Been a busy busy busy weeks... ot, ot & more ot... Horray to MD leaving for his holi & seminar soon!!! haa.. bad employee I am (no wonder I scored so highly at the game of "shaking" when the boss is not ard.. haa..)

kinda lazy to do blogging so here goes a super duper summarized entry..

April: Its CATS musical with yan & von.. its pretty nice & looking to more musicals with the gals again.. its a first time too with no drinks for us & we settled for desserts instead.. healthier, right?? heez...

May: Before I leave for my study leave, had my first opportunity at overseas business trip.. it used to be just in s'pore but happy to have the chance.. it's also the first & last with NK as he's hiring someone soon to help him out there.. feeling kinda sad actually but anyway, no one is irreplacable, right? After I got back, had to cancel part of my leave to help out at the client's place so pretty ill-prepared for the exams.. haiz.. had a bad encounter at the client's place too.. bitched about it with yan & feels great after having all the grumbles out.. The client damn so CMI!!

Had my exams late May, tough papers I had.. doubt very much I would clear them this time.. haiz.. what would MD says if I fail?? cant imagine..

After the exams, its my Japan trip!! heez.. its a trip against all odds as J said.. nearly went for aust instead if not for the flood.. Blessed to have my xm doing all the planning while we all study at ease for our exams.. Its a fun trip with crazy moments as well.. "now or never" a word I heard ever so often the whole trip.. haa.. had plenty of fun but its now back to reality again... will upload some photos here whenever I'm more hardworking yay..

Its been ages since I last updated my blog.. getting lazier & lazier..

a busy May I had. back from a biz trip, study leave, exams & my holidays.. its a full packed month & now its back to reality.. haiz.. back to work again.. will update again when I had enough sleep which I'm greatly deprived..

Too lazy to do any updates thou lots going on for the past few weeks, to top it up, an unexpected incident.. something thats gonna crave a deep deep memory within me.. somehow, this time, it did scares me off unlike the last one.. will do all the updates one shot if I do still remz when Jun comes..

A crazy May ahead which I wish it'll never come but pretty impossible when its here.. haiz.. my calendar is filled to the brim with events & stuffs to do.. anyway, just wanna say 东主有事.. too preoccupied & stress to think of anything else.. wondering how am I going to clear all my readings for the exam.. I'll be away later half of next week so that goes my time for studying.. sobz... thou at the other end, I'm happy to be seeing NK soon... will start my mad mugging with wj once I'm back..

Jia you.. May I be bless with the great brains akin to the theorists to conquer the impossible.. please???

A little tiny wish..

Hearing it is heart wrenching enough.. why is people around me going through such pain lately?? going through the door of the place I dread most.. Hoping for your speedy recovery.. Get stronger yay!!

To ignore this entry.. haiz... wondering what I'm typing about but just going through some thoughts.. emotional upbeat?? still in one piece but tiredness hit...

Life chapters is written as we walked through it.. but at some point of time, it seems to converge to be the same no matter whoever unfolds it.. resention or resigned to the fact? tried all means to come to terms.. a failed means-tested setup I guess.. wished it would have been different in some way but everything seems to go against it.. The possession of little of each of the 5 seems so far-fetched.. wonder if imbalance level of the others would actually compensate for the lack of the others??

On one of the morning, couldnt forced myself to sleep on the bus, I peeped at the huge headings in front of me.. Its true its the worst but yet the best... if everything had been simple, that would have been a motivator factor at least to me.. if only letting it go is that simple..

Finally collected my graduation studio photo.. somehow, sets me missing the good ole days.. when I'm in it, I always thought its an agony as I never expect anything less than putting in all my best.. probably thats why its only when the time to leave, I realise I missed out the little parts of it which would be appreciated more if I do slow down.. life now seems to be a race everyday, starting from the time my eyes open.. I raced to work (coz I snooze too much!!), race to complete work, race to avoid too much OTs... I'm so used to walking fast that my steps are fast even when I'm not in a rush.. its time to slow down before I lose to see the things around me, sense the changing world.. No one stops to wait for anyone, probably I should slow down to walk with all the "ones"..

Nothing interesting worth mentioning yet again.. same old me in the same old routine..

Feeling the return of the bleak period, the return to the same familiar spot.. I did made a step forward to have a shot but a fruitless attempt? It seems like a routine everyday with still the same 感触 as before.. It made me break down but I hang on.. how much longer I wonder?? Something is holding me back but yet pulling me away at the same time.. It's hard to decipher how the route should be walked.. I might have been experiencing high catecholamines level all along?? there's just too many incidents that left me despair.. once, xm asked if I'm disappointed.. deep inside I really was but I put up a strong front..

Had to work on weekend this week but happy to be finally done with it.. Wasnt feeling great actually, splitting headache right from the morning but had to wait for N to send me the file so that I can start working on it.. Its tough having him there & me here as I have to specifically point out whatever I'm saying over the phone or email.. Haiz.. Mum was saying probably I sld go over there but thats nv gg to happen.. I doubt that day will ever come even thou I would agree right away if the question was popped.. Was kinda resentful as I had to skip class just to wait for his mail & the agreed time in the morning became late afternoon.. My gut feeling already told me it wont be morning when he said so but I thought prob there's always an exception.. When you work with someone for sometime, u kinda know what is what.. Haiz..

& so I spent my Sat noon with the usual gang at TopOne.. Initial plan was to watch Marley but guess I'll have to find it online.. the session ended me with a sore throat.. sobz.. sat down later for usual coffee (but for me is tea as I cant take coffee) session.. There's always crazy jokes with them around but we do have serious time too.. at least it brought me away from unhappy things with them around.. couldnt join them for run this morning as I have to work.. went for a jog myself but didnt complete my target & ended up nearly fainted but I cooled down just in time.. It serves me right, worked till 2am last night & woke up super early plus feeling so unwell.. if not for the extra pounds gained over CNY which I had no luck at shedding it off, I would def tuck myself in bed longer..

Boring week right?? anyway.. Mon blues is approaching.. & tues, everyone is out for overseas client meetings but most will only be coming back next week.. I'm left to fend for myself.. & I got a new title, "despatch person" aka "ka kia"..

Nothing special worth mentioning for this week.. a routine and dull life of work and study.. met up with E & V for dinner.. a nice catch up we had.. had movie session with my friends y'day so here goes the movie review..

Slumdog Millionaire



"Slumdog Millionaire" is the story of Jamal Malik, an 18 year-old orphan from the slums of Mumbai, who is about to experience the biggest day of his life. With the whole nation watching, he is just one question away from winning a staggering 20 million rupees on India's "Who Wants to be a Millionaire?"

But when the show breaks for the night, police arrest him on suspicion of cheating; how could a street kid know so much? Desperate to prove his innocence, Jamal tells the story of his life in the slum where he and his brother grew up, of their adventures together on the road, of vicious encounters with local gangs, and of Latika, the girl he loved and lost. Each chapter of his story reveals the key to the answer to one of the game show's questions.

Intrigued by Jamal's story, the jaded Police Inspector begins to wonder what a young man with no apparent desire for riches is really doing on this game show?

When the new day dawns and Jamal returns to answer the final question, the Inspector and sixty million viewers are about to find out... (extracted from gv)

Was appealed to the show with it winning 8 Oscars awards.. was wondering whats the winning point of it.. It's my first at watching a show with Indians as the cast of the movie.. Its saddening to see the rural & poor life of the less fortunate.. Born in city, the experience of living in a slums is something far from me.. It did reminds me of the life I experience when I was in Cambodia, how the kids had to beg to survive.. Never can I imagine a life of that.. Humans are never contented but for them, having a piece of bread is a treat to them.. It always reminds me of the scene in Cambodia.. We were having our lunch and the rice was just too much so we had the drumstick and threw away the packet of rice.. the villagers start digging through the stuffs we threw away.. If I had known this, I would just give them the whole packet with the drumstick.. This is a simple movie depicting the life of the poor but I wouldnt say its so good to the extent of winning so many Oscars adwards..

Its the once a year thingy...

Happy Birthday to me!! 1 year older now but nothing big accomplished yet.. Hope I'll achieve something in future to come.. Had a nice dinner with my sec sch friends last night & today a yummy cake from Fullerton Hotel from my colleagues.. Haiz.. its sad to be in late twenties stage..

It been a sad week actually.. I'll walk pass the place you used to occupy everyday.. I must say feel really 不舍得.. there's no one poking at me anymore.. I tired to cut short the words to ya to avoid ending up crying.. being too emotional, I'm capable of crying when it comes to seperation.. even reading a book can make me cry.. when sending off the last of ya, did hold a breath to stop.. but of course happy for ya in the advancement & hopefully I'll accomplished smthg great too in years to come.. whats the future me like??

Happy thing as well.. met our US partner who just retired.. he's really nice & fatherly.. sadly, too short a time to know him more.. he sent a card to me from US when I reached my 1st year in office.. It came as a surprise as we dont work together and never seen me before as well.. Appreciate it.. During the time he's in our office, he asked me to write down his name in Chinese..

Lastly.. grateful to all the well-wishes from my friends...

Its CNY!!

The new year has just passed & now its the lunar new year.. feeling that these festive seasons came all at one go for this year.. with age catching up, I'm no longer as enthu as when I was a kid.. but I do appreciate the holi to rest..

It was a sleepless night on Thurs morning, slept at 1am, woke up at 2am then 4.30am to check my results.. cant really predict the UK timing of releasing the results so I have to wake up every few hours to check my email but it was all worth it.. I passed!! I couldnt believe it.. couldnt imagine having to do the 2 killer papers again.. was prepared to redo it again if thats my fate.. but I'm really relieved!! MD even suggested a big sweep with everyone contributing 2 bucks to guess my average marks.. he is so excited doing it but a sleep deprived me just want a bed.. I'm glad my P8 was not too bad.. at least it was better than what my colleagues got.. heez.. I did really studied hard.. left with 2 more papers before I cleard this level and 2 more levels to go before I'm declared done with it.. it was also CNY team lunch on the same day.. we ate ate Crystal Jade Palace.. We ordered almost 10 dishes I think.. I'm actually quite full after the dim sum which is only just the starting.. was so bloated at the end.. then it was my apprisal back in office and b'day celebration for N (cake again!!).. after dinner was marketing session with clients.. ate again with bottles of white!! the session ended almost 1am.. I was deadbeat by the end of the day.. all in all.. a happening Thurs..

Went Chinatown with my parents to get some festive mood as well as to do some last min shopping.. Phew!! I finally found my CNY clothes.. was still brooding what I should wear.. met up with xm later at CT & we ended up sitting at an Indian Temple as she wanna see the interior of the temple.. caught up with wj & j later for movie.. so here goes movie sharing session again... Introducing Red Cliff 2..


Produced and directed by internationally-acclaimed Director John Woo, RED CLIFF II tells the story of the legendary Battle of Red Cliff, a decisive battle during the period of the Three Kingdoms in China, as told in the Chinese classic novel Romance of the Three Kingdoms. (extracted from www.gv.com.sg)

I didnt watch the first part so there was no form of comparison.. my colleague who watched it prefers the 1st compared to the sequel which is the usual comments from most viewers.. Its not too bad with the ever charming Takeshi and Tony.. the only part which I didnt like is the last part I guess.. as a more sensitive person, all I could think of was the pain and scrifice that the folks had to go through all bcoz of the leader's pursue of power.. the result is most often the loss of so many innocent people whom just want to with their family.. is it worth lying your life when the riches and credit all goes to the leader?? I wish the world will never have to go through this type of ordeal.. I'm not a samaritan but wishes for peace..

May the new year bring luck and all wishes be fulfilled.. Huat Huat Huat!!!

Lost in thoughts..

Changed my blogskin to a simple one.. time for some change...

Sharing session of movie again...This is actually a movie which I caught 2 weeks ago.. not been updating my blog lately.. not busy at work but just plain lazy.. but anyway.. introducing IP man..



Ip Man is adapted from the life story of Ip Man, the grand master of the Wing Chun style of kung fu and sifu (master) of legendary kung fu superstar Bruce lee. Wing Chun has a history of more than 200 years. It was founded by Yim Wing Chun, took root in the hands of Leung Chun, and prospered with Ip Man. The art of Wing Chun has now become very popular with martial arts enthusiasts, especially overseas. It is a traditional Chinese martial art with a formidable reputation internationally.

To this date, there have been neither movies nor publications about Ip Man. This movie will be the first important record of the masters life. Ips persistent devotion to Wing Chun is a classic example of the love and respect shown to wushu and the freedom and spirit it represents. This movie will see the making of a modern wushu master representative of Chinese people worldwide. Ip Man is a concept, a spirit, a way of thinking and it represents a new peak in Hong Kongs wushu movies.(extracted from www.gv.com.sg)

A really nice movie with laughter and sadness.. yes.. I did sniff my nose and supressing my tears coz I dont wanna be caught by my friends.. It showcase the patriotism of IP for his country.. when we are supressed under a more superior power, do we subccumb to circumstances or do we hold a fight to get back what belong to us?? I definitely hold my admiration for him because I know I def would end up as the former.. wonder at times why do pple declare war against each other.. arent victims always the pple of the country.. do the leaders ever think of the sufferings that might be implanted because of their greed or to show superioty?? just like the bombings incidents that are happening.. is showing who's the boss at the expense of human sufferings more impt?? haiz..

Today event at the welfare home of my volunteering sets me thinking again.. I really admire the director of the home.. everyone might think that he must be someone who's very senior or prob balding (baddie me!!) but he's less than 30.. he is willing to give up monetary benefits for the betterment of the less privilge.. this selfless act is something I really admire.. I can see the care he has for the old folks there and is sincere in helping them to integrate back into the society.. I ever once told mummy I wanna work my life as a volunteer.. even thought of just secretly leave the country telling no one (prob just my parents) to help pple around the world.. prob my departure wouldnt even be noticed?? being a soft girl, I tot thats smthg that really suits me.. just like a family svc centre I went, the lady said I had the calibre for a social worker.. but mummy said no.. I guess I cant give up the monetary benefits that holding a job would give me.. branded goods, good food, nice clothes.. I guess most girls loves all of them.. money is smthg which is most impt to me at present.. I know its not everything but its def smthg you cant do without.. even going toilet need money!! nothing comes free.. I'm in the blind chase for material life..

I lost lots of chances along the journey of life & hope I'll never again but guess its only when it slips do we realise the wrong turn.. opportunity only comes once so grab hold of it when it comes knocking.. at times I find comfort in the current zone & hate to get out of it.. no matter how bad or how bored it is, I'm still stuck.. my tolerance level is really high I must say.. till the day I break down is the day I had enough?? I wish giving up is so easy to attain.. who doesnt have dreams?? but nothing seems to work no matter how hard I try.. trying is not enough, you need the luck.. harping on it doesnt help but I'm still holding on to it, hoping for a day that it might come true.. my friend said I'm crazy to even think of it but I hate to give up when I tried so hard..

I think age is catching up on me.. think too much these days.. not looking fwd to next wk.. smile or frown will be dependent on what happen on Thurs but I'm prepared for the worst.. am I really?? arrggghhhh!!!