Have been sneezing away for the past few days & splitting headache.. but I still have to attend night class.. decided to give myself a break tml.. yeah!! sld I go for a morning jog tml morning (with my tissue??)??

Inflation has been hitting hard on s'pore with price hike for everything you can think of.. seen the doct & its a $4 increase in consultation.. if not for avoiding passing the virus to the rest, I would let it sneeze on.. anyway, I've zo-bo-ing now.. guess I wud study at home tml..

its been quite some time since I last updated my blog.. sneezing non-stop now upon reaching home but yet can't get to sleep so here I am, trying to recollect what happen for the past few weeks..

Many things did happen...

9th Jul was the day which I had the most smiles.. prob the happiest day of my life to date.. mum & dad was there to see me in my gown & motarboard on.. Days before my commencement, I was complaining to mum why didnt she want to buy me flowers.. During the actual day, out of sudden, mum told me she thought flowers was all just part of shows shown on tv & she never expect people really doing it.. we has fun helping each other with the gown & lots of phototakings.. when I was out from the dressing room, mum surprise me with a "lion" (the lion that symbolised our sch & s'pore)..


thats my lion!!

we had more photoshoots after the ceremony in sch & esplandae..







was bz with work when I get back... had my first marketing session with clients.. met with many different people but sadly, no asians.. tried my best to mingle around.. had dinner with my colleagues thereafter at Boton Jap rest.. the meal was really nice & it was pretty fun & had our share of laughter..

21st was dad's op.. expected him to be only staying for 3 days but he ended up there for a week.. got a fever on the 3rd day which wouldnt subside so poor dad has to bear with it & stay put.. its sad to see the pain he's experiencing.. it might not be a dangerous op to others but for his case, it is.. the doct had wanted to call all of us there "just in case" but dad said not to call me as work is more impt.. haiz.. got a scare when mum told me abt it.. but all are fine now with him recuperatin at home & a naggy daughter saying not to eat this & that.. its a pretty scary place, seeing people with tubes attached all over & dad even had infection bcoz of the plaster...

on the day when dad started having fever, "lao da" finally have the time to talk to me & discuss all my concerns.. main highlight of the story was that I was confirmed.. happy thing is I got an increase in pay & sad thing is I got to start studying.. thou he said I could do it at my own pace but I hope to finish it fast (provided I pass!!).. taking two subj this sem & lessons gonna start next Mon.. oh mine!! I wanna still be a student but now, prob not as much...

its a rotten wk I had.. feel rotten, demoralised & utterly beaten.. I wish I could put all down & leave.. it only sets my determination stronger to realise that little wish.. this wk, everything just seems to provoke me at the slightest, I don't show it but feeling so upset within myself.. don't understand what people are thinking at times.. I know I'm becoimg grumpy but I can't help it.. was it bcoz of the no value added wk I had or was it bcoz of the decision I made or was it just my prob.. will things ever change?? I wish things would become simpler & people would be more innocent & pure.. I'm not perfect but trying hard to perfect myself in this inperfect world.. I should pratice more? as the sayings goes??

Its 9th July, the special day marking the fulfillment of my dreams & most importantly making mummy proud of her daughter.. its my commencement in a few hours time.. I should be happy but feeling sad at the same time as I bid final farewell to the place which fills my memories with happiness, stress & sadness..

Happiness: having a group of wonderful friends whom tide through with me the difficult times of school & breaking our brain cells on the forever never solvable econs qns.. meeting them was the best thing that happen to me in school.. the days at hall is unforgettable too.. racky the good food in school.. exploring different part of the sch.. picking out our most lovable lecturers is one fun part too.. joining NVAC was fun too as I got to know fun-loving friends who shares the same passion as I have in volunteer work.. Lastly, I'm graduating!!

Stress: It got to be exams when I dug myself in books & notes, trying my best to memorise everything in my limited storage space of the brain..

Sadness: Leaving the school..

Love & definitely missing the days spent in NUS with all my friends & rushing for lectures.. & of course no one will be scolding me even if I day dream in lectures..

Blogging from office.. I just wanna cry!! when I'm about to finish, the comp hangs on me & I have to redo the whole formula sheet for 16,000 rows.. I have to wait 30 mins for the file to be opened & each time I copy over the formulas, I need to wait for at least 15 mins.. still waiting for the updates now.. hopefully its successful this time.. I don't wanna camp in office.. why am I so down on my luck??? I wanna cry!!

I tried to shun away from the comment coz I didn't know what to say nor what I really want.. used to know what I want but now I wish I didn't have to think too far ahead..

**the dates are according to US which is a day behind us**

9th June 08 (Mon), Fort Lauderdale, Sunny

Its the start of our training.. we each had a thick arch file with our notes inside.. there's about 40 over people from different states of US, Canada, London & me!! the only one from Asian country.. Its really great knowing everyone.. It wasnt as bad as I thought it would be, it turns out to be fun.. I'm eating every 2 hrs as for each break, we had some snacks for us besides our main meals.. the first night was a group dinner.. my dishes include salad, appetiser & my main was seabass & ending with tiramisu for dessert & drinks too.. its really nice but the portions are too huge for me.. ended up with my main halfway done.. learnt a lot about others & interesting to be with colleagues whom are too far for me to know about.. its a nice night!!

10th June 08 (Tues), Fort Lauderdale, Sunny with later of the day drizzling

My second day of training and I decided to go with the new friend I made to walk around the area via water taxi after the session.. initially it was only just the 3 of us & it became 7 later on.. the others are gg to the Hooters which we ain't really interested.. it was starting to drizzle & I was kinda disappointed if we cant go in the end but it subside by the time we got there.. the water taxi is fun & we saw lots of mansions along the stretch of the banks of the sea.. its so nice to be living there but you will need to super rich to afford the residential there.. (*wish I was rich*) we settle down at a cafe for dinner as we couldnt find the elbow place which was much recommended.. didnt really like my main as it was really salty but the dessert is a thumbs up!! creme brulee!! yummy!! after dinner, we went to the beach for a walk & chat along with K & her husband.. kinda sad to be leaving them & I had a great time with them..


the group of us...


Karen & me..


on the water taxi..

It's my last night at FLL & I enjoyed everyday & every single minute of it minus the part I have to sit in the conference room for training.. started on my packing when we all got back..

**kinda tired... will continue another day for the later days**

the start of my journey in the States.. a country I come to fall in love with.. simply love the life there..

7th June 08 (Sat), Singapore, Drizzling

I'm on my way to the airport with Dad & Mum sending me off.. [**tts the day of my relative "last night" & my parents will be there for the final farewell.. I feel bad that I couldnt go as I'm leaving S'pore..**] I was kinda tense up as its gonna be a long long flight & its just me alone.. I'm excited too as I'm gonna be on SQ flight to the States.. it really feels uncomfortable having to be on flight for over 20+ hrs & I had to do 3 transits, at HK, SFO & finally Chicago before I reach my final destination.. There was a thunderstorm along the way to HK & the turbulence was pretty bad but it made it!! It was heartening when I finally reach SFO after 17 hrs+ flight but there's still 2 more flights & my butt feels as thou they are splitting soon.. It's a disaster at the baggage claim area at SFO with baggages lying all around & the belt not moving at all as there were just too many baggages.. I finally found mine & off I went for my connecting flight.. yet another confusion as I didnt know which queue to go for as they were so many counters.. I finally found it & on my way to Chicago.. the flight via UA was really bad, it was delayed & when I finally got on the flight, I fell asleep as I was too tired.. guess what, when I woke up, I'm still on the grounds of SFO.. oh mine!! its 1/2 hr & I'm still circuling the airport grounds.. luckily my next connecting flight is another 3 hrs.. there were other people on the flight who had missed their next flight & had to sort other alternatives.. slept again once the flight finally took to the air..

8th June 08 (Sun), Chicago, O'Hare Airport, Sunny

I finally reach Chicago after 4 hrs flight.. I'm really super hungry by then.. bought myself a hot choco from starbucks & a biscuit chicken burger which is really gd but unfortunately S'pore doesnt have it.. there are so many choices on the bf menu unlike S'pore with only just a few.. I must say the burger is cheaper too..


me.. at Chicago Airport waiting for....


the final flight to Fort Lauderdale!!!

I just can't wait to get to the hotel & have a good bath..

8th June 08 (Sun), Fort Lauderdale, Florida, Sunny

I finally touched down at my destination after 20+ hrs of flight!! feeling so tired by the time I reached.. was kinda lost at the airport as I was wondering if I need another stamp to indicate I arrive at FLL.. was directed to T1 from T4 but ended up I didnt need anything at all after talking to one of the pilot which I caught hold of.. along the way, met a family who are really nice & her 2 daughters are really cute!! feeling thrilled stepping on the grounds of US & I love it to bits.. got on the shuttle transport & off to my hotel, Renaissance Fort Lauderdale Hotel..



I had 2 queen size bed in my room so treated 1 as my sofa & another for my bed.. its a huge room overlooking the swimming pool & the scenery from the front of the hotel.. Initially I thought I would find it scary to be sleeping alone in a huge room but my tiredness overtook fear.. decided to walk around the area to see if I can find any shopping area but nothing much & sat down to have ice cream!! wholesome delicious!!


the pie who loves me..

the weather is too hot so decided to head back.. went to the internet room to check my office mail & that's where I made my first friend.. her husband tagged along too for the trip.. they are really nice couple & we had a lot to talk about.. she was commenting others might have thought we knew each other for a long time but actually we just met for 1 day.. kinda missed them now.. it was a nice start for my first day.. its the start of training tml!!

I'm back & am extremely tired.. I must say I love the States.. love everything & everyday of it.. met great people & weird ones as well.. wish I'm still there..

leaving in another few more hours.. hope the training will turn out fine.. engaging myself in the midst of unknown road.. I'll brave thru this trip taken alone..

feeling real tired now.. met up with ex-iras colleagues y'day for dinner, say bye to 3 & the rest of us settle down at double O for drinks.. must say, they close rather early, the lights were switch on at 3am.. tts pretty early for a club.. anyway, was kinda k/o.. we finished 1.5 bottle of Hennessy with ginger ale.. it taste pretty good initially, not until we drink so much, everyone started talking nonsense.. haa.. long live the gals as the guys ended up vomitting.. the last time I was k/o was long way back when I hug my home dustbin.. had fun on my last night in s'pore before I depart for the States..

tata to my friends.. cya all when I'm back...

there are times when I can't really remz the faces of people related to me through the family tree.. there are times when we rarely see each other, prob only during festive season or when something happen.. I wish I could remz some vivid memories but its a blank image.. another relative just passed away in my grown up years, people whom I saw when I was young but not much when I grow up & their faces are now a blurred vision.. it does feel sad to know that someone dear is leaving even when I'm not close to them.. but she's freed from aches & pain from now on, no longer having tubes here & there on the body..