Saw this links in QQ's blog.. find the tarot cards reading depict my current feelings.. just a coincidence or for real, it doesnt hurt to give it a try.. its pretty accurate in predicting my situations.. for the horoscope & blood type reading, its more of analysing a person's character which pretty much describes me except the part of love life & money & as for my career, not in any field which they recommend.. prob its time to change??

Tarot cards reading:
http://www.iqoo.com/tlp.html

Horoscope and blood type reading:
http://www.iqoo.com/xuexing.html

my blog becoming my venting mechanism these days.. nothing much to update abt life except the feelings within me...

I'm definitely the best candidate & no other better candidate to be crowned as Little Miss Grumpy.. grumble everyday, sign everyday, depress everyday.. what else am I good at?? I'm sorry to everyone whom my msg had been harsh in one way or another & esp xm who wakes up to see a 'grumble' almost everyday (self OS: when will the day come when all these stop??).. I never meant it.. ever since my mood falls to the pit, it has never escalated a single tiny bit.. my hormones must be seriously defecting, at a dangerous, worth careful attention imbalance level.. I might breakdown one day.. everything just pisses me off, nothing seems to satisfy me & wonder what is happening to me.. & the victims are my poor wallet (shopping makes me happy!!), xm's hp bill & my emotional well-being.. prob I'm being too hard on myself.. every wrong I've commited, I blamed it on my incapability.. every others that go wrong, I blame it on my lack of effort.. I'm shouldering all the blames as I couldnt find another best person for it.. I'm really trying hard.. I really am... how much more do I have to do??

its finally Fri tml.. TGIF soon!! I need a good sleep.. throw aside all worries & enjoy my 2 days...

well... its gonna be yet another grumbling post.. been in a pretty bad mood these days, wondering if imbalance of hormones is the culprit.. I'm becoming a old granny with lots of grumbles.. hasnt had a good wk.. besides feeling frustrated over work, many other events just pissed me off.. what is happening over me? is that the sympton of aging?

had a small chat with M on Mon, was reluctant to tell him what I feel so far when he asked but finally pluck up the courage to say what I have been bottling up.. there wasnt a sign of relief but juz releasing what I have been stuffing inside me.. also, wasnt expecting much changes even if I said it out.. bao asked if I'm touched with the sincerity, I have no ans neither do I have any feelings.. am I getting numb with all these?? another small chat on fri was on when will I be starting my studies? when? prov I passed the probation & iff still here.. anyway, enuff of work...

met a psyco uncle on bus 147 (I'm pissed off so call him uncle), dont know how old but I really wanna scold "what the f**k!!".. to start off, I was only wearing my office wear.. this uncle suddenly came from behind & sat beside me.. I was concentrating on my book with my mp3 on.. he started to strike a conversation by asking the time.. then ask if I juz finish work.. as a courtesy, told him the time then nod to indicate, yah.. I just k/o.. he then put out his hand, wanna intro himself, I wave it off.. failing tt handshake, he started to prob further, what I working as, am I married & prob some others which I didnt hear as my mp3 is on.. what the h**l!! I made my way down to the lower deck of the bus.. luckily he didnt follow.. so damn down with luck.. stinko psyco uncle!! I wasnt wearing anything revealing.. if ever anyone met up with this situation, shift off yay... dont ever wanna see tt stupid psyco again.. still remz once when I was on my way to bloomberg to pass the client some stuffs, this guy with tie suddenly came up & say I look familiar.. no way do I know him.. I RAN off!! I'm really provoked on tt day.. next incident on bus 147 again, this auntie sat beside me.. well, she didnt try to intro herself but she yawn so loudly non-stop!! I know she must be deadbeat but feeling so paiseh.. decided to take train in future after these incidents..

met up with xm on fri for chill out.. funny incidents happen when we ate the jap ice-cream & kept persuading for our dearest wj to get her butt out of office.. finally she's out at 7pm (btw.. she started work at 7am).. we ate at vivo, central.. not bad but I guess wj's portion taste nicer.. heez.. made our way home after a qucik shopping at daiso..

had mwh session on sat, brought the residents to buy things which they like with the money they have for ang pow.. after the session, had dinner at i-creation.. the food is nice & the portion is just nice for me thou its pretty small for xm & j.. shared a soup, my main course is thai cream spag plus lemon tea & shared a brownie ice-cream at only $13.80.. pretty cheap & nice.. decided on watching vantage point as we really didnt know what to do..



Thomas Barnes (Dennis Quaid) and Kent Taylor (Mathew Fox) are two Secret Service agents assigned to protect President Ashton (William Hurt) at a landmark summit on the global war on terror. When President Ashton is shot moments after his arrival in Spain, chaos ensues and disparate lives collide in the hunt for the assassin. In the crowd is Howard Lewis (Forest Whitaker), an American tourist who thinks hes captured the shooter on his camcorder while videotaping the event for his kids back home. Also there, relaying the historic event to millions of TV viewers across the globe, is American TV news producer Rex Brooks (Sigourney Weaver). As they and others reveal their stories, the pieces of the puzzle will fall into place and it will become apparent that shocking motivations lurk just beneath the surface.
(extracted from http://www.gv.com.sg/moviedetails/gv_moviedetails_7577.jsp)

personal review for the movie.. the first few scenes really got me excited & nervous but was lauging my way thru after tt.. a supposed thriller but I ended up laughing thru out.. there are 8 strangers in this show with different point of views & different vantage points as well.. the show revoles ard in a rewind mode starting off with the president, then rewind to 11.59am, then next came another person... these go on for 6 times!! imagine hearing the mayor speech for 6 times & the president dead for 6 times!! when it kept turning back in time again & again, the whole theatre started laughing.. had a really hearty laugh.. we really sld keep to our initial decision on 10,000 bc.. not really as nice as I tot it wud be.. at the end of it, bad guys die, good guys alive which is a typical ending..

sun is chill out day with xm.. went temple before finding our destination for lunch.. wanted to try victor's kitchen but was made confused by the staffs.. everyone is queueing anyhow.. I dont even know where is the start of the queue.. the staffs are not helpful either.. decided to change another place after tt.. ate at a parklane wanton noodle stall.. pretty nice, had our fill thou pretty disappointed not able to try out the much applauded dim sum at victor's kitchen.. but we'll be going next wk with the others!! yeah!! as usual, we always end up finding a place to sit, had tea at coffee bean before heading home..

saw a really funny video, titled
"Talking Cock in Parliament - Hossan Leong" http://youtube.com/watch?v=myqyKZsknmw..
its a really funny video.. check it out if you are free..

Mon blues coming!! or the sunday post-symptons as xm says?? coz I kept signing.. haiz!!!

pissed!! pissed!! pissed!! pissed off with whatever has happened.. what is it like to be excluded?? I know how it feels, not once but four times.. gd news or bad news when you asked, what do you want me to reply?? what else can I say?? I wonder how long can I endure.. I'm really trying, fitting myself to whatever the size of the space but I'm always out of place.. what sld I do then to make it right?? or all done is just a fruitless case??

A tiring wk.. been OT-ing for the whole wk which I tot I wud nv have to.. been experiencing stagnant situations leading to my despair since I started.. but now I finally got loads of work to do!! as I told my 38, I'm feeling so happy when I'm loaded with tons of work to do.. I wonder sometimes why do I like making life hard for myself but I simply love having tons & endless stuffs to do & I hate life with nothing to do.. at least, I feel I'm learning, attempting to do smthg & having some accomplishments.. others might not understand my absurb tots but I'm destined to slog my life to satisfy myself.. haa.. my cousins said the same thing too.. I'm having a gd environment now but I wanna put myself in a complicated situation.. am I crazy?? or as what eunice says, I'm too ambitious, wanting to achieve smthg & too eager to learn?? prob I prefer dynamic stuffs, fast & swift.. haiz.. give me 6 mths to test it out before coming to a decision..

celebrated jas b'day on wed, a belated one but hope she had fun tt night.. I'm sorry to be late, wanted to leave early but caught up with last min work.. thou I had to work late but I learn smthg new abt my colleagues everyday.. had tele conf with client too on fri.. my first ever conversation with client & I had to converse in chinese thru out the whole conf which I have to later translate to eng to my M.. oh mine, it taken a toll on me with my chinese not used for a super long time.. nonetheless, its a great experience..

my wkend was spent with xm.. guess its a weekly routine to meet her every wk.. we not les yay.. juz relaxing ourselves before the dreadful wk of work start again.. but juz tt, we usually ended up thinking where to settle out butt.. we are plain lazy to walk but juz wanna sit & chill.. are we getting old?? we prefer to purchase out stuffs with a click rather than physically searching ard..

gonna go zzzZZzz le.. its mon blues again.. haiz haiz.. wishing a fruitful & happy wk ahead.. may god bless me with intelligence & ren yuan yay...

Weekend ending yet again.. wishing time would stop here.. haa.. who looks forward to work?? went for a walk with xm on sat afternoon.. kind of bored at home & she's feeling low too.. some fresh air would perk us up!! tried a new dining place at raffles city shopping, Shokudo Japanese Food Bazaar.. its like marche, just tt its jap style.. we ate meat dumplings, ramen & mushroom & cheese ommelete.. to end it up, we had macha ice with ice-cream.. the dessert is a thumbs up.. we enjoyed the huge portion of red beans & the green tea flavour is nice.. enjoyed tt the most.. kind of ex for the whole dinner but the dessert is worth it!!

later in the night, we met up with wj & j for 'Death Note Spin Off - L Change The World..



L is the greatest crime-fighting genius the world has ever known. He proved without a doubt, that fellow genius Yagami Light is KIRA, but at a terrible price. Now with only 23 days to live, and without his trusty partner Watari, L must solve the new case before he runs out of time.
(quoted from gv.com)

Its a nice one & L is def cool in this movie with his little actions which added a touch of laughter.. loved the little boy.. even thou he had no lines but his acting is natural & his facial expression shows it all which depicts his words.. was wondering if the world is coming to an end soon?? seem to be seeing movies which portrays the elimination of human mankind, like the earlier one, 'I am Legend' which I watched.. humans becoming mutants & start disappearing.. now in this movie humans are killed by this virus spreading ard.. knew the focus of the story is not tt but somehow just set me thinking.. prob I'm thinking too much.. But.. the movie is really nice & touching at the back.. had little tears forming but sucked it back coz xm is just right beside me..

been pretty bz for the first part of the week but had a depressing time at the latter.. been thinking lately what wud have it been like if things didnt turn out tt way, what wud me have been like? sorting out my tots, wondering if I have come to terms with reality.. I really tried vry hard, changing myself to fit all circumstances.. do I count it a blessing when I get to know I escape the worst?

dad had his op this wk, another one coming up in early Mar.. seeing dad lying on the hosp bed reveals his frail side.. wish I could take his place instead but glad tt he's recovering & preparing for the next one to come.. was tense up the whole day.. I must say pple keep to the arrival time as stated but the op only started 5 hrs later.. Oh man!! its a torture for the patient as well as for the family members.. not tt there's a need to do any test but its just sit there & wait.. dad couldnt consume food since morning & being hungry is a torture.. haiz... anyway, hope the next one will be better..

met one of the partners & gosh I look so small build in front of him!! I'm the shortest & smallest there with my little brain & sleepy mood.. its finally wkend & there's no mwh session.. looking fwd to trying the new rest tt xm recommends..