found this song in qq's blog which I have been looking for..《天涯侠医》的片尾曲.. .. Its my current fav drama show.. Heez...

if you wander off too far,
my love will get you home　　
if you follow the alone star,
my love will get you home　
if you ever find yourself losing long alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy,
my love will get you home　　
if the bright lights blind your eyes,
my love will get you home　
if your troubles break your strike,
my love will get you home　　
if you ever find yourself losing long alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home　
if you ever feel ashamed,
my love will get you home　　
when there's only you too blame,
my love will get you home　　
if you ever find yourself losing long alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home　　
if you ever find yourself losing long alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy,
my love will get you home,
boy, my love will get you home

hopefully.. if ever my friends are lost in anyway.. may my love get you home..

Did I tried not hard enough?? not enuff effort?? It wasnt what I thought would be the outcome.. kind of demoralised.. or sld I be used to it? getting tired when I thought I'll make it but it had stay as a hope all along.. self-deceiving all along.. tried to be optimistic but its hard when you put all your heart & soul at it.. This isnt a gd wk.. stress wk and to top it up, I havent recover yet.. sobz...

Tues: had my int'l econs test at 8am after last night paper ended at 8.30pm.. a tiring day and having to wake up early the nest day.. its a tough paper (after the health setback, another one to top it up).. haiz.. I know I shouldnt be eating mac but sarah wanted to eat tt for lunch so ate the 'softest' food there which is fish burger as suggested by alvin & xm.. took like forever to finish it, had to take small bite.. fries is cleared off by the others.. cant eat much of it either.. stayed back in sch to study & continued after tt when I got home till 3am.. but got scolded by xm.. haa.. "sick already, still stayed up so late."

Wed: a usual day of lect & mugging after tt.. but feeling pretty sick, sore throat after tues mac & my gum ache still there.. again, ate smthg which I shouldnt be eating again.. ma la steamboat in sch in the evening.. heez.. its a new product from the china stall.. VERY HOT but shiok.. cant enjoy it thoughly as every bite is a pain to me.. after which I bought lemon tea to put out the fire in me when I'm finally done... prob tt explain why I'm still not recovering..

Thurs: missed my pilates as I'm afraid I wont be able to clear my readings.. another night of MUGGING...

Fri: its global econs test.. 90 qns in 90 mins.. haiz.. MCQ was nv my forte.. its a disaster.. I had to guess all the questions which asked me when did this happen.. I hate MCQs.. always fared the worst in it.. always being reminded of the time when I only passed my CLAW paper, passed the MCQ section marginally and if not for section B, the paper is declared hopeless.. but did get to go home early today (is 7pm counted?) after a ice-cream treat.. yeah!!! but my gum hurts now.. :'(

Haiz.. suffered shocks this wk but guess wont mention abt it.. hope my gum will recover soon... I dont wanna eat oatmeal ever single night.. been eating it since mon.. sobz... will be gg to sch on sat to continue mugging.. wed will be the toughest battle, game theory.. haiz.. its a mod which nv in my life will I understand the rationale for all the theorems & graphs..

Happy Children's Day to my friends... Heez.. thou its a day celebrated years ago, its no longer a holi for me.. even youth day is gone.. as you grow up, public holi diminishing too..

wanna commerate today as I think I flucked my Health Econs.. Its a memory game which I sucks at.. sobz sobz... think almost half of the paper I'm clueless of what its saying & to top it up, headache plus gum ache.. hope tml int'l econs will spare me..

didnt manage to eat much today, left 3/4 of the food every meal.. but finally manage to eat a bowl of oatmeal when I got home after my paper.. so happy.. while in the canteen, every food smells so nice to me but yet I cant consume solid food, only liquid or soft food as I have difficulty biting.. looking fwd to eating yummy food... *Drool*

not feeling well as for the past 2 days, being tormented by gum infection.. Haiz.. its so pain tt I couldnt sleep last night, end up crying like a little child, hoping it will ease the pain.. I could feel the swell inside me & it got the better of me.. I guess I finally slept at 4 or 5 but woke up early to see the doct.. prescribed with antibiotics & painkillers.. painkiller is def my saviour!!! when the doct said it wont heal so quickly, my heart sank immediately.. he added that it will take a week.. oh man!! start of tml are all my midterm papers & I have to take it with pain in my mouth.. declared a mute now coz opening my mouth is so painful & even eating is hurtful.. Haiz.. hope I'll recover soon.. pain, pain go away, nv come again.. no chocolates & ice-cream in the meantime too.. sobz sobz...

may god blessed me with intelligence and luck for all my 4 papers.. didnt manage to go down to si ma lu today as I was feeling so unwell.. sobz...



Besides mugging hard last week, celebrated xm's b'day on thurs.. Happy b'day bayi!! we ate at Breeks after cracking our brain to choose a place.. I ate rosemary garlic chicken plus shared waffle fries with the gang.. was so full tt I couldnt finish it (as usual.. Haa... I always have difficulties finishing my food..).. walk ard vivo for a while before heading home to continue mugging..

Those were the days...

Childhood is a pleasant phase.. Its filled with spanking times, playful times & happy moments with a carefree life of no worries.. "dont friend you", as much as it sounds childish, it is a childhood phrase of every kid..

Its the mooncake festival again & I see children carrying laterns ard with the smiles on their face when I was walking clarke quay there with xm & wj after dinner.. wondering when was the last time I did tt.. prob after pri sch life? when I was still a little kid, I always wish I was a grown up.. in primary sch, I wish I could advance on to upper pri soon.. & when I was in sec sch, I wish my green collar will become white as I go on to upper sec.. I always have the mindset, how nice it is to be a senior as I always tot being in the upper sec, you are wiser than your juniors.. haa.. sounds so childish isnt it?? but now, its all a memory of what I am as a little gal.. life becomes burdened with worries as I become older.. prob tts smthg I didnt anticipate to come with.. as life goes on to another stage, everyone is burdened with worries of life: what job to be in, finding your life partner, life after marriage, your child & an endless lists of events of part & parcel of life..

Childhood holds the memory of a kid.. prob not all has a childhood worth remembering but what one experience during childhood is what one who remembers most.. I wish I could contain it all up, holding on to the past..

wk ending soon & study wk is nxt wk.. its mugging time again.. dont even feel tt I have attended much tut & its mid-term time.. tension building up as time passed.. Haiz.. lots of things to do..

went down to FTC y'day to collect info for CFA.. Hmmm... the course is pretty ex & I have serious doubt how many times I have to take it to pass even thou there is no limit to the number of yrs to take it.. if I dont sign up now, the cost will diff by US$100 nxt yr (feb 08) & US$300 1 mth later (mar 08).. OMG.. the difference is so great.. wonder if I sld bet my future on it.. anyway, mummy is supportive, so whatever I choose to do, she'll support me.. Heez... will still study smthg in future but still indecisive of which one it is... after tt, went for threading.. its my first time & super pain... guess I still prefer the plucking mtd.. the pain is not so much... my wk a boring one.. still revolving ard readings, readings & more readings.. but will be gg down to mwh for comm svc this sat..

met up with eunice today.. she's still my dearest 'bitchy' friend.. Haa.. Its been a long time since I last met her but as usual, we have lots of stuffs to talk abt.. (**although you may still not be able to let go, but I have learn to, so can you.. it may be hard but there's no point in harping on it.. treasure those still with ya..) she's waiting for me to join the workforce.. well.. I am... very soon.. soon, instead of chatting abt my studies, we'll talk abt the 'real life' of stepping into the working industry.. Heez..

ate dinner with bao tonight, bought tonic pills & bao bought shorts.. but feeling guilty coz didnt do much readings.. its a lullaby to me, few pgs is enuff to knock me down.. Haiz.. muz study hard.. gg up 'er mei shan' next wk le... its time for battle again.. 4 mid term papers to clear.. May god bless me with intelligence & luck..

Mid term tests are coming soon.. getting stressed up with so many doubts still in me.. hope everything will turn out fine.. need to clear all my mod in order to grad.. this sem seem to pass very quickly & its the mid of the sem soon & pretty soon final exams are coming.. by then, its the end of my sch life.. I guess I'm a lucky gal, to meet great friends in uni & they are crazy like I am.. had our share of laughter as well as tiding stress period together.. looking forward to what I'm gonna face in the future after sch life.. what is my future like?

this week isnt a good one... daddy injured his leg during work & now his 2 legs are swollen like pigs trotters.. just like bro's leg when he injured himself during soccer.. now daddy become the 'begger's sect' head with his stick walking ard.. hope he'll recover soon.. seeing him having difficulties walking ard really pain my heart.. Haiz... wished I can grad soon, find a gd job then he wont have to work so hard..

fri met up with nancy & bao for dinner & to see mooncakes.. while waiting for them to come, went kino to shop ard.. bought 3 books at one go, guess I must be really crazy to buy so many books when I barely have time to finish my sch readings.. but I just cant help myself... trying to read more inspiring or economics related books in the hope I'll be more economically inclined.. Haa.. which is like quite impossible.. just like Jin Han asked me why I dont wanna be an economist.. its like impossible as it takes a lot to be one.. I dont have the deep thinkings or intution of the economy like Smith or Keynes or Alfred have.. an economist? prob when there's a day I'll be able to think like them.. bought also yam mooncake for mummy.. still probing if wanna buy the durain from Goodwood.. its so tempting.. *drool*...

missed MWH session today.. kind of lazy to go down plus hopefully I'll be able to get all my readings & tut done today then I can start on my report tml.. need to buck up!!! Jia you!! Kor kor & san yi may be coming down tml with mooncakes too if they managed to finish baking early.. Heez... hope they will come down & I'll have yummy moncakes.. I'm little miss greedy, sld take the title away from xm.. Haa...


Little Miss Greedy & Me...


Friends in uni (looked so ugly in the pic.. sobz sobz)...

Been deprived of sleep these days.. having to wake up early for classes & attending recruitment talks in the night.. been pondering over what do I want to be in the future.. I am determined of the place I wanna work in but will I be cut out for the place? is the place really what others has said & is SK right about what kind of person you have to be like in order to suvive?? it might not have been the ideal kind of working life or environment, but this has not changed my decision.. its still top on my list but will I make it there? mummy asked me to give up, she dont want to see me working for long hrs every single day but I'm willing to try even if it means working 12 hrs everyday.. Haiz.. what is the future me like? stressed over the life ahead..

thurs is really not a good day.. first i tried missing my flight & now I totally forgot about attending my tutorial... OMG.. I totally shove it behind me.. Its only when I got on the bus do I realise My blurness.. Haiz.. happily went for pilates & forgot about my tutorial class.. Its the only class tt starts in wk 4.. thus, kind of forget the existence of it..

yesterday went down to mwh, its the first time i see so many volunteers... my existence wont be so important in the future & I can go all the way for my last sem studies.. Haa... (excuses I'm thinking up)... we brought the residents to clarke quay.. its quite a change, prob its been a long time since I last went there.. had a nice session with them before gg off to vivo for a short walk with wj & ej.. went home after tt as mummy cooking curry for dinner..

gonna go back to my readings.. havent done any for last wk & tutorials is piling up.. Haiz.. sad...

Its sun again & gonna start a new wk of sch tml.. will be meeting my prof for health tut tml & he's the one who's too detail in every single slide till he have difficulties finishing lect every wk.. oh mine.. he better finish with tut tml.. I hate makeup tut & lect..

my game tut on fri was not too bad, the tutor is the lecturer himself which I tot he is pretty nice & good, not bcoz he's a korean but he's really approachable.. & the plastic bag guy is in my class again but he is upgrading himself now.. Heez.. no longer carrying NUS co-op plastic bag but G2000... does ang mo prefer carrying plastic bags to sch?? he's the first & the last I saw tt does that.. met jolene in the afternoon for lunch.. Its been a long time since we last saw her ever since our major became different.. its lect again after tt @ 4pm.. dread gg to lect but surprisingly, I'm quite alert but only for the first half of the lect... Haa... after lect, went MS to meet jas & von... its von's b'day... (Happy B'day yve!!) we went k-box for dinner cum sing.. didnt sing a lot coz we 3 really cant multi-task.. its buffet so of course must eat value for money.. when we finally decide to sing, we forgot our dessert... sobz... I didnt get to eat my cream puff.. after our k-session, we went walking ard & we each bought a pair of shoes.. Heez... had fun tt night... planned to study in the night but was too tired.. slept early as next day is my aerobics challenge...

woke up early on sat to go bugis to pray before making my way down to civic plaza for the challenge with bao.. Its super crowded with lots of women as its women's day.. the challenge is 3 hrs with cardio-latino, aerobics & kickboxing.. all are really fun & I sweat like I'm in a sauna.. had a intense workout & it feels great after completing the 3 hrs session.. decided to join iron women (5 hrs) next yr & prob yoga also plus shape run, 5km... haa... but must train up as my body quite weak.. dont wanna faint along the way.. ever since the last time I fainted in sch, pretty afraid of fainting somewhere along the street...

have to quickly finish all my readings.. plus complete my tut.. vry low productivity today... haiz... kept dozing off after a few page...