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Seiously, doubt I'll make it this time.. won't be as lucky as before.. the ideal turns out to be so different.. what more could I expect?? feeling so lousy.. not looking forward to the days ahead.. counting down to the day when my mood might fall to the lowest.. the blackest moment yet again... ah!!!!!!!!!! wish I could find a place to shout it out.. trash my lungs out.. the only solution can only be to get out of it..