday with my pathetic once a week run (sometime I simply just couldn't drag myself out of the bed).. I simply gave up on myself I guess..

with less than 2 days time, I'll be gorging my way at Bandung.. less than 5 days before I gorge at St Regis for our CNY lunch.. less than 9 days before the reunion dinner and less than a month where I'll gorge non-stop with xm... When am I ever gonna lose weight?? Sobz...

but but but.. somehow, I'm craving for ba kwas, crabs & durians now.. all the unhealthy food I could think of..

Just Can't Stop...

I told myself repeatly I must not cry anymore but tears just fall uncontrollably.. feeling really disappointed with myself.. I might have shocked my boss when I started tearing in front of him that he said its his first time seeing someone so upset with this & hopefully to see me smiling again.. I know I'm being hard on myself, having high expectations of myself so this fall really pained me.. Prob all the pressure that have been piled on me just released off & tears just gushed out..

But... after all this sobbing, weeping, crying.. it will be all just today.. I must brace on and make it work the next time.. God! Please bless me..

I mean it this time when I told you this..

Q: Are you happy today?
A: No..

Feeling lousy all day but yet I still have to put up a smile to everyone.. there's nothing to divert my attention so the whole day was bothered with what's going to happen if I don't make it.. Matter of fact.. there's nothing I can really do..

May the New Year be a good one for my family, all my dearest friends, and of course myself.. It's another year and feeling old.. :( in previous years, I would have been somewhere counting down but prefer the peace I find nua-ing at home more over-whelming as time pass..

One of my resolutions for the New Year is to be a happy person.. seems simple but yet hard to attain.. guess I'll repharse it, to be happier than last year.. learning to appreciate what I have and be contented..

Will be MIA-ing soon with the exams approaching.. DREAD!! I wish I don't have to study anymore.. the initial thought of taking up my Masters after this is long gone.. I guess I had enough of studying..

Received goodies from wq all the way from Japan.. Happy!! reminds me of the nice food when I was there.. waiting for xm's goodies from BKK which I'll get tml!! just got back from TW for my biz trip and soon will be on my way to China next week.. for all my previous trips, I always had NK with me but this time rd, he's leaving me to go by myself.. I wish the place to go alone is not China as I'm not exactly fond of gg there & the saddening part is I'm gg to a 'niao bu sheng dan de di fang' in China.. seems like I do more of airport shopping during biz trip as I didnt get much chance to shop ard.. hopefully I'll be back to all these places to really tour ard.. It's nice to travel to play but not travel to work, right?? am sure 'xiao xia mi' will agree with me..

Will be finally mtg up with my uni kakis!! Its been ages since we last met.. I had to miss the last gathering as I was informed last min to fly out on that day.. miss the days when we all get to lectures together, cracking our brains for our assignments/projs and crapping together... :) will be back to NUS soon to study for my exams as I won't then have access to my tv & bed which is my favourite possession at home.. heez.. will be having my steamboat with xm too!! yummy!! waiting for everyone's exams to end before mtg up with my poly dar-lins as well.. ages since we last had dinner together.. anyway, I'm the last to finish my exams... haiz..

I NEED A LONG VACATION!!!!!!!!!!!

Random Thoughts

You are at a place which has everything you wished for but yet it is not the place you want to be in.. You want to be in the place that you always yearn for but yet it may not have everything that you wished for & opportunities to get there seems far-fetching.. Its hard to have the best of both world.. Is the former or the latter the preferred choice? How is it best to seek the equilibrium in life? An example as quoted from my uni Econs lecturer about the invisible hand theory.. When a baby is crying, let him/her cry on as there will be a time when he/she will stop when he/she knows its to no avail.. so when you keep on dreaming on but no advancement, there will be a time when you stop dreaming..

Wishful Thoughts...

If only my wishes turn real half of the time.. Was chatting with my colleagues about the tremors she felt on Wed in office due to the earthquake in Sumatra.. As I have left for the day so felt nothing.. so I was telling her that all the tremors that people felt was never experience by me.. An unintentional wish came through.. For a moment, felt unwell & I thought the screw of my chair had come loose when I felt my chair shaking or am I gonna faint again?? but my colleague shouted to me if I felt the shake.. Yes!! My first ever encounter with tremors from mother nature.. Compared to the people there at the mercy of natural disasters, my one second of feeling unwell was nothing compared to their pain.. The pain of finding their loved ones under the debris or seeing their homes collapsed, its really heart wrenching.. Lots of other places been hit with natural disasters lately, hope life will get back to normal for them very soon..

Been hearing this song quite frequently lately..

歌名:一百萬
作曲:黃一飛, 編曲:謝繼麟
監製、填詞:黃一飛

若是我有一百萬　一百萬　我有一百萬　一世人就輕鬆

無講無人知　講到真歹勢　吃甲彼呢大漢　擱不曾坐飛機
打拼彼多年　無車無厝擱無愛人　看人娶某擱做生意　有錢擱有勢

若是我有一百萬　我要坐飛機　我要遊世界HAWAII晒太陽　日本吃壽司
若是我有一百萬　我要買車買厝山珍甲海味　啥人卡福氣來乎我做某

若是我有一百萬　一百萬　若是你有欠用錢　開嘴免客氣

若是我有一百萬　我要坐飛機　我要遊世界　義大利飲咖啡　路邊吃Spaghetti
若是我有一百萬　我要買車買厝買店來收租　閒閒免做工　帶狗去散步

若是我有一百萬　一百萬　若是你有欠用錢　開嘴免客氣
若是我有一百萬　一百萬　十千八千拿去用　免還嘛無問題
若是我有一百萬　一百萬～

口白：朋友啊，你想一百萬真多啊！

Hmmm.... If what I wish for will come true like the tremors, I wish I have 一百萬.. 若是我有一百萬 first thing I'll probably do is to have all the cash laid out on my bed & plunge myself onto the bed.. shiok!! Haa.. yes.. crazy thoughts.. Its hard to strike rich when I don't even buy TOTO, 4D or anything associated with gambling.. I can only wish I'll walk on the streets & chance upon stacks of notes.. but on another note I might end up handling it to the police.. haiz.. guess, I can only be an average working adults who will slog till I retire..

Tiger Woods became the first sports star with the billionaire status.. If only I have that day coming forth.. IF ONLY.. To take that route would be pretty tough with me very much still a duffer.. the adrenaline that comes with being able to execute what he can do is strangely thrilled but may one day I'll attain a tiny portion of his mental ability.. looking at him play just wow me..

seemingly, been seeing lots of news or articles talking about the richest people on earth.. But sadly, I'll never be.. Being notified while on the car, I've been unanimously been titled as the director of 'MAS' by my friends with xm seconded to me.. well, I know the reasons to it but I'm definitely not what they say yay.. guess I'll shall still hold on to the wish of finding stacks of notes on the street.. Will you grant me this wish, genie??

Genie.. I need a Genie...

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Let me shout or curse out loud can? before I go bogus.. I really don't understand just how to make things work & I mean it.. for the benefit of my bank account, I have to stop myself from retail therapy.. for the benefit of upholding my obligations, I have to force myself to go for class.. If only a genie appears to grant me all my wishes.. Genie, genie.. where are you??

busy busy weekend ahead...

一直努力的在飞，只希望能有那么一天能到达想到的地方.. 因为太多的太在意，一切变得是一种包袱.. 觉得好累好累.. 天真的希望因为努力完成某些事，一切能变的不同，我错了.. 当那决定已成事实，所有努力在同一时间被否决..

Wondering if there's any value in the continued existence of hoping for a change.. Feeling pretty disappointed and low these days & I just wish there will be a twist in event that will push me forward.. when will that day come? even if it does, will I be contented after that?? who knows??

well.. summarising up, besides classes, classes & more classes (Yes!! I passed when I thought I'll never make it & learning a new sport as well), there's also work, work & LESS work (Yes!! I'm still at the same old boring job when I thought I'll never make past a year) & having fun with friends.. not that there is a need to grumble when there is less work but its frustrating when every hours of yours are accounted for.. at year end appraisal, "TA TA" when boss presents to ya all your billable & non-charagable hours, you are answerable for it.. worst of all, my bonus is dependent on that.. haiz.. exam results stress, work related stress & others just seem never ending..

happiest time are of course when there's play, who doesnt like all play & no work, right??..

:) glad to share my poly buddy's happiest day and all the preparations we made prior to that day.. happy to be part of her fondest memory..

:) inspired by the world's genius, Da Vinci at Science Centre.. I love his paintings!! If only I have the chance to view the actual pieces in Paris.. when will that day come?? We watch the sea monster there too, the last time I watched a show there was when I was in pri school which is ages ago..

:) Kang Xi's exihibition at ACM.. It was not that pleasant as the crowd just seems too much & too noisy as everyone talk so loudly..

:) Ballet under the stars at Fort Canning.. Nice picnic we had & the show was great too.. Its my first outdoor show & not as bad as I thought would be..

:) Rock my way with Mayday!! Love their performance to bits!! We got CAT 1 seats & the stage was much closer up as compared to Wong Lee Hom's concert when he was so small even thou we were seated at CAT 2.. I could so clearly see Ah Xin & the others.. heez.. really happy!! I would glee even just looking at the photos taken from my phone from time to time.. wish we had been seated on the side, I would def reach my hand out to them.. haa... also, should have been more determined to wear the t-shirt I bought from KH during my biz trip which was designed by Ah Xin.. there were lots of people wearing that.. anyway, our next aim is to watch concert at 'xiao ju dan'!! Hope that day comes soon!!

:) Little other stuffs include checking out nice food, movies (latest that I watched are UP, Proposal & Time Traveller's Wife), shopping & chilling out together with friends..

Hmmmm... that's about it.. nothing special happen.. but I'm badly sleep deprived!!!