This wk pretty packed with lots of activities.. had a happy wk.. this wk is also the wk I stepped into the 1st qtr of my century of life.. it meant I'm growing old as well.. sobz.. hope I'll achieve new accomplishments in the future.. had my b'day cel with my uni kakis, colleagues & sec sch kakis... was surprise tt my colleagues celebrated for me as I just joined the firm.. thank you all..


My uni friends..


My b'day cake..


Cake from my colleagues..


My colleagues..


My colleagues..


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Our dinner at pasta @ waruku..









My sec sch friends..

Went for interview at XX this wk too.. might seem absurb when I have not even worked long there & I'm gg for interview again.. gaving up XXX really hurts with it being a place I ever wanna get in so I dont wanna give up anymore.. hope to open up myself to more opportunities.. the place is really nice & its really a gd firm too.. it wud have been wonderful if I can get in but still thinking over.. the results not out yet but I guess my chance are low.. I'm tongue tied at most of the qns he asked.. its the worst ever interview I ever been to, case study to discuss & asking my aspiration in 20-30 yrs time when I havent even started my career.. haiz.. still doubtful of the route ahead.. wonder what sld I do to be really happy.. may god bless me with intelligence & gd luck..

need a gd rest.. been so tired these few days... its fri tml!! yeah!!

hasnt been gd for working life.. its hard to depict what I'm feeling & the despair I'm experiencing.. prob what wj says is right, she cant understand how am I feeling right now & cant say much but decided to give myself a chance to try.. whatever the final decision is, I'll brave thru the journey.. there's no gd indication either, does tt means neither is a correct choice? whats the route ahead.. feeling so demoralised... haiz..

yesh!! gonna stepped into 1/4 of the century soon as jas said.. age catching up, lao ren le.. my b'day wish.. hmm.. for everything gd to befall!! I'm a greedy woman.. Haa.. had my b'day cel with yan, yve & jas on fri.. we had our dinner at Clarity Cafe.. the portion is pretty big & the four of us couldnt finish it.. after shopping ard, we made our way to Shanghai Jazz for chill out session.. we had smthg diff this time round.. white wine for the four of us!! the chillout place is really chilling but a nice experience nonetheless.. for the highlight of the night, our dearest devil-ish yve suggested hard liquor for me but luckily I was spared from 'graveyard'.. coz I still wanna go home without hugging a dustbin or having someone to carry me back.. haa.. the threesome decided on waterfall for me in the end.. thank you gals for everything as well as my first branded good - a coach pouch for my b'day gift..


waiting for my waterfall...


the babes (1)


the babes (2)


the babes (3)




My pressie!!

Our first befriender prog started on sat.. its a diff experience this time, more attention is given to a resident we will be attached to.. hopefully as time goes along, they will be more familiarised with us & open up to us more.. its a refreshing way of talking to them but I'm sorry to other residents who called me there but I couldnt sit down with them.. I was planted with a surprise too!! I'm really a mi hu person, believing jx tt he really had smthg to show me.. thank you all who planned my b'day cel for me.. well.. except for the candles!! one is enuff but XX are all implanted there.. but it was really a surprise..


Jon with my cake.. forgot what wish I made..


All smiles..


Mwh family..

really appreciate & thanks to all my friends.. stepped into a new chapter of life & may everything be smooth & blessed with luck... its Mon again.. Dread!! prob I sld find a job which I look fwd to gg everyday...

when I tot tts the end, one came after another.. I sld be feeling happy but rather, I'm feeling so caught up..in confusion state these days.. feeling tt I have been giving up too much & wonder if its all worth it.. afraid to feel regret but I have no ans.. was just telling myself how nice if it was tt, & just few days later, it really did happen.. will I pick up money from the street if I said it out of the blue?

feeling so restless these days.. its almost 1 mth but learning is so slow, wondering what have I learn & achieve.. feeling so useless & adding no value at times.. there are times when I just sit there & read.. it might not be tt bad but it made my mood drop to the pit.. sat seems to be my happiest day, nv have I feel gg mwh wud be so relieving & joyous.. it wasnt meant as a place for turning off unhappiness but at least doing smthg I find fulfilling & happy..

what to do now? to stay or to leave?

was feeling bottled up these days which caused my pocket a huge hole as shopping will make my day!! met xm & wj for dinner y'day but a quick one as xm has to go back to work.. not tt she works ot but she work from 5pm-2am.. met yan tonight for dinner.. we ate our fav Hup Hup.. heez.. 2 happy gals now.. its been a long time since we last ate there.. reminds me of the time where we find our fav food there.. yummy!!

its fri tml!! my motivation!! having dinner with jas, yve & yan tml.. then more dinner feasts to come next wk.. oh mine, I'll need to run more mills to compensate for the extra fats on me..

This CNY pretty toned down.. but I'm happy to just laze ard, nuai in bed & watch tv all day, to the pt I experienced headache.. Haa.. if I dont do it now, when's my next holi coming up?? I cant take leave for my first 6 mths or until my probation is over.. haiz.. cant wait for 21 Mar.. working life sure sucks.. I got my new hp too as a motivation to jia you or prob its juz a way of giving myself an excuse to buy smthg!! Heez.. was tempted by xm.. haa.. cant help myself but being at the mercy of my swaying determination.. I could have save $30 bucks after knowing J bought it on CNY eve & every phones are discounted at $30 less.. I bought mine just 1 day earlier.. Humph!!! he was commenting I sld have waited.. but but but.. I'm working & by the time all shops wud have closed for the day..

sat went shopping with xm as mum went out with my cousin & I didnt want to go.. come to realise tt we sld start to communicate & care more abt our loved ones as we might missed a lot of whats happening to them.. so much have happen to 2nd uncle's family but we knew so little.. hope everything will go well for them..

went sentosa with xm, wj & j to the flower festival.. last yr was much nicer.. as what the newspaper said, could see the traces of what visitors have done, plucking away the petals & stepping on them.. how could pple do this when there this is for everyone to drop by to see this once a yr?? the weather is really hot too, I'm burnt.. xm was saying my face is so red, I tot she was kidding me but its not!! sunburn on my face as well as my back.. oh mine!! ate marche for dinner, ate our fill, shopped to our heart contents before the dreadful Mon comes again.. its work tml!! as well as my rotting session..

last wk: my memory kinda failing.. couldnt really remz what happened for the last wk (prob what they say abt piggies in the rat yr is true? being forgetful.. Haa..)except bz learning the ropes at work.. getting along well with everyone for now, still trying my best at work & to mingle well with everyone.. was at chinatown last fri, it was drizzling hard & the tents were filled with water.. beware when you see that the tents get 'heavy', it just become water bombs.. but I guess nancy is the happiest with her 'goods of victory'.. we settled down for dessert as there wasnt much for me to buy with every stalls selling almost the same stuffs..

sat: spend my day at mwh session singing & playing along with the residents to celebrate cny.. one funny incident happen to xm.. there was a grp of residents gg for an outing to celebrate cny, there's this auntie who couldnt go along & started to cry when they are departing.. she started to rest her head on xm's shoulder.. oh mine.. I was walking towards her, wanting to console but retract my steps when she nearly laid down on her shoulder.. haa.. we had fun & I do hope the residents had their share of joy.. wished that we really brought them happiness & the companionship which they lack.. we'll be starting our befriender prog soon, aiding them to integrate back into the society.. tts our next mission!! we met up with J after tt for dinner.. had curry fishhead, chicken wings & veg.. yummy.. its nice.. thumbs up!! we settled down at tcc for coffee & tea.. a tiring day...

sun: met xm, wj, ej & j for kayaking.. but but but... the weather wasnt nice to us at all.. to top it up, the whole shop tt rents out kayak was GONE!! the shop was tore down & even the toilets!! oh mine!! wj was so upset.. haa.. we ended settling down at the food center for food.. it started to pour as time passed.. haiz... we quickly made our way to tamp mall when the rain gets smaller.. witness the birth of xm's phone after a much awaited time.. haa.. one of the sales personnel was commenting her phone was the 2nd series of camera phone.. to think tt so many camera phones have been released in the market, her phone is really an antique.. haa.. ej & I went home after tt as we have tons of clothes to iron.. DREAD!! tts one of the bad pts of working life..

its chu yi today!! wishing all my friends all the best for the rat year.. may what they wish for come true, stay happy always & sadness to stay away.. had lunch gathering y'day with all my colleagues.. heez.. I shared the cab with MD & M to our destination which got me really tense up.. was afraid what sld I talk to them.. haa.. but all ends well & found tt MD was pretty nice when we are not working.. haa.. he has his firm side when coming to work but besides tt, he likes to make the atmosphere lively & happy.. dined at orchard hotel.. we were all so stuffed!! had 8 dishes which includes peking duck, suckling pig (the whole pig!!), soup, veg, pork, prawns, spring rolls & noodles.. I surrendered at the 2nd dish but still had to go on.. MD & M had beer & M ended up with a reddened face.. haa.. tts what happen when he drinks.. btw.. why are almost all the dishes all meat?? coz both MD & M are meat lovers.. there are many leftovers so M packed them all back coz most shops wud be closed but he's flying back home for holi today.. in fact, I have to work until 6pm, was still feeling sad but MD asked if I have anything impt to do & he just say go home!! Haa.. everyone was released home early after our lunch except for M who still has unfinished jobs to settle before he fly off.. yeah!! guess I was really tired, slept my way home..

even thou all are gg on smoothly now but my heart swayed when I rec'd the email.. was so tempted when I saw it.. wonder if I'll regret if I give up & not even giving it a try, be it be a success or failure.. still pondering..